penis out on queen

a nirvanna the band (& adjacents) blog. (follows from @vasheren but currently lives in @vash-o-vision)

[theblogplan]

inside of my brain lately !!

[eldritchbuddy]

bffism

[rickyapologist]

whatever. it's not even a big deal. 18 years apart on some random night in the summer. right down the street. staring out turned toward an open sky, a whole life ahead of him. staring forward at the only life he has ever known, speeding away from him. yeah. it's fine. IT'S FINE

[quasimaddi]

thought about the army

[rickyapologist]

if you had to take a shot every time matt drapes himself over jay like this on camera you'd probably die once per video

[mattys-marbles]

WAKE UP SUNSHINE. NEW MATT AND JAY VIDEO JUST DROPPED.

[ntbsideblog]

i think so much about jay can be understood through the fact that he composed a generic pop song for a cell phone jingle and thought it was sort of funny that it was so obvious and sounded kind of like a legitimate band but then people liked it enough that he was like hey wait a minute and fought the jingle company for the rights to it and then it became an actual minor radio hit and he formed a whole band on its tail. like i feel like that says everything

[ntbsideblog]

guy who can just sort of shape himself into whatever works for the situation but actually really desperately does want some kind of mainstream validation for his own artistic visions & talents. guy who has spent so much time perfecting his ability to adapt that he hasn’t fully developed his own voice yet but he knows he has one and badly needs a way to express it. and that’s where matt johnson comes in

[jaredtime]

:)

[graymccarrol]

[georgeromerosanalcavity]

established fwb situationship au where mattjay have had sex enough to where jay thinks he’s a sex god with what he does to matt in bed and he tries to go off and have sex without him only to learn he’s actually really bad at sex in a way only matt johnson would ever love

[driftwooddestiel]

luca tarantini in evelyn raab’s cookbook Clueless in the Kitchen: Cooking for Beginners (2017), including on the front cover . all pictures are from current online listings of the book or the archive.org digitised version i didnt buy the book just to look at luca pictures dont worry . that said its a good cookbook i do recommend it

(how did i find these? stumbled across a news article talking about the book, went “huh cool i wonder what its like!”, looked it up, saw the front cover and went “am i insane or is that luca tarantini” and the rest is history)

alt versions of some of these pictures that i screenshotted from the archive.org scan below the cut bc the qualitys not great for some of the ones from online

[ntbsideblog]

why does everything he says hit me in a sore spot

[ntbsideblog]

thinking about what he said in the pete holmes interview about how important it is to him to connect his stories to old mythology and then how pete goes “it makes you feel at home on the planet” and matt goes “RIGHT! exactly.”

[ntbsideblog]

meanwhile in 2013

[ntbsideblog]

2026

[theinnercell]

noble soldier - the murlocs

[bookingbook]

[ntbsideblog]

i do think that matt probably had some kind of complex about nirvana the band vs his ambitions back in the day. like even to this day he makes it clear that he thinks ntb is kind of dumb and unserious. at times he’s even called it meaningless. obviously this is not true to him, to him it’s the most meaningful thing in the world, but i think when he looks at it from an outsider’s perspective he sees it as stupid compared to “serious” art. and i think he has always wanted to be taken seriously and especially when he was younger wanted to do something that would really prove himself to be a serious person, to make all his craziness worth it by making an objectively good movie. and so i just wonder if that’s why he started to have problems with jay, and why they disagreed so strongly on whether they were ever gonna do more nirvanna the band. i feel like matt probably wanted to move into the serious era of his career at that point and maybe felt like he couldn’t do that with ntb, especially after the failed pilot. and jay didn’t go to film school and the characters matt & jay could play were always inevitably going to be these stupid guys and anyway jay could do anything he wanted in the world of music, and he was attractive and people always liked him, so he didn’t have to be as crazy as matt. he didn’t have to prove himself like matt did. meanwhile matt had already failed at his original ambition in life (magic cards) and now had to make sure he didn’t fuck up his only other shot at significance (filmmaking). and matt who cares so much about whether people have good taste and whether his friends like the same things he likes and whether artists have integrity told jay on camera “everything you think is funny is stupid.” matt who apparently for years believed that if jay ever got famous he would never speak to matt again. matt who joked that he was so successful after the dirties he deleted jay from his phone but jay came crawling back. matt who clearly thinks jay doesn’t need him, who makes an entire show about this insecurity. and then you have jay insisting he’ll be in every matt project coming up, telling matt he would’ve shot a life-threatening scene with him when no one else would. jay at matt’s side every day making blackberry, the movie that arguably legitimized matt in the eyes of the world. matt crying uncontrollably when he edits the ntb movie to end with a confirmation that he and jay have indeed succeeded in making their ambitions their life. their shared life. like i just

[mattys-marbles]

why even wear a shirt

[okjaybird]

matt on the criminally underrated podcast and exit we lyrics