#shanrambles

[shanrambles]

I'm never more certain of my aro-ace identity then when facing something I know most allo people would be absolutely drooling over.

Walked past two young twenty-somethings working on a jetski yesterday. They were both shirtless, six pack fit, short shorts, tanned, and glistening in the sun.

I almost died from keeping my face straight as I passed because, come on, it was like walking past those weird fanservice montages in person. What are the odds?

This has been a somewhat consistent reaction to masc and fem people too, so it always affirms my identity as aro-ace whenever something like that does happen, lol.

[shanrambles]

Talk therapy would feel more effective for my crippling self esteem if I didn't need to pay someone to validate me in my endeavor to not believe that everyone secretly/not-so-secretly hates me.

Like, obviously that's not true--stastically speaking--, but paying someone to tell me that doesn't really help.

[shanrambles]

I hate getting the nonanxious-anxious feeling I get, because my heart is just not healthy enough to do the easy thing of running while screaming to expel the feeling into the world.

[paralumanleadmehome]

Things I do when I should be working but I'm not:

I'm currently re-watching MP100 because there's this fic that I want to read and I feel so out of loop that I just have to watch it again.

I hold Mob close to my heart ever since I first watched it and now that I'm re-watching it again, I just realized something.

From the get go, Mob already knows that Reigen is just lying to him. We'll receive confirmation for this in S2, I think, but the reason why I mention this now and why I find this so funny is because after Mob exorcises the first spirit, his percentage goes up to 22% which leads me to believe that he's getting annoyed at Reigen's antics and I just wifhwifhwijdlqfhad

I mean, we all know this. But just. Watching it again makes me think how can I miss it the first time around????

REIGEN HOW CAN YOU BE SO DENSE THIS 13 YEAR OLD IS LOOKING AT YOU AND HE'S JUST DONE.

It makes me wonder why Mob stayed but I think, if I remember right, it's how Reigen is still a decent mentor at times, albeit an inconvenient one.

[paralumanleadmehome]

YO THIS FIT!!

But yeah technically no more vlogs for tumblr because tumblr can only hold 100mb of vids per post i think and i was thinking of mini read-alouds? Uhh like book paragraphs or fic paragraphs or mini reviews. We'll see.

[vashcth]

i just can u imagine brannon pouting until duwan comes to bed and snuggles with him bc cadash the sheets are cooold can u

[vashcth]

today in elivhenan is the sweetest snowflake in the flurry and you should all follow her if you aren't already ♥

[vashcth]

see now i was about to make a post like "sigh romancing nobody in the first two da games was actually nice"

but then i realized im technically romancing in those games just in my own canon so i cant.... really say anything...