toulouse

"radio silence" observant.hardworking.reserved.com

[touoloser]

driving nowhere

ive been gone for a while. sorry to those of u who were here for my content and not for the crazy speculations/fan attacks. I rlly appreciate those of u. universe city is a bit of a touchy subject at the moment. I might take another break soon. a longer one. I've tried focusing on my art and schoolwork like I always do. this online stuff is bothering me more than I want it to be. it seems like there are more bad followers than good ones at this point. I turned off my ask notifs. if u could stop sending hate I would appreciate it. I have nothing to apologize to you all for. 

anyways 

im in the backseat of a cramped car. im floating away to some old universe podcasts. drowning out radio. the actual radio, not radio silence. you get it. I felt the least stressed I had been in a long time (Oseman 278). on top of all my schoolwork, I still have to deal with all this b.s. it feels never-ending. and to you. I miss you more than anything. ill stop at nothing to make sure you’re okay. I guess thats why im in this stupid car to begin with. whatever. please be okay.

signing off

[touoloser]

maybe this feeling won’t last forever. I can’t feel out of place forever, can I? been playing around with graphic design, this is what came of it. old image from a sleepless night when I felt like I had the world at my fingertips. hope ur okay. wherever you are. 

signing off

[touoloser]

feeling like radio right about now.

[boiinthaback-deactivated2023040]

Molly’s game 2017

[b1tchy69-blog]

do i wanna know? ✰ ✰ ✰

[darkermoonnow]

[touoloser]

the letters to february are my favorite part of every show (Oseman 159). u can tell the way radio feels about them through their tone of voice. every time radio’s voice pitches higher and speeds up when mentioning how much they love february. it is mesmerizing. enough fangirling for the night

[cosmicvngel]

[sunsetquotes]

When you come back, you will not be you. And I may not be I.

E.M. Forster; The Other Boat (via sunsetquotes)

[cosmicvngel]

[vaporwavebb]

[touoloser]

thinking of the past. was it my fault that she left? she’d been so quiet that day. quiet and sad (Oseman 120). I can only hope I didn't ruin everything she had. sorry for the depressing posts as of lately. this is more of a rant page than a fan page. universe city isn't posting anyways. signing off

[monachopsis-people]

I feel like being in this place makes me long for something more, perhaps more exciting or more calm. It gets tiring when you've been stuck in a hurricane for too long.

[touoloser]

feeling helpless. never thought a friend break up could hurt this bad. I've always been so afraid to talk to others on the phone. I was never scared of calling you on the phone (Oseman 231). I was never scared to do anything around you, really. 

hanging in there

[touoloser]

pls stop asking if I know who the creator of universe city is. keep ur speculations to urself. 

bye

[touoloser]

ootd. a bit boring, but never as boring as my school outfits. can never go wrong with a pair of patterned leggings.

[touoloser]

haven't posted much about universe city in a while. as you guys know, im drawing for universe city. because you all have been asking, im not working with them at the moment. its my business! pls give me some space. promise there’s been no trouble lol. 

people are so difficult to understand sometimes. it sucks. they keep on moving forward and shove you to the side because you make more mistakes than you should (Oseman 190). I don’t understand. I mean I do, partly. I make mistakes just like anyone else does. and I take responsibility. but I don’t understand how it can be so hard to forgive someone. I guess losing a friend is harder when you've never really had a friend before. im pathetic. I'm trying my best to keep moving forward. thank u for those of you who have been so understanding towards me. I appreciative u guys so much! signing off 

xxx toulouse

[fighting-ghosts]

[touoloser]

hiding in the restroom again. school is difficult. it’s hard to keep up with my marks. hating myself for crying in front of other people and for letting other people make me cry in the first place (Oseman 145).

[touoloser]

feeling alone again. nothing new.

[touoloser]

my maths journal after 2 hours of a sleep inducing lecture.