prepare for flip & burn

Democratically Elected Evelyn. Involuntarily Conscripted Cassandra. Theoretically on Bluesky, Dreamwidth, and Pillowfort with same username

[orpheuslament]

no one talks about how straight up painful it is to be the bigger person when deep in your soul you just want to be a huge bitch about it

[softwaring]

[26-cats-in-a-trenchcoat]

because you can’t win if you don’t play, i’ve made some gift card funds to help me get some much-needed supplies 🛒

most critical: i’ve been struggling worse the last couple months with managing showers/wash hair/wash face, especially, and using the wipes i already have on face and body feels Bad. so i have a list of stuff to try that will hopefully meet my needs as far as ingredients, reactive skin, particular hair, & functional capacity go (itemized list below cut).

i haven’t heard anything more about the status of my disability case, but that’s not entirely surprising, as the hearing scheduling was at least 8 months out when I appealed in the spring. the horrors persist, but so do i.

i know i’m not alone in the things are bad & getting worse” department, so if you can’t manage donating, that’s ok 🩵 no pressure, no worries, whatever happens is ok!

because i am at least somewhat a foolish optimist 🤪 i also made funds for home improvement (shower desperately needs recaulking, photos below cut), trying out a different (cheaper) compression gear combo before i ask for it for xmas, groceries, and pharmacy. not out of meds yet, but 🤷🏻 probably better to ask before emergency, in case anyone has a vested interest in my dopamine maintenance or tachycardia/fatigue.

🩵 thank you for sharing and contributing 🩵pretty sure you can hide your actual name while putting a note in the note box, so feel free to leave your handle there & i’ll send you a thank-you here! (it should also be possible for you to earmark for a specific item, if you’re superbly interested in, say, caulk 😉)

if i know you & you’d rather buy the stuff, send me a message - thinking about making a stuff list for irl people (vs just the gift card funds). i can’t hide my name/info on a list of stuff (unlike a gift card fund…i think 😅) so i’d rather not put that out there for just anybody.

deets below da cut:

easy & safe hygiene fund will go toward pkg of de-funkifying wipes $9, bath/shower stool $26, manual toothbrush pack to keep one by my bed $9/3 (the 2pk is $8 😒), hair & scalp refresher spray $10, micellar shampoo that review say rinses easy $13, mustela micellar water to clean face (& maybe also other areas) when wash out of question, $16, silicone cup w/handle for rinsing hair (won’t break if drop, easier to hold than empty yoghurt tub) $10, no-slip tub mat bc i’ve skidded a few times/existing grip dots old $17. might try out a $9 sunscreen stick if there are leftovers, don’t currently use any 🫣 due to irritation—if anyone wants to bet on the losing dog called me not developing a Problem

home improvement fund for decent caulk gun $13, almond/biscuit caulk to match $12, tools $7, cleaning (vin/baking soda, bottle, goggles, etc) the rest. in case you were curious, this is the current problem:

there are other spots; these are just the ones i had the spoons to get to. pls don’t tell me it’s/how bad. I KNOW. which is why i’m asking for help

compression gear fund: reassessing the socks/leggings combo i’ve done for 5+ yrs due to cost, full hose too hard for me to put on due to hand hypermobility/joint pain/all-over fatigue, maybe try thigh-high/compression shorts combo. 20-30mmHg hose $25-30 (need to measure size), shorts will be $15-30 depending on brand

grocery fund: almost out of 1L olive & 750mL avocado oils, $15/ea (lasts several months, use daily when making rice for dinner, better for my cholesterol), out of bfast/fixins (30 pk granola bars ~$12), running low on dinner fixins $30-40/mo, have $5 off $25 grocery order coupon, also need can opener, wouldn’t be mad at splurging for some easy meal-replacement shakes/protein powder bc food situation/my capacity has been Not Great the past week or so & sliced turkey and some tortilla chips is not a balanced dinner

um maybe $6 somewhere for ballpoint dr grip refills $3 and 4-pk post it $3

meds fund: day meds $33/30 or $85/90; mestinon $23/30; coreg & singulair, $10 & $18/90ea. coreg out end of august; the rest up in september

[cannibalchicken]

[clingyduoapologist]

Your friend’s unpublished fic idea is kind of a dead wife

[dazzling-galaxy]

i also want to read this guy’s dead wife

[pseudophan]

help i got sucked into 9-1-1

why does everyone just plain refuse to watch good television. like you literally don't have to do this

[aspiringwarriorlibrarian]

I think my final disillusionment with the Glorious Violent Revolution (not that I was ever fond of it to begin with) was when the right wing tried it on January 6th and failed miserably, only to switch tactics to boring old electoralism and succeed.

[skodasforge]

“Woke 1 was crazyyyyyyy” Woke was coined by Black people to describe the concept of being aware of how the police treat Black people vastly differently than they do everyone else, escalating to lethal force on a hair trigger because they’re paranoid of Blackness as a concept and see Black children as a threat to their own lives, leading to the high profile deaths of kids like Trayvon Martin and Michael Brown, as well as the multitude of Black adults that die in police custody like Sandra Bland or due to illegal excessive force like Eric Garner. Being “Woke” was about the realities of being Black in America. Writing it off as cringy misguided 2010s Social Justice is ignorant at best and disgustingly anti-Black at worst. I expect more from the Left, even if I know I’ll be let down.

[unfuckablebogtroll]

The modern state of fanfiction is seeing people claim to have written 500,000+ words in three months while being married with children and having a job but they double dog pinky swear it’s NOT aislop, FUCK aislop guys, they stand against aislop as morally and artistically bankrupt, they’re just obsessive and don’t sleep 🤪 and they expect you to believe that and defend them from “witch hunts…”

… and seeing literally thousands of people who just ctrl+f “cock” thank them and beg for more and offer to pay for their aislop and cry and shake like a hound shitting a peach pit when their favorite sloperater gets caught.

And then the New York Times writes about it.

[unfuckablebogtroll]

I hate when you’re eating something you love and it’s great and between one bite and the next your brain decides you hate this now. 😭

[theforce]

i dont care how corny iris by the goo goo dolls is bc i love iris by the goo goo dolls and i will continue screaming iris by the goo goo dolls from the top of my lungs every time i hear iris by the goo goo dolls for the rest of my miserable life 

[the-hug-department]

and I

DON’T WANT

THE WORLD

to see me

Cuz I DON’T THINK that THEY’D UNDERSTAND

[carefullfearr]

Sometimes my husband will put this video on just to feel something. You are not immune to Goo Goo Dolls - Iris (Live in Buffalo, NY 7/4/2004) [Official Video] and neither am I

[iamnotswarley]

I HIGHLY recommend the Song Exploder episode about “Iris” because clearly John Rzeznik feels the same way about that song and he wrote it.

[furryprovocateur]

yeah okay cornball

[skodasforge]

Close enough, welcome back Theodor Adorno hating Jazz for “anti-capitalist” reasons.

[sobcat]

the summer I turned evil

[bombusbombus]

Everyone except me is wrong about The Character

[bombusbombus]

And my beloved mutual who fills a sort of "scheming advisor" role in my opinions about The Character

[themoonandmyman]

hello I am at my wits end and I need to know something. Do you talk to your mother every day?

Yes

No

Remaining time: 5 days 10 hours

No nuance. If you don’t have a mother/are no contact etc this is not a poll for you.

You can elaborate as to how often you feel is a regular amount of communication between an adult child and their mother.

[seren-starlight]

Me sucking my own dick: I'll bet your precious neural network can't do this!

[seren-starlight]

A lot has changed in two years. AI has improved so much that you can't even get a job sucking your own dick anymore

[seracadash]

(goverment voice) we need to protect the children from pornography so our plan is to remove their eyes so they would never see something so traumatic. if you are against removing children's eyes you are basically a pedophile