#thoughtprocess;

[chovmbna]

— “Halloween is soon and I’ve started getting some flowers in for the season. I hope this fall season is as nice as last year. Maybe I’ll go to a costume party even. Kind of wanna be a witch this year, dress up, have some fun. Hopefully someone throws a party and its not super crazy.”

[chovmbna]

— “The days lately have been beautiful, even with fall soon approaching, but it can’t distract me from what happens everyday. I feel like I’ve progressed myself but I have dreams that aren’t even close to becoming a reality. Maybe it is time to be content with my current path in life. Nothing good ever comes out of things if they are forced. Or maybe not contentment but patience... I should stop thinking about a future that hasn’t even happened yet. ”

[chovmbna]

— “I didn’t think I would ever come back to Seoul... I didn’t really want to. Only months passed and I didn’t keep in contact with anyone. California was just as beautiful but I couldn’t enjoy it like I thought. I sold my apartment, back home in the main house and it feels so different. Was this the right decision? Should I have come back?”

[chovmbna]

— “Sometimes I wish I wasn’t such a crybaby. Too many things have happened in the last two months and all I end up doing is crying. I mean I wouldn’t mind the tears if being alone didn’t make them worse. Even if I’m trying to change myself for the better it’s that one aspect of myself I just can’t get over.”

[chovmbna]

— “There are days where I go about my business and think, is this the life I really wanted? Should I go back to school? Move to another country to start over? My head spinning at a constant with thoughts of these questions. Even with the clothing I wear has changed and I can’t say I enjoy it as of late. The friendships I have are strained and I just worry I will lose those I hold close and I’ll be alone again. It hurts to think like this.”