Feb 8
was working on Bitty's backstory, grueling over how to incorporate her in the *least* historically inaccurate way, and then saw a tiktok that made me sit back and do this:
bc now I'm considering giving in to the true girl fantasy of being 'one of the men' without having to have a grand backstory to justify our presence, even in fiction. Because even in fiction, women are always women first, everything else second.
#that tiktok has me feeling like Jo March#'I want to be a pirate but not a girl pirate who all the men learned to respect because I won't take any bullshit'#'I want to be a cowboy but not a girl cowboy whose father taught her his ways I just want to be a girl cowboy'#'with on explanation or backstory I just want the real experience without being questioned'#sigh...yeah#I'm torn on paying respect to the real life women in surgery who were part of wwII and whatnot#because reading about them made it clear just how stupid the system was at the time and how many strange paths they had to take#literally just to do their job#but also getting to live in a world—albeit fake—where women and men aren't treated as different types of humans for a minute#deeper sigh...#and the worst part is I think even if I tried to write it that way#I'd fail inevitably because of how embedded sexism is in literally everything#oh im gonna start crawling on the walls#mashposting#oc posting#bits