#paranthesis

[navk]

A country swells (not in pride, but fear), collective faces bear a tinge of blue (some from disgust, others suffocate), there are fires along the street (symbolizing that which burns in the hearts of millions), the lungs of our people hurt (from holding their breath), the sounds of an uncertain future (riddled with threatening rhetoric), of walls and wars - not against nations (no, rather against progress itself). So many have worked to be seen (really seen) outside parentheses. To tell their experience as fact (and not an afterthought). Lifetimes of effort (undone).

Nav K, (forty-fifth)

[1000spectres]

paranthesis

i. (between you and me, i still get jealous when i see you even glance her direction. so i'm a paranoid, jealous bitch; it happens. envy is a sin for a reason, i know.) ii.  (there are times when I think about things and swear that other people can see right through me, a double-sided window. when i was little i used to think that maybe if i thought too loud that other people would realize what i was thinking about, and i think that's how i got to be so quiet most of the time. truthfully, i have an awful tendency to swear awful things at people and send daggers in their direction. but only mentally, of course. i'm still too soft to really do anything and it's rather unfortunate to say so.) iii. (i am never wrong, but often i am, if that makes any sense. i'm thinking that one of the worst things to hear is "i told you so", for any real human, anyway. so we all have a little pride, we're all selfish, we all have a constant need for self-importance. but if someone ever admits they're wrong, please, please don't ever tell them you told them so. it will break them) iv. (you wouldn't know it, but when you turned around, i held up both middle fingers and swore at you in every language i knew how to.  and then you turned to face me, and i smiled, told you i loved you; in a hope-you-rot-in-hell kind of way.) v. (i have to say that the best feeling in the world is sitting up in the morning, feeling the best-rested you ever have been, and stretching in that most perfect way.  i can never understand how people can't stand to sleep in.) vi. (four years with the same damn people and honestly, i still don't know even half of them. the beauty of social groups, stereotypes, reputations and first impressions.) vii. (see, i'm thinking that maybe the people who would be the best leaders, the best presidents, would never want to get up there and do it. and we all fall down.) viii. (come on, guys. 2000, 2012, today, what difference does it make? the world is bound to end some day - that's how life goes, and yes, even planets have lifespans. quit worrying yourselves over how much time you have left and live a little.)

june 16, 2011