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la vein rose - mv filming (461)

she liked this slight change in sound.

it was a more elegant version of them. that was something she could get behind. the one thing that didn't help was slight increase in lines that she had, that were sprinkled throughout the song. there was enough spotlight by just being in wish. it wasn't like she wanted anything more.

but that didn't stop her from forcing a smile on her face as they got ready to film the music video. they'd be doing the group shots first and there were plenty of them. the first round of outfits had been the red and black ones for the dance scenes. rina didn't pay much attention but she was sure there were a bunch of ng's that had been caught. stops to have them going over something again or if a member made a mistake. rarely was it her and she forced it to be that way. do her best and get it done right away.

then they moved onto the white outfits and that recording went a bit better. now when they stopped, it was because the lighting needed to be changed or they wanted a better angle. and the final looks, tops and skirts that matched with little bows. there were more of the beauty shots, group shots of them standing together or sitting.

finally, they were allowed to change for their solo scenes and rina was one of the first to get changed and finished with hair and make up. when she got out of the dressing rooms, rina walked back onto set and watched some of their scenes on the monitor until she was called to get her shots done.

the first few shots had been her in a blue dress and a veil had been put over her face. it was pretty, covered with flowers and everything. they got a few shots of her without it and then took a few more with her lifting it over her face, singing into the camera and the like. when she changed again, it was a new shit but still with a few dresses.

they had her sing on a couch, picking up candy and even playing with some books but she wasn't sure which would make it into the final cut. and then she had her final solo scene, a white dress in a bathtub filled with balls.

after that, she had few more shots with certain members but most of her work was done for the day. her time was filled with waiting around, chatting with the members or just talking to the camera. by the time it was over, rina realized how tiring the day had been and how ready she was to get back to her own place.

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she could handle press conferences a bit better at this point.

it helped that she had been too a few that were focused around what she truly wanted to do. there was still the flashing lights of the camera's that she hated. the loud noises and clamoring voice's, it was something she was still getting used too.

and she had too at some point.

but she was still the same when it came to wish's press conferences. she was able to melt into the background a little more. wish had the members that carried talking to the press and she wasn't one of them. that didn't mean no questions came her way or she wasn't pushed to answer. and that was something she was able to do with a bit of ease. her questions were easy and she always got the ones that been focused on filming their comeback music video.

something she had fun doing this time around.

when she wasn't speaking, nari was keeping her game face on. something she had been working on recently, making sure her face didn't become dis-interested. it was such an easy thing that could happen to her. thankfully, when she could control it, it only took a nudge from one of her members to get her thoughts back on track. like now, someone had nudged her a bit and nari took it a chance to snap to attention. and thankfully, she did. it was her turn to show her favorite part of the dance. a small teaser for the full performance of the song that would come in a little bit.

slowly she stood up and did it, it was the small transition from her rap to her members as they moved off to the side. she couldn't hold back the laugh as she did it, it was just a move to get them from one place to the end and yet, they managed to look serious and silly at the same time. thankfully, with that over she was allowed to sit back down and sort of zone out until the time for performances came along.

and it didn't take long.

a b-side or two and then the real star of the show, more and more.

nari wasn't sure how people would react, it wasn't her favorite title track but it wasn't a bad one either to her. the only down side was having a bit more spotlight in the song with singing and her rap part, that was something she could do without. one or the other. it didn't take long for the showcase to end after that, she was tired and slightly weary.

it was also the official start to another round of promotions.

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sch solo

she honestly thought today would go quickly.

outfit fittings were always a chore for her. honestly, she was ready to wear whatever the company gave her and called it a day. so when rina first saw the outfits for the music video, it was going to be a short day. it seemed as if they'd only have four outfits to cycle through when it came to the music video. she hadn't paid much attention to the white dresses but the more colorful ones did catch her eye. it gave a very summer-ish boho vibe and rina was here for it. (that being said, the second round of white outfits weren't too bad.) and she wondered how all of the outfits would fit into the music video.

"turn for me please."

that startled rina bit, giving a sorry smile before she gave a spin. the woman didn't say much, made a small noise, stopped her and wrote down a few things. "alright, go and change in the next outfit." at her confused look, the woman tutted. "stage outfit."

and that was all that needed to be said really. they still had the stage outfits to go and she hopped it was as short as it was for the music video outfits.

it wasn't.

the trouble started with the first one they wanted to shove her into. and honestly, that what it felt like when she moved around, as if it was a few sizes too small. the stylist must have realized it as well, making a note before she told rina to cycle through to the next one. this one wasn't as bad, a little short but she doubted that mattered too much. that's why they had safety shorts at least. though, she couldn't tell if she agreed or not, only making another note before giving the signal. the red outfit, well, it fit comfortably but in rina's humble thoughts, it wasn't good looking at all, honestly, they looked sort of frumpy but she didn't say anything about it.

after that, it felt like an endless cycle of colors and fabric. there were only a few outfits that managed to catch her notice during all of it. and even less that she felt fit her properly but she knew the game. they had look good as well. at least this was her final spin, or she hopped it was, watching the woman mark down a few more things before she properly looked at rina.

"you are good to go."

that's just what she wanted to hear.

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schedule solo

award season.

yeah, she wasn't a huge fan of it. it didn't help that they had a real break. ( sort of a break, she still had her own side projects. ) but it was a good way for her to forget the stage and soon enough, they'd be back on it. awards were like huge concerts for her. just on stage, with thousands of eyes watching for a mistake. and the millions of eyes that were on them if it was being live streamed.

but she didn't have to worry about that just yet.

instead, she had to focus on the flurry that was called backstage. there was a lot of it, there was always a lot of it. too many groups, dance covers, duo's and the like. there was always so much that went on that she had stayed in their dressing room. even if she had to use the bathroom, she tried not to move. but what she really hated ( second to the stage at least ) was what she found herself doing right now. it wasn't their turn to perform yet but they were allowed to watch it.

instead, they were seating in the audience. and when it came to watching, this was almost second to none. from the camera's that were shoved in their face for a reaction. fans who would record them and put it up later. which was why she was the one that didn't give much reactions when watching other performances. everything was uploaded and rina hated the thought of it. it was always a relief when they were called backstage but it didn't last for long.

it was time to perform.

if there was one thing, it was a good way to get practice. award season was in full force which mean that they were going to be doing more of this. even if she wasn't on board with the idea. ( wish always won something, so couldn't they send in a video message or something? ) all of this was what she had tried to focus on when it came to being on stage. think of it as if she was in the practice room, just her and her members and she was able to focus a little better. it always made her wonder why they gave her big rap parts, rina didn't mind if her parts were small, it made it easier to blend into the background.

at least the performance was over, now she just had to wait in the audience and prepare herself for any awards they might get, she'd be on stage again.

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soon enough, the news would be out.

and that was all rina could focus, the only thing she could focus on. she'd be having a new drama come out and it was something different. not that she would consider her previous works completely the same but they followed the same vein. but this was real and raw and her character was just different. very different. all of that thinking helped her focus on the fact that she was about to stand on stage for another concert.

and the crowd as huge.

and it wouldn't have been a problem if it wasn't for the fact that she would have a solo stage in dancing of all things. ( honestly, a solo stage for anything was enough to throw her off. ) and she was pretty fine with the unit stage but she was about to go on stage and dance and it was a huge crowd.

( hadn't anyone noticed that? )

then was a tap on her shoulder, a signal that it was time for her to head onto stage. a small sigh left her mouth and then her expression was replaced with a smile and she quietly followed her staff member. it was dark when she finally made her way onstage and stood in place. so it made her feel a bit better when she didn't look at anyone. eyes closed until it her music came on and soon enough she was dancing. nari tried not to look at anything or anyone. some lights had been turned on but it was just dark enough. ( oh, she would've felt better dancing with someone or a few of the other members. ) the only grace had been that it was over in a flash. it was a blur for her, always a blur in moments like these. rina knew she was getting the moves right at least but passion? she didn't have it, on stage she knew a part of her looked awkward.

at least she had tried her best.

when the music ended the lights shut off again, she did wave at fans this time as she made her way back to behind the stage. it was more of a meek wave but some fans were clearly happy to see it so she felt a bit better about that.

at least it was over for now, this part of the concert at least. she could breathe easy for now.

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she wasn't that interested in idol life but she could appreciate it.

more than that, she was amazed that she was in a group like wish. just looking out at the crowd of their concerts amazed her. especially when it was oversea's, for some reason they managed to fill big area's and she was apart of it. there was one thing shek.was certain about.

bc would make their money off of the tours. just walking onto stage and she couldn't clearly see faces but it was packed. always packed. ( and this thought mostly comes from their title tracks not doing as well. some took it as a sign they were falling off while nari was sure the base would be there no matter what. )

and sometimes she wished the concerts were just a little smaller.

like right now as she took her place for a unit song. while the screams were amazing, it scared her a little. the thought that there were thousands of people that could see every little mistake.

and they all had cameras.

one small mistake and that would be the end of her. it took a lot of time for nari to pull herself out of her head, normally right before the end of the concert. the only thing that had saved her had been the small moments, when they took a break backstage or when they had ment and she had to focus on doing her best in speaking in Japanese.

( it helped give her something to focus on even if it sounded a bit more robotic. )

and she wanted to do well. ( even if it was to safe her own ass. ) but the stage wasn't something she could comfortable with. not big ones like this. she always wondered if fans thought this was the moment she'd run off stage again. ( and she has wanted to run off stage again from time to time. )

and somehow she managed to hold on, until they got to the very end of the concert. the tension only left her back once they were backstage for good. her plan had been to rest right away, they still had two days to go and it felt like forever. ( because it wasn't just the stage, it was the running around and rehearsals and lights and no matter how much she got used to it, she was tired. )

one deep breath in and one deep breath out and then she'd be able to do the next one.

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may sch.

it was their manager that really pushed for this.  

since she was going to really go down the acting route, she needed to connect with fans more. there had already been some push back to open her comment section. in the end, she got her way. ( at that point, she just wouldn't post at all. ) the set up she had with fans worked pretty well for her right now and she wanted to keep it that way. but still, she saw the point in talking to them more at least.

so the solution? v-live.

she chose to do right when their fake and true music video went live. she'd hop on randomly a few minutes before and then watch the music video with fans. it was a win-win and it reminded the fans that she was still a member of wish. and because she still had those boundaries, nari opted to do it at the company. in one of meeting rooms. just a few minutes before the music video dropped, she went live.

it started off with the group's greeting as always and then she smiled as prettily as she could. "hello! fake and true will be out in a while right? let's watch it together!" she turned a bit and pointed to the screen behind her where the music video would play so she could talk about it as she went along. "you guys are staying healthy right?" it was her intent not to focus on the comments. it'd be nice to read some and talk back to fans but she wasn't sure she'd see all pretty things.

"it was a lot of fun filming the music video and i'm sure the fans will like it." they really went all out for it and it paid off, she thought that without even seeing the final product.

"and...now!" she shouted a bit. she'd wait just a few more minutes before she really went to watch it. though, she did notice a spike in comments at the time of release and the heart's were coming in faster. finally, nari went to pull up the music video on her end. "here we go~" this time, it came out in a small whisper.

"the concept came out really nice..." she threw out a few comments without really thinking about it. even nari was a little surprised by how good the final product looked. the only time she paused had been during her scenes, just to give the fans a little background info. "i thought i'd look weird when filming but this pretty good." and she meant it.

the video ended after that and nari clapped her hands together. "fake and true~ please support it a lot! but remember to take care of you're selves first! without wishing wells, we wouldn't be here today so please stay healthy." another smile and she ended the v-live.

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april sch

she was busy and tired.

it didn't matter too much that it was a good tired, that she enjoyed the slight ache. it was a good thing after all, it meant she was doing what she loved.

still.

still. wish was back and busy. not only did they have to promote but there was work for her drama as well. when she checked, they'd have at least one thing to do everyday. this wasn't the month to complain about being bored. not at all. but today isn't so bad. they're booked for a pretty simple radio show and nari can relax a bit.

honestly, she didn't mind going on radio shows. they were a bit more informal, there wasn't a constant presence of fans. ( in most. ) it was also a way for her to interact with the public and fans without being watched. ( she wouldn't even mind hosting her own one day. ) they also don't push her for more than she wants. it simply worked.

she was one of the last girls to roll into the both for the show they were currently at. taking a sweat between her two of her members. then it started. she was never really one to be chatty so she simply laughed at what was being said. at some point, they stood up to perform feel special and she knew she had to give it a little 'umph' at least. ( as some were still recorded. ) so she makes it happen by slightly dancing to the choreography of the song.

then they're back at their seats and it doesn't take long for her to be pulled into the conversation. the first question had been about their single, how she felt about it. and for that, nari had a response, it almost felt practiced at this point. then she was left alone for a bit until the topic circled back to her.  ( one of the members mentioned her drama. )

even then, nari kept her answer short and sweet. she already knew people had mixed feelings about her being in wish and in a drama. it'd be easier to move on from it. ( though she was happy that her members supported her. )

it doesn't take long for them to wrap up after that. once the mic's are officially off, the host became a lot more relaxed and in turn, they could relax as well. it also doesn't take long to leave after that, seeing as this was their only schedule for the day but she still had some work to do personally.

( and she wonders what it would be like to host her own show. one day. )