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[telatire]

w for malmiq! :)

Thank you so much for the ask! Turns out I'm terrible at word limits, so this is above 250 but at least not double! Haha!  W. Waiting impatiently for something

... She’s late.

She’s never been late before.

As the moon continues to rise high in the sky over his little village – shimmering and vibrant and full and brilliant – the last bell chime of the hour rings out, as the tick of an imaginary clock keeps track of his footsteps, as he paces about in his cottage, mulling over on what to do.

The garden has been tended to, and won’t need looking after until morning; the flowers at his window sill are all fine, and blooming beautifully; the floor and walls are clean, the kitchen’s pots and pans are pot away, and his bedsheets are freshly laundered, with a small fire roaring in the fireplace. And should he decide to wander outside, at night, alone –

Oh, doubtless he’ll ever hear the end of it.

He glances over at his bookshelf, and picks a random title to reread; he supposes it doesn’t matter which, however short or how long; if he can just focus, the time will pass. But no matter how hard he tries to concentrate, how many times he tries to reread sentence after sentence, word after word – his gaze returns to the window, pausing at almost every half of a page. He sighs; he won’t make progress like this.

He closes the book, and puts it back. His mind drifts to his easel; he places a fresh canvas down, and organizes all of his tools, his brushes, and paints. He can’t seem to settle in his stool for very long – fidgety every minute, recounting all the tubes of paint that he has. But every shade he sees in his hand is vermillion, just like the stands of her hair.

Where are you?

Has something happened?

He shakes his head, putting those thoughts away. No, he won’t bring about such misery in his life. She is fine. She will be fine. She is just late.

And just then, he hears a wolf howl, breaking him out of his thoughts. His brow furrows, as he goes to look out the window – only to see a familiar figure walking up the pathway to his house.

And though he knows she has asked him not to do it –

He can’t help but run to her.

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Hi! 'take me back to the night we met' and 'title she calls out my name' for that WIP ask game

(IDK if anything was asked before, wanted to drop this earlier, but I was too busy...)

Aww, thank you so much, Alma! I really appreciate your ask! And no worries - no one's asked over these two WIPs. The first one is titled off Lord Huron's "The Night We Met" and is supposed to be a bit of an angsty character study of Miquella during the events of SOTE - only partially canon, because I would have no mention of Promised Consort Radahn, as I don't ship it and I'm not interested. Sometimes, you just want to cry, and it's why I created this WIP that may or may never see the light of day - it all depends, really. The second is based off City and Colour's "Fragile Bird", specifically the lyric "Well, she calls my name, hoping that I keep her safe". It's a Malmiq h/c fic about nightmares/night terrors! It's part of the WOD au I'm writing! I can yap on about this for ages, but it's essentially Miquella comforting Malenia in her dreams, a little like canon, and a little not like canon! It'll probably get worked on eventually, considering the main fics will be long as hell and I'll need to take a break eventually, haha. Again, thank you so much for asking! I appreciate it! <3

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For the WIP game, I'm so curious about "chapter one", it's the most innocuous WIP titles that always grab my attention 👀

Now that you mention the post again, it's kind of funny looking back on it; most people probably think the "tuesday" part of the wip is referring to the day of the week, but it's an actual character name, haha. Very much unrelated to "chapter one", I must admit - but no one else is going to ask me, so it's fine lol. Chapter one is the 40 chapter fic I have been mentioning; the same one I have read and reread academic text for, the one that was originally 25 chapters, and the one I actually managed to finally put in some work in for today! It's part of the WOD au, some stuff I've already posted on my A03 - though, the actual fic will have different moments, haha. I write AUs within AUs, I suppose, lol. I'm not entirely sure if chapter one will have a title itself... but the entirely of the work, the 40 chapter fic, does have a title! You'll find out when I finally post it, haha. I'm also planning on adding fun historical facts, as well as perhaps some sections from the CTD book - I imagine they will be few and far in between, but still. Credit where credit is due! There's a lot else I could say but I really don't want to spoil the first chapter - especially since I'm still in the middle of a second draft!

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7, 46, 72 for the ask game!

Thank you so much for the ask!

7. How do you choose which POV to write from?

A deceptively simple question... yet one I find difficulty in answering beyond... "vibes"? To be plain, I do not write multiple perspectives in my fic very often, as they are often (in my opinion anyways haha, in this regard at least) too short for it. Longer works - like the one I am working on now, and the other which I have yet... to replan.... (Yes, I am dragging my feet on this, I apologize) will have multiple POV, because they are long enough to justify it. Otherwise... I like writing in a limited perspective, with just one voice and just one head; it makes character exploration easier, and sometimes, some plot things a little easier too, since the character only knows as much as they are shown/told. They can assume, but those assumptions can easily be wrong or changed or turned up on their head! So, besides The Vibes (tm)... um.... the... smaller vibes? Essentially, when I decide to draft up a story, the POV is chosen from conception as well, and that POV is chosen by what kind of story I aim to tell/what feels right/what makes the most sense. Both longform fics will say, have both Miquella and Malenia's POV, but for the one I have an actual chapter one, it will primarily be Miquella, because the story primarily follows him; for the other, time will mostly be spilt as evenly as I can. Man, I would have written killer essays in college, haha. (side note: I like to use third person when writing, because first person (I) feels much too personal, and while i like second person (you), it is very um... Homestucky, I suppose, haha. It only really works for me in specific circumstances.) 46. How would you describe your style? (Character/emotion/action-driven, etc) Beyond extremely ramble? Haha. Character-driven/focused, with a lot of emotion heaped on top. As much as I envy writers who can do action scenes very well, I am, at heart, a hopeless romantic in love with humanity itself; I tell stories about people, as a friend has described me, so I am best when I am exploring the head of someone, and letting their actions/emotion drive the plot forward. I do hope it is interesting! Haha. 72. What order do you write in? Front of book to back? Chronological? Favorite scenes first? Something else? Painfully, from the top to the bottom; front of book to back; chronologically. There are many times where I have struggled with a scene, and been given the advice to just switch scenes, write the end first, if it makes easier, focus on something else. But alas, I am as stubborn as a mule, and because I tend to repeat + callback a lot, it is far easier to do if the past has been... say... written first, haha. Yes, yes. I make things difficult for myself on purpose. No one who knows me well is surprised. Haha.

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6, 32, and 34 for the ask game! :)

Hey, thank you so much, Cinder! <3

6. How do you come up with ideas?

Aww, geez - I don't know! I'd love to tell you, but I don't really know! The answer often is in the middle of "I don't really know" and "it just happens". Like, when it's AUs or fics built off something else, I think it's just stuff I really like to see explored, you know? I see gaps and start to want to fill it, and since I'm a strong visualizer - not like it's fucking helped lol - it's all too easy for me to start imagining scenes with expressions and shots and whatnot, haha. The same goes for original things - when the mood strikes, it just... strikes! It doesn't work as well when you're stressed and depressed but hey the sun will come up again after the rain! 32. What's a fic you'd love to write but probably never will?

Aww, geez! Um! Well, to be completely honest, any fic I'd love to write is almost guaranteed to be half-written and half-formed in my drafts somewhere - there's so many fics I've started, haha. Really, it's more like "oh will you ever finish them" and the answer to that is "I am trying" since especially with long chaptered fics like Here Before.... I can fizz out really quickly, even if I've planed 40 plus chapters. What can I say! I am... Ambitious, haha. 34. What are common themes you like to explore in your writing?

I feel like i'm frankly terrible at analysis, especially when it comes to my own writing, even when I'm also cognizant of the fact I put a lot of effort into them. But I'll try, haha. When it comes to women/female characters, I tend to write a lot about what it really means to be a woman, juxtapose other things (performance, dolls, acting, dancing, religion, motherhood). I suppose I was raised religious, in a way that constricted me a lot. My gender, my identity, my wants and wishes - all of it was used to hurt me. It's why I say very little personally and instead go "well my works speaks for itself", haha. I'm very tired, boss. Overall, I do think humanity often comes up as well - both wanting to be human and inhuman, and what it means to be human when you were never human at all. Perhaps my past has also endeared me to the other - the monster, the outcast, the unwanted. And everyone craves acceptance, don't they? haha. I also write a lot of incest because I think it's a fun dynamic on top of existing things in certain ships. I'm also def one of those people that think making EVERYTHING incest ruins other things - sometimes, the base ship dynamic is really, really good, and adding incest just kind of ruins it. haha. Anyways, if there's other themes you noticed, let me know! Haha. And again thank you so much!

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2, 29, and 36 for the get-to-know your fanfic author ask!

Thank you so much for the ask!

2. Do you plan each chapter ahead or write as you go?

Yes, I plan ahead! I'm somewhat between a panster - someone who writes/plots as they go, flying off the seat of their pants (hence the name) - and a planner, who writes down each detail of the story, arcs, and characters. The amount of chapters, the overarching story, the end conclusion, and the general theme is all decided ahead of time; but the moments within the scenes, the scenes themselves, the dialogue, exactly how the sausage gets made - that's decided as I write the fic.

29. What's your revision or editing process like?

Oh, boy.

I believe I've answered this before, and my answer remains the same; it starts out with planning how many sections will be in the chapter/fic, a few sentences to decide the building theme/emotion for each one, and writing and rewriting and writing again to build that word count up until it's at a point where I am more focused on word choice/diction/flow of sentences. This is where I am now with my most recent works! Admittingly, it is tiresome and annoying, but I've always preferred a strong foundation. And I'm also stubborn, so. Yeah, haha.

36. How do you write kissing scenes?

By writing them. Badum, tiss... Haha! Personally, I focus a little less on the physical act - because, much like sex, it is a repetitive motion - and the feelings that surround it. Is it a first kiss? Is it a kiss after a joyful reunion or a tragic one? Has there been a long build up of tension and this marks a release? Or is it simply one of simple joy, gracious and grateful? How the people involved feel about each other also helps, haha. I'm not in the habit of writing hateful kisses, but... they're someone's cup of tea! (I prefer forbidden/tragic, haha).

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send this to all your favourite moots and roll a snowball! KEEP THE SNOWBALL ROLLING!❄️🤍❄️🤍❄️ MERRY CHRISTMAS SNOWBALL FIGHT!!

Thank you for being so kind and supportive! I'm just happy to know I'm not alone with my DLC rants, and that really helps. And I'm happy to know you (gonna get toyour works on my winter break which is rather long 😊)

Aww! Thank you so much! I sincerely hope you enjoy my works when you get the chance! And no problem! Like I said before, fandom is all about supporting and uplifting others; I'm always happy to listen and to help anytime!

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💖 🙌🟥🎵🌷 For the ask game!

Oh, thank you so much! (And thank you so much for the follow, too!! It's an honor!!) 💖 Which of your fics is your pride and joy? I think waiting for the longest time (for this empty space to fill) will remain my pride and joy for a little while longer (having topped the prequel fic, this pain that you bear (for this love that you hold). I spent a little over two weeks of my life for ten thousand words, and I think I mostly achieved in all of them being special! There's potentially two fics who may end up topping out in the end, but they remain in the drafts for now (will finish them before I die, hopefully). 🙌 What’s a line or paragraph of yours that you’re proud of? Oh, nelly. There's so many! I am going to cheat, haha. This specific section from a lie's alright, so let it be (just needed to know if you could love me) (jean/barara, f/f, sibling incest, E) For the first time in a really long time, Barbara feels used. She feels spent. She feels like a girl that has had to grovel for every tiny bit that she could get, and she’s just found out that all she’s been doing is grasping at straws, flying away in the wind. The little that she thought she had was gone, and there’s just nothing left. She’s just some pretty little stranger, some pretty little shell, some pretty little doll, pretending to be human. Can’t do anything for herself, can’t make any changes, can’t make any strides, can’t struggle against the tide – she just stays in there to drown.

She’d laugh, if she knew she wouldn’t cry first.

What a tragedy she finds herself in, a one-woman play in the worst horror show of her life…

Admission is free…

Because why wouldn’t it be?

With certain female characters - especially if they are performers of some kind - I like to make comparisons to the stage, the divide between what is real and what is the mask, a loss of self and belonging, as well to dolls/inanimate objects in relation to things that are alive/human/have a soul, often in conjunction with what I think I will call "performative femininity". You can probably tell I was raised religiously, haha. These two pieces from waiting for the longest time (for this empty to fill) (miquella/malenia, f/m, sibling incest, M) Because should it break – the sound haunting her – who shall be there to save her, if it cannot be him?

She hears the guilt rising in his throat again; she feels the ghost of his tears falling on her cheeks; all he utters is his condemnation of himself, of his flaws, of what he lacks, of what he has been unable to attain, in between the space of every word that he says. He would gladly break from carrying all the world’s burdens and its sorrows and its pains, if it meant he could save a single soul; he would gladly soak himself in filth, strip himself of all that he had, if it meant he could wipe all the sin away – but it could never be enough. This small moment from vacivity (miquella/malenia, f/m, fma au, sibling incest, E)

(But how could I feel lonely, he thinks sweetly, when I have you? I can’t feel it, but –

I can still hold your hand in mine; I can see that you’re there; I can know that you’re there.

I’m not alone.) This line from this pain that you bear (for the love that you hold) (miquella/malenia, f/m, sibling incest, M) So, she takes up the sword, believing that perhaps, she’d carve her own path to salivation.

And finally, this line from i have never stopped feeling for you (for nothing has made me better than loving you) (cyrus/iris, f/m, sibling incest, E) Oh, Barbatos, forgive her; oh, please forgive her; has she done enough?

For all my gripes I would have about religion, I also think it is so poignantly, pointedly human to call out to the sky above, to search for answers, to ask for guidance; if a tree falls in a forest, does anyone hear? 🟥How long do you spend in edits? Oh my fucking god, do not ask. My process can literally be described as me having a journal, and the only thing the sticky notes attached to the pages say is "make this not shit". I don't really "edit" as I rewrite, over and over again; which, yes, I admit is a much slower way of handling matters, but as someone who reads everything aloud, I want there to be a sense of flow and rhythm and time to it, so rewriting it is. My best guess is that I can spend anywhere from 30 minutes to an hour and a half on an edit on one section, which in itself will go through 5-8 drafts (five being the bare minimum), and I often spend at least four hours or more on multiple final edits, so... A long, long time. Multiple days of the week. Until it's done. 🎵Do you make playlists for your fics? On occasion, yes! There's at least two playlists I have for two big fics that I will hope to finish one day, though I do more often just listen a mix of video game osts, instrumental writing playlists on youtube, songs in my own personal playlists on youtube and spotify that I feel fit the scene, and... the Homestuck Discography. Those guys put out a shit load of bangers, let me tell you. 🌷What's one of your fics that isn't as popular, but you hold dear? There's two! echoes of a future we didn't quite get to see (akira howard/player character, sibling incest, f/m, M) is a fic I wrote after finishing a playthrough of Astral Chain (which btw, that ending fucking SUCKED and was stupid, I will die on this goddamn hill). As far as I could tell, the game just never really took off, in a sense, so the fandom around it is pretty tiny, and it's incest ontop of that, haha. Still, I'm proud of it! i have never stopped feeling for you (for nothing has made me better than loving you) (cyrus/iris, f/m, sibling incest, E) This is likely half my fault, half the fault of simply picking an npc ship in a gacha game (yes, we do suffer around here). Written for an incest week event (in which I took on WAY too much), I ended up fucking up my health and it sort of remained unfinished for the longest time (there's still works still up that remain unfinished, but that I promise I will finish by hopefully the end of next year, if not before). So, you can't really blame people for not wanting to read a hurried, unfinished work, but at the same time - it's an NPC ship. It wasn't going to get off the ground, anyways. Thankfully, I'm in a mostly better place then I was back then, and I was happy with what I managed to come up with!