' Angelica ,

tell me, is it just a dream?

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2nd intro cuz i got t worded

basic info :

name : angelica

age : 6teen

pronouns : she / her

interests !

general : movies , music , animals , history , true crime , animals , videogames

music : chase atlantic , onlywoke , xemnaschrist , pryme! + more

movies : slashers , zero day , all about lily chou-chou , documentaries

games : doom , quake , no , i'm not a human , at dead of night , paratopic , fatum betula

feel free to moot me up ! i'm looking to research cases and make friends . ❤︎

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i would get this if it wasn’t a crop top

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The Jokela shooting — parents' accounts of the day

On the morning of November 7th, 2007, Ismo, Pekka's father was at home with his sons while on holiday from work as a railwayman. Mikaela, Pekka’s mother, had already left for work at the hospital.

Pekka’s younger brother had left for school first, followed by Pekka, whose morning had been ordinary, down to fixing his hair.

The shooting reportedly began at approximately 11:40 a.m., when he killed his first victim before taking the lives of eight others and turning the gun on himself.

Later that day, his father received a call from Pekka’s friend from school, asking if Pekka was home and if his gun could be found at the house. His father said he had been shocked at that moment, wondering what gun the person was talking about, as he had no idea Pekka even owned a gun in the first place, but apparently his friends at school had already found out about it.

“Pekka had already been talking about it at school,” his mother said.

“He had purchased the gun the previous Friday and took the receipt with him, and you found it,” she stated, pointing to Ismo.

“I found it in the boys’ room, in the desk drawer,” Ismo started. “Then I decided to go and look through his room again, and then I found the last letter left to us by Pekka. It was placed in front of the desktop in a way where it read ‘Father, mother and brother’, and then I turned it around and read it, and then I went into a state of shock.”

This information is based on a 2008 interview with the parents of Pekka-Eric Auvinen.

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Adam Lanza — Lack of early mental health intervention

From an early age, Adam exhibited developmental challenges and was diagnosed in preschool with sensory processing disorder, a condition that affects how the brain processes sensory information such as sights, sounds, smells, and tastes.

He had communication difficulties and repetitive behaviors, and did not speak until he was three years old. By the age of five, he began to exhibit obsessive-compulsive behaviors, such as repetitive handwashing, changing socks up to 20 times a day, and using large amounts of tissues because he could not have direct contact with doorknobs with his bare hands.

At 14, Adam was diagnosed with Asperger’s syndrome and obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD), as well as depression and anxiety, all of which can significantly affect quality of life.

When evaluated at the Yale Child Study Center in New Haven, Connecticut, his parents were told that without proper treatment, his mental health could deteriorate. This prompted Adam’s father, Peter, to attempt to get him treatment, but Adam resisted and disagreed with the diagnoses, according to a report.

At the Yale Child Study Center, he was prescribed the antidepressant Celexa (citalopram), but the side effects were so strong that he had to stop taking it. A report from the Office of the Child Advocate found that Yale’s recommendations for extensive special education supports, expert consultations, and therapy were not followed by the family.

The report also stated that Adam reportedly had no contact with mental health providers after 2006, which may have contributed to his ongoing mental health difficulties. Just a few years after cutting contact with mental health providers, his mother also withdrew him from high school, because she was unhappy with the district’s plans for her son.

After leaving school, Adam became increasingly isolated due to the lack of interaction with his peers, as school had been his last consistent opportunity to interact with others face to face. Some later discussions suggested that this may have been one of the last significant factors in a series of events that worsened his mental state.

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the parents perspective on Pekka-Eric's behavior at home and school

In 2008, Pekka’s parents reached out to the Finnish broadcaster MTV3 for a potential interview. MTV3 agreed to host them on an episode of 45 minuuttia (45 Minutes), a well-known investigative journalism program that was popular in Finland at the time for featuring in-depth interviews with people connected to major news events.

The episode was very successful, reaching around 1.2 million viewers at its peak. During the interview, they were asked about Pekka’s behavior, which his parents recalled.

The interviewer asked: “Did he ever show signs of anger or any sort of idealization of violence?”

“I can’t say that I noticed,” his father responded.

“Not in the way he acted, at least, no. Pekka had an extremely calm personality and seemed to be happy most of the time. Whenever we were in contact with the school and spoke with the teachers and principal, they always gave us positive feedback about him. It gave us the impression that he was a very good and talented student, which he probably was. He was well-behaved and positive in every way,” his mother recalled.

After the incident, she said she realized there had been small changes in Pekka-Eric’s behavior that may have been early signs of what was to come.

“I think he started doing chores more sloppily or more urgently, as if he had become careless. I had to push him to do these things. He wanted to buy new winter shoes, and I wondered why he wasn’t getting them. This kind of slowness in these situations was starting to become noticeable. Winter was coming, with snow and subzero temperatures, and he still hadn’t bought the shoes. Even on the last night before bedtime, I was reminding him about the importance of buying them, since there were still plenty available in stores. I reminded him before I went to bed. Pekka was in his room on the computer, and he just shrugged and said, ‘Yeah, yeah.’ After all this, I now understand he didn’t need them after all… And since he had planned this since March, of course he knew it was going to happen,” his mother stated.

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Adam Lanza - reasons to stay thin

(tw: pro-ana/eating disorders)

• You will be FAT if you eat today, just put it off one more day.

• You don’t NEED food.

• Fat people can’t fit everywhere.

• You'll be able to run faster without all that extra weight holding you back.

• People will remember you as “the beautiful thin one”.

• If someone has to describe you, they'll say “oh she weighs like 90, 100 Ibs”.

• Starving is an example of excellent willpower.

• You will be able to see your beautiful, beautiful bones.

• Bones are clean and pure. Fat is dirty and hangs on your bones like a parasite.

• If you eat then you'll look like those disgusting, fat, ghetto and trailer-trash hookers on Jerry Springer.

• Anyone can have “inner beauty” but few can earn real beauty, inside as well as out.

• You'll be able to move as quietly and skillfully as a spider.

• Only thin people are graceful.

• If you slap a fat person you can see a shockwave ripple over their skin. That’s disgusting.

• Do you want people to say “for gods sake get off me you’re crushing me!!!” or “you are sooo light” ???

• | want to walk in the snow and leave no footprints.

• Starve off the parts you don’t need. They’re ugly and they drag you down.

• Nothing cant be fixed with hunger and weight loss.

• Have you ever seen a person NOT notice a walking skeleton.

• Nothing tastes as good as thin feels.

• ls food more important that happiness in life? | think not!

• Eating is conforming to everyone else’s expectations.

• Hunger is your friend and it won't betray you like food.

• Food is mean and sneaky. It tricks you into eating it and it works on you from the inside out making you fat, bloated, ugly and unhappy.

• Thin people look good in ANY kind of clothes.

• Food rots your teeth.

• Puffy cheeks, double chins and thick ankles— aren't attractive.

• Fatty areas stretch and sag as you get older.

• Ever seen the arms of a fat person wave hello or goodbye?

• Eating little to nothing saves you money!

• Big people sweat more and they smell bad. • Fat people die earlier.

• You'll be the envy of all the other girls.

• All of the guys will want you.

• You won't be exposed to all the chemicals and pesticides they put in food today.

This post was not made with the intention of encouraging self harm, and was shared for informational purposes only . ❤︎

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i wonder how this person's doing now