I feel like so many people have disappointed me in my life that trusting anything different would happen just isn't a thing anymore-
And, most of the times my instincts are right-
Like, imagine not even being someone's 2nd priority, haha-
Long story short, a friend I made around last semester or smthn gave me a gift ( she'd forgotten it was my birthday initially, so I wasn't really expecting much ) – a handmade card. Another was the first to wish me around midnight, and at both times my brain just did a double take-
Like, did these people, actually do something??? For mE???
I mean, I'm not ThAt childish to be upset over people not wishing me or smthn, but it does irk me to see others ( "close friends, I mean" ) making full-blown Instagram edits of people they barely knew before college, making timestamps and all. I've done a few, but after seeing the way they just ... lEFt me without a word, yeaaahh ... kinda made it obvious who was their priority, so I just .. stopped. Stopped wishing people, stopped talking to them as a whole-
But, it's surprising, really. Out of the many friends I've made, only TWO of them did smthn for me-
Like, okay, yeah ... being forgetful is a thing, but tell me this ... Is every last person on the planet born with short-term memory??? Or, idK ... is so buSy they can't even send a small "hEy, hope you have a good day", bcuz I for sure remember a LOT of birthdays, and can't be buying that excuse, at least not always-