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i had to do labs today and i always am upset about labs but i dont think it was just the "owie ow ow labs hurt" this time. the entire time it felt like EVERYONE there (my mom, the two doctors, the one taking my blood, the even the VALET) was infantalizing me kinda? not fully but it felt like they were acting like i was i was a little kid. like 8 years old? or something? which obviously was upsetting . and when i was getting labs i was like Sobbing which yeahhh was a little immature anyways so i was not able to talk and. it felt like they were Forcing me to do things which was obviously upsetting. like my mom physically grabbed my arm. i wasn't being physically violent, i was genuinely just attempting to make myself as small as possible / attempting to back away. for context a lot pf the time my mom strokes my hair or pats my back to comfort ne and i sont mind physical touch but like. i was obviously flinching away from her and trying to move away when she did that. and they literally GEABBED MY ARM before the labs. please let me go. like honestly i think it would be quicker to let me calm down instead of force me to to do it. but i couldn't communicate that which was not good ! at all ! and when i calmed down i was still distressed but i could do it. because it didn't feel like i was being forced to do anything. anyways yeah that was unpleasant and im upset
they should invent a version of therapy where your therapist just kills you
this would be way funnier with the caption but im not in the mental state to accept this and also its just crazy lore so you only get the image
back on the "i may have arfid" grind 🔥🔥 i want to cry 🔥🔥
this reminds me of the story where two twin boys were raised by an alcoholic father. one never drank a drop of alcohol in his life, and one was a severe alcoholic. when asked why, they both said "with a father like mine, how could i be anything else?"
but i am both of the boys.
fuxking EVERYONE dont be overstimulating challenge IMPOSSIBLE
hi its me the reality that fiction was affected by.
stop romanticizing horrible shit, especially in areas where CHILDREN can easily see it. because children are kids and kids usually can't find the difference between fiction and reality, usually have little moral compass or atleast little sense of right/wrong, and oftentimes will be messed up by that.