#leafing-from-view

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friendly reminder to any and all systems: you can introject anything -- abusers, friends you've been close to forever that bring you a sense of comfort, relatives in your family, fictional characters, comfort items, etc. and it doesn't make you any less of a system for any of these introjects. it's okay to not be happy with an introject (to an extent) based on their origin but keep in mind; this is their whole own person right now, they may not do or say the things you'd expect the actual person to say or they could be totally on point to the origin point.

doesn't make you any less of a system. and i'll keep saying that.

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systems who use "singlet" as a slur are a little bit out there for me, because at a certain point all of us believed we were a single individual as well. it's a bit unfair to treat them differently and isolate them from communities because they "don't have the same disorder as i do" or whatnot. if you have trauma with people outside of systems using you or taking advantage of your system, that's a bit of a different story. you do what you're comfortable with doing.

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finally getting a little bit of a grip on how tumblr itself works along with the users on it. i think for the most part i'm just going to stay in my little corner and try to just enjoy the space i have.

it's a little overwhelming to even open up the home page, there's so much stuff that's pushing the tags i have blocked already constantly. some of it you can tell people aren't 100% educated on systems, other parts don't know what they're doing (and that's not really my issue), and other people are just posting aesthetics and stuff.

it's insane though, the space itself for systems on here is so split down the middle? i mean, insane in the way that it's not really much i see. i don't really go on anything other than discord, tumblrs still relatively new to me. however, some of the posts have kind of helped me shape a better opinion of things? we're also a little uneducated on things as simple as just the terminology. found out that the term "core" is an endogenic term (i think)? and that osdd systems don't exactly have a single person everyone originated from.

stuff like that i wish was something i learned sooner? when we first learned we were a system we'd only really check out the documented, reliable resources online. after we had a good understanding of it, we set it down for a bit. we research things if we're not too sure about them when we hear it off of someone else. but, it's also difficult to find things that completely just... say the same thing? like, i'm not talking super major differences, but more-so just minor shifts of how people phrase things.

besides that stuff though, we got it down at this point. it's just minor things we were taught by old friend groups and other things being ironed out by random people on tumblr (surprisingly). so, a partial thank you to those people who correct misinformation! i would've continued to use the term "core" if i hadn't known, not to mention how harmful the term's been for our host altogether. imagine being the one origin point of all these people coming off of you... or at the very least believing you are and just assuming you're really that messed up that 100+ something people show up over time.

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💚 For ask game!

I WAS HOPING FOR THIS ONE... i doubled back and got SO excited to wake up to this. so! yes, i do associate our system with colors! a lot of colors, actually. you guys get a system name reveal, too, since i've been just... exclusively talking about us in a vague context and all outside of posts just about me.

we're the partygoers! our former host had picked the name for the system when we had been with an ex system friend. we've loved party themed things for a while, especially rave related things.

i bet you're telling me right now, "leaf, that's crazy! tell me more about your naming process,"

and i will eventually! just not in this post. anyway! my bad on getting a little side tracked with that one, but... since i associate the system with so many colors, i'll be using exact tones and explaining each color in detail. some of them are just favorite colors, some of them are just overall conceptualized colors for different things that hold significant value to the system as a whole.

so, i think it's growing obvious i'm a total nerd for symbolism in colors, right? we're gonna go down the line of explaining each color and their singular symbolism first.

the color red typically is used to describe passion, romance, love, things of the like... or violence, danger, warnings, etc. there's a ton of symbolism with the color red itself, it just varies based on the context of what or where it's being used!

the color orange is used to describe things like warmth, comfort, youth, fun, and similar concepts. while it's not as in-depth or widely used like red is, i still particularly enjoy the color orange.

yellow is used to describe happiness! yellow's that super bright color that just brings a lot of joy and whimsy to a room. people usually associate it with excitement, too, and things of the sort.

i think people get the general concept of it, but here's the rest of them boiled down a bit shorter so i can actually continue on with the post. (i love colors to bits, and plants... but i think these were obvious.)

green is for harmony, safety, growth, and health. blue is for security, trust, loyalty, responsibility. purple is for spirituality, mystery, royalty, imagination. white is for innocence, purity, cleanliness, perfection. and so on so forth!

for our system specifically, i'd like to associate it with orange, green, and blue. that being said, it's more for the concepts of being warm and comforting from orange. blue for loyalty, we're always there for our friends and strangers whenever they need it. and green for growth, as we're always learning new things and growing along with our surroundings. adaptation is important with systems, i will say. it's part of what keeps all of us safe in different scenarios!

thank you so much for the ask, hope this was a decent read. :)

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original ask game linked here

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i love having my friends in other systems because 2 of my best friends are literally sprout from dandy's world and a decaying corpse of c!technoblade named plague / febris.

shout out to both of you guys respectively! plague was the one who taught me how to do minesweeper in the first place and sprout explained how to play sudoku and gave me some cool apps to try on our phone which was pretty sweet.

sprout's been showing me this one idle game too on mobile and it's this thing called "idle iktah". it's like one of those incremental games where you swap back and forth between menus doing various different things, collecting resources, fighting monsters, etc.

it's pretty nice so far! i'm not like, crazy far into it but i enjoy it a lot already. spent most of the day today playing it even though we were talking about it late at night yesterday.

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hi all! i just got dragged back into front because of this crime show we've been watching with our best friend. we've been watching bones for the past week or so on / off.

everything's been a bit stressful in the system but if y'all have anything to share in my inbox feel free to. :)

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just an FYI to read my DNI because i got a notif of someone reblogging one of my posts with "endo safe". i have that tag blocked and i'd appreciate if people didn't associate / rope my posts into those spaces as i'm not personally comfortable with it.

anyone who interacts in this way is just getting blocked and i'm moving on from it. thank you.

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hello to the few people who read my posts! i've been busy with work and trying to navigate my work load with hanging out with my friends. wanted to do a general life update compared to what i normally write about...

work's stressful and a bit tiring. i think we really wanna pursue the flower shop / garden center idea i had a while ago, so we're gonna be trying to look into good horticulture classes to invest in online. that and maybe find places we can volunteer at to work with plants, stuff like that. i'm not super sure where to start with this though?

the main goal is to get into bouquet making, as i'd enjoy it the most and be able to describe different flowers symbolism to customers if asked along with other things. firstly? i know i have to get the basics down of how to grow a plant, cross-pollinate, the germination period, etc. important plant info like that.

i also got a boyfriend a day ago! febris is the one i've brought up in some of my posts before, but he's so sweet. he pokes fun at me a lot but it's all just for shits and giggles, so i don't really mind. i let him get away with a lot of things. /lh

i'm just kind of surprised still? i never thought i'd find someone who really liked me for me. i was in disbelief when he'd asked, haha... still excited though! i hope we can grow together and learn things from one another to keep things interesting. though uh, i highly doubt i'd ever lose interest in him. he's genuinely an amazing friend and person in general... (i also may be slightly biased because he listened to me yap about the symbolism of the crocus for him, so.)

i hope everyone else has been taking it easy and doing things at their own pace if it's navigating system things. don't overwork yourselves regardless of your roles / titles -- they're just identifiers to make it easier to figure out who you are partially summarized. you're not obligated to uphold everything all the time, same thing with the few singlets i'm friends with that view my blog; take it easy and remind yourself to relax and unwind every once in a while. :)