#killua.doc

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How I, Killua Zoldyck, feel about....

Gon: Good and perfect and the best thing that ever happened to me.

Kurapika: Badass, A+, rad person, intense af

Leorio: Nerd, fun to antagonize, good friend, kind person

Kalluto: One of two Zoldycks I didn't hate talking to

Alluka: Purest Zoldyck, amazing sister

Nanika: Amazing sister, I don't consider her technically "a Zoldyck" but she's still my family, trust me not being a Zoldyck is a good thing

Dad: Mixed feelings because I used to idolize him, but I still don't want to interact with him

Illumi: I don't want anything to do with any of you for many reasons please do not come near me for my mental health and yours this is not an Illumi friendly place

Literally any other Zoldyck: Please Do Not, bad family

Hisoka: My emotions about Hisoka are complicated because my Hisoka was way less Bad than canon, but I cannot handle 99% of Hisokas and you know exactly why

Bisky: A good person who deserves good things, Bisquick sjfjcjsj

Spiders: No hard feelings tbh you do you just dont fuck with my friends (does not include actual arachnids, who need to stay out of my sight for their health and safety)

If you aren't on the list shoot me a message or ask, but we're probably good.

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I love my sisters.

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Gon was such a good friend! He made me feel like I had worth and truly believed that I was more than what my family made me to be. What a Good!

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My brother was so self-centered wow. Even Hisoka could tell that I hated him.

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Kukururururu moutainuuu

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Rant about Illumi below the cut. Please note that I do not have overall negative feelings toward all Illumis, just the one from my canon.

Illumi was so horrible to me wow. Rewatching this has really made that so clear, especially now that I don’t have any outside influences on my perception. I know that he was doing what he thought was best, but that doesn’t make it better.

Horrible things that Illumi said to me within the space of about 5 minutes, an incomplete list:

You’re not cut out to be a hunter.

You were born to be a killer.

That’s impossible. You’ll never be able to make friends.

You have the soul of a killer.

[Gon] considers Kil a friend. Alright, I’ll kill Gon.

You don’t have the right to make friends.

Why even? Who could possibly think that those things are okay to say? And then he more or less made me murder one of the other participants (I’m not clear on that still).

I had quit. After being trained to take over the family business, I decided I didn’t want to be an assassin. I literally said “I’m sick of killing people.” And he did all that.

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"Even when I see a real spider I enter a frenzy" me too, Kurapika, but for very different reasons.