oh, sweetie.. @vaginorexia - Tumblr Blog

bodycheck

hey its been a long time since i felt this way, the urge to be thin again, to disappear and be so small so i can fit in my thinclothes again.

i dont know where should i start, im not a teen anymore, today i'm 24 and this year im gonna turn 25, and i cant believe im still feel so fat and so grossed bout my body.

I remember been little and thinking that when i turned 25 i will be so independent and skinny and pretty.

this is the year that i become skinny, and if not i will literally kill myself i cannot live with this body and this mind.

and maybe been skinnier will not make my life better but at least i could finally find peace in my head.

if you have any recommendations pls dm me, i already stop eating, but i dont know if the things that worked years ago in me would do the same for me now that im older.

My current weight its 65 kg, im reaaaaaally fat, my height its 1.60 mt or 5,2 ft and in pounds im like 143.4. i want to be in 4 months 50 kg. or 110 pounds, 4 months is my goal cause its my birthday i want everyone to see how skinny i have become.

i m ready to try everything!!!!

lots of love <3

luminescentlunaa

Being super depressed is so much more than sadness. I feel like depression is a whole different person that overcomes my body and brain. A constant whisper in my mind telling me how horrible I am and how much better things around me would be without my presence. A lot of people think they understand depression but you can’t really understand it until you’ve called your mom at 3 in the afternoon to tell her that you swallowed all of the pills in the medicine cabinet, again. Waves of depression hit me so fucking hard that I can’t even get out of bed to eat or go to the bathroom. It gets so bad to the point where I refuse to smoke. Depression is messy and it bothers me so fucking much when it’s romanticized. This post isn’t meant to mean anything at all. This is just on my mind and hitting me really hard right now and I really feel like nobody really understand how to care and love for me when I’m not good so I guess this how I’m trying to heal myself rn. Talking to nobody but myself. Self love is strong but self hate is even more powerful.