I’m just so heartbroken...you have no idea. I didn’t think I would be heartbroken again so soon. It seems like I have heartbreak...every year. Since 2017...and then 2018, 2019 (the worst), ...and now 2020? ...how could it be? I didn’t earn these heartbreaks and betrayals. I did...I did everything right, didn’t I? ;; All I’ve ever done was to love wholeheartedly...and then to have my heart treated carelessly..over and over and over. So why do I try? Why do I...trust? It took me so long and so hard to get here. Yet I feel like I’m back to the start with more wounds than before. I didn’t do the wrong things; and yet I feel like I have done something wrong. Surely I have learnt? ...so what am I doing wrong? Or should I not blame myself? I guess that doesn’t help. But it hurts. It hurts so much.