a permaID where one identifies as being permanently dehumanized ! lwk real twin ...
ALSO !!!! to the awesomesauce requester hrlp im so sorry i have to go to bed so i only got to finish one of the flags 😭😭😭 but the other WILL be posted tomorrow after school again im sorry gangsyta 💔 that will be my first post tomorrow !!!!!
Older flag of mine that I never posted. I'm iffy about the design, honestly, might remake it later.
Permademonized / Permavillainized : a perma identity in which one is / wants to be / feels they should be / identifies as being / is transitioning to being permanently demonized / villainized.
Very self indulgent, by the way. Anyone can use it, though.
I don't want a future or a relationship or.. whatever people usually prioritise. I just want to be kidnapped and turned into a r4pe slave. Life would be much easier being a human sex doll.
WARNING: This blog is for my delusional and horrifying thoughts due to my psychosis. if you are triggered by such things dont interact, or do, whatever is your cup of tea.
I experience psychosis due to ptsd (and maybe other things) i have bpd and aspd as well as autism, i am also a system.
Im radqueer and pro para + transid yada yada
i want to get worse. i want my hallucinations to be more vivid, i want my delusions to not be buried by logic.
Tell me my thoughts are true. That the dark will take me.
Lies or truth, reality or fiction, i dont know where the lines lie here.
self depricating decisions that are made with zero coercion or lack of understanding are good and should be allowed or even encouraged, I think.
you are unable to tell what someone's experience or perception is, and so you can't be sure what truly is or isn't good for them
this is why consensual harm (both from the self and/or others) is beneficial.
I'm addicted to hard substances and have been since the chronological age of 13/14. i have no will to recover. which is normal, and most would disregard it as purely the addiction surviving. that's definitely part of it. but because people again can't understand the full experience of other's, then they wouldn't understand that I'm unable to feel fulfilled without SOME kind of active addiction, regardless of it's kind.
if i dont have an active addiction to fixate on, i feel unimportant, like i have a lack of identity, and would honestly rather just die. my aggressive thoughts also increase.