May 31
i can never participate in those reblog games where you say something abt the person you reblogged from bc i'm formally friends with very few people on tumblr and i don't want to be presumptuous and annoying. also i'm 80% sure if i'm mutuals with someone it's only out of some strange sense of pity and if i overstep the tantative good will i earned through being so pitiful will vanish and turn to HATRED
#this seems far fetched but it has happened to me before. in real life no less#and informed me about it#idk like i am aware this is not a good way to go about navigating the world but what can you really do it seems pretty deeply ingrained#in my thought patterns. like idk i dont think i can rationalize my way out of this one#i just need to stop thinking so much and chill out i think. but alas.#that will never happen#OH WELL#anyways. this post isnt about any specific situation im just ruminating#pondering#philosophizing.#the life and times of brows