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wrenpratt‌

Wren chuckled, glad that Zar was smiling because it was really all that she wanted: to get him to have some fun. “I know,” she gladly agreed. Wren gently dropped Zar’s hand now that they were standing. She nodded in understanding. Hallucinogens were not for everyone, and she knew not to press him on it. “Understood,” she agreed, “but there’s no way you’re getting a lecture from me.” Wren laughed, beginning to lead the way back to the party again. “Do you want to go dance and socialize? We could also go talk on the beach or something?” She offered, happy to take his mind off of his pets either way.

zar gave an overdramatic sigh in mock disappointment. “really? because i’d love to go to a lecture series with you. i think that would be extremely mentally stimulating.” he hoped that wren would recognize the sarcasm. “um... yeah, as long as we can bring drinks onto the beach, i’d love to just talk with you.” he needed the company, he needed a proper distraction that wasn’t just alcohol and making mistakes. with that, he took his drink in hand, and shot her a smile. “after you.”  

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ofjvliettes‌

“wow, that’s a lot. Are they small? I know it’s hard for big dogs to live in the city.” Juliette knew how important it was to have the right dog for the lifestyle you had. “I love them.” She laughed. “I haven’t, I would totally do it if I could find time in my schedule. What are the hours like? What would I be like feeding them and bathing them.”

zar gave a thin smile. “no,” he confided, “they’re... they’re all pretty big. so, keep this on the dl, yeah? don’t wanna get kicked out or anything.” he couldn’t help but grin; he loved being able to support the animal haven any way he could. “they’re pretty chill about hours and responsibilities and stuff. they just like you to be able to do it, like, at the same time every week. i’m usually on tuesday and thursday mornings. but yeah, usually its feeding them, bathing them, giving them medication, keeping them active, sometimes helping with physical therapy and stuff like that.” he gave a small smirk, “i’m usually on med duty, since i’m there in the mornings.”

[zarfm]

wtfcity‌

city felt like a hypocrite, telling him about how easy it was to rebuild yourself when all she ever seemed to do was fall apart. “i don’t know, but neither do you unless you try, right?” she offered, clearly not having any other answer. although they had their serious moments, for the most part they both tried to keep things light. she could tell that he was trying to move on from what he had admitted. “i’m serious zar, besides the fucking, if you wake up in the middle of the night and just need to talk, or sleep next to someone, call me.” zar went out of his way for her, was way too nice to her when she didn’t deserve it, and she felt that this was the least she could do for him. “oh so what did you bring enough lube for? certainly you weren’t expecting to have sex after breaking into this cool and secluded lighthouse with me? i mean, what kind of girl do you think i am?” city couldn’t hide the smirk on her face as she spoke. as soon as he was on top of her, she was leaning up to kiss him, her hands moving down his chest, stopping at his waist. “you don’t exactly have to be a gentleman all the time,” she muttered.

zar nodded, still looking a little unsure, but... but he was more likely to consider it, now. he would just like to talk, maybe. sometimes. or maybe just have someone hold him. “i will,” he muttered. his witty retort came off a bit wrong, a bit weird, his mind in a different place, “well, make a homemade slip and slide on the top, of course. i thought you were the type of girl to enjoy that kind of thing.” still, he didn’t feel the need to apologize or rewind. he felt... comfortable. being dorky with city. that was pretty new, honestly, basically since the start of this vacation. but it was... nice. it was fun. zar pressed into the kiss, smiling against her lips, sighing as she ran her hands down him. he pulled away, just to readjust and press his face into city’s neck, pressing wet kisses down her neck as he lifted a hand to caress her side, down, and then back up, all the way to her neck again. “oh? i don’t?” zar asked, making sure he was solidly on his knees before he slid his hand to the back of city’s head, quickly coiling his hands in her hair and tugging the both of them upwards. “good,” he muttered against her lips, kissing her thoroughly. 

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charliesh‌

        charlie  squints  just  slightly ,  his  face  illuminated  by  the  phone .  almost  immediately  his  eye’s  are  softening  upon  seeing  the  actual  picture  of  the  other’s  dog .  charlie  was  an  absolute  sucker .  he’d  never  actually  had  his  own ,  felt  like  he  didn’t  spend  enough  time  at  home  to  really  be  fair  to  any  sort  of  animal  really .  “ alright ,  she’s  really  fucking  cute . “  charlie  spares  a  glance  over  to  zar ,  brows  furrowing  some . “ –  oh  shit ,  i  didn’t  know  that …  honestly ,  you  know  anyone  that  is  pissed  that  an  owner  wants  updates  about  their  dogs ,  no  matter  how  many –  they’re  horrible .  i  think  i’d  want  a  constant  stream  of  photos  to  see  how  my  dog  was  doing …  like  if  i had  one ,  y’know   ?? how  old  is  she ?? ”

this was... easily the most pleasant conversation zar had had with charlie. he should bring up his pets more often. “she is,” zar agreed. “i mean... it’s not really their job, i guess? i dunno.” he looked back down at his phone, “i think i just worry too much.” a pause, a tilt of the head, “i know i worry too much.” zar smiled again, subconsciously, now that his mind was back on his dog. “she’s ten,” zar said, “which is the life expectancy for a doberman, but...” he didn’t like to think about when ripley would inevitably die, “but she’s got at least a year left, i think. i’ve had her since she was one.” 

[zarfm]

caseyellison‌

Casey saw the way Zar seemed to look a little stressed over the animals. When he realized the pets were actually on the island and not back in Manhattan, he suddenly got an idea. “Hey… Why don’t we go see ‘em? Like right now. Do you think they’d let you take them out for a walk or something? Cause that might put you a little at ease if you see they’re okay. I’m sure they’re being well taken care of, but nothing like seeing for yourself in a little impromptu check-in for peace of mind, right?” he asked.

zar gritted his teeth a little bit, “well, if... if it were a longer visit, maybe it would be allowed? i’m not supposed to pop in and out,” he clarified, “because it makes them a little too excited and then it’s hard to calm them down. plus, they need a routine.” he thought for a moment, before pulling out his phone. “well, it wouldn’t hurt to check.” he texted the pet sitter, and read the reply aloud, “you can visit for at least an hour, within which time the animals will be fully in your care.” zar shot casey a grin. “are you down to spend an hour with them?” 

[zarfm]

csvnchez‌ 

clad in workout clothes, the brunette was making her way back from the wellness center when the other approached prompting a slight smirk to tug up her lips. completely unsurprised at his inquiry, she replied, “yeah, he’s upstairs.” from what she knew about zar, dia was confident that he was already missing his pets so she offered, “i’m headed there now, you want to go see him? i’m sure he’s missed you too,”

zar broke into a smile. “sure, i’d love to see him.” he did miss the big lug; he always loved large dogs, especially the ones who thought they were small dogs. “he misses everyone,” zar argued, following dia to her room. “he’s super friendly, thank god. or else he wouldn’t get along with my guys.” 

[zarfm]

ofjvliettes‌

Juliette gave him a slight nod and gulped down the water placed in front of her. “Yup, I pet sit when I can to make extra money. As long as I don’t have a competition to go to and it’s after dance rehearsals I’m available.” She paused. “How many animals do you have? I would have had to turn it down since their renovating Ten 23.” 

“oh, i know,” zar assured her, “i mean, you’re right here with me, so obviously you couldn’t. and five.” he cracked a smile, “one cat and four dogs. all... varying degrees of well-behaved.” he nudged her arm with his elbow, “so you like animals then, i’m guessing? i hate to turn into the flyer guy on the street corner, but have you ever considered volunteering for the animal haven?” 

[zarfm]

jvamadev‌

━━ “You’re missing out, get it tomorrow morning,” Julian urged, “or later today after the Pig Beach.” Zar has a point, and they’re on vacation. “Why have one adventure when you can have two?” He thought out loud, turning around and seeing the stand of brochures and maps. “I will bet you two cute piglets that there’s a map of the Pig Beach over there,” he joked, grabbing at Zar’s shirt and dragging the other with him. “Aha! There is!” Taking one, he unfolded the map and does a quick read. “How good are you with driving a golf cart, Z?”

“you think if we roll up there and ask where the pig beach is, they’ll kick us out?” zar asked. “like, i just feel like they’ll think it’s a prank, y’know? also, how are you going to give me two cute piglets if we don’t find the pig beach?” he questioned, but he was already going along with what julian was doing. zar cringed momentarily, “well, i was a good driver, but. i haven’t driven anything in like... three years? so. if we crash you’re liable.” 

[zarfm]

wtfcity‌

“i accidentally watched hgtv on a flight once, and they said that if your foundations broken, you have to break the whole thing in order to rebuild it. so maybe you just have to fall apart in order to come back together,” she explained, hoping her analogy made sense. while city didn’t exactly have nightmares, sleeping while she was having a manic episode was hard for her. so she knew exactly what zar was talking about, drinking until she passed out, or staying up for two days straight just to finally sleep for a few hours. “i know i can’t stop the nightmares or anything, but if you want, if i’m not already with you, you can call me, wake me up. i know some physically demanding ways to wear you out without beating the shit out of your poor wall,” she teased, a smirk on her face as usual. “that splinter wont be the only thing in my ass,” city joked, a dumb grin on her face, clearly proud of herself. “i’m pretty sure a hard surface like this is supposed to help straighten your back out,” she said, wiggling around to make herself comfortable as she laid down. “i dunno, i kinda like it.”

it did make sense to zar, and he gave a sad smile in return. “that’s what i’m scared of,” he admitted, “because its like... who am i without this, y’know?” probably someone better, someone stronger, but he preferred the devil he knew. zar’s expression faded a little at city’s sweet offer. he’d always wanted that, someone to comfort him in those lonely moments when it was just him and his fucking awful thoughts, but he wasn’t sure if he wanted city to see him like that. “i’ll keep that in mind,” he said instead. zar snorted out a laugh at that joke, “well, i don’t know if i brought enough lube for that, but whatever you’re up for.” zar laid down next to her for a moment, before he swung himself over city, his hands on either side of her head, legs straddling her hips. “good,” he said, leaning down for a kiss, “because i do like to be a gentleman.” 

[zarfm]

wrenpratt‌

Wren bit her lip while Zar explained the situation, and she could see the severity of his concern. However, her own luster to just be getting fucked up and dancing made her eager to want to help Zar do the same, anything to avoid giving more advice. Something she was always terrible at. “Exactly!” She perked up at his understanding. “So, just enjoy tonight as long as you hear nothing,” she encouraged, moving back to her feet again. “Come, my child, there is fun to be had,” she said in a faux British accent as she reached out to grab Zar’s free hand. She paused, suddenly, and asked in a whisper, “Are you interested in really freeing your mind?”

zar shook his head at wren’s awful fucking accent, but he was unable to hide the fond smile that graced his features. “you’re such a fucking dork,” he insisted, grabbing onto wren’s hand when she offered it. he paused at the offer, though. “see... see that could be anything from a lecture series to fucking lsd, and if it’s the latter...” zar grimaced, trying to play it off, “i don’t think i’m really into freeing my mind.” mostly because he was terrified of what a hallucinogen could show him; he saw how fucked up his mind could get in his nightmares, thank you very much. 

[zarfm]

caseyellison‌

Casey laughed when Zar pointed at his chest, and raised his brows. “Not even if I asked really nicely?” He noticed Zar’s face drop a little when the conversation of his pets came up, and he felt bad for bringing it up. “Aw, I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to make you sad, babe. They’ll be okay, and it’s only a few days. You can always face-time with ‘em at the end of the day, right? Speaking of animals, I’m kinda wanting to find that Pig Island with Jules, so I can take pics of ‘em. They sound adorable. I think that’d be right up your alley, too. AND, I got a sweet pic of a seagull stealing some chick’s ice cream, it was pretty glorious,” he added with a soft laugh. “I’ll show you later.”

zar tried to wave it off, look indifferent to the fact that he was... well, more than a little worried about them. suddenly his mind was racing through all the ways the poor animals could be harmed, and he ran a hand over his face. fuck, he should’ve smoked something with less thc. “yeah, well, they’re actually at the resort, y’know? there’s like a doggie day care type thing.” he shook his head, “so, like, i see them everyday, but it’s still like... i dunno.” he tried to focus, instead on what casey was talking about. “yeah, he mentioned that to me, too,” zar replied, “but we couldn’t, like, find it? i’m starting to think it’s an internet rumor.” he managed a smile at the little story, “you should. i fuckin’ love seagulls. they’re agents of chaos.” 

[zarfm]

wtfcity‌

city giggled at his comment, pulling him back to her. “i don’t think i’ve ever seen uglier boxers in my life,” she teased. “but hey, you could always just sleep naked, then your problems solved.” it took city a few seconds of zar rolling his eyes to figure out why he didn’t like the comparison. “oh, well, annie ends up with a new family and she gets to keep her dog, and i’m pretty sure there was an elephant there too,” she tried to make light of the situation. even though it was just the two of them, everything suddenly felt quieter as they continued to talk. “you might be just as fucked up, but you’re a lot better at hiding it,” she said, practically whispering since their faces were so close together. there were very few times in her life where city didn’t know what to say and this was one of those times. slowly, she pulled him even closer to her, putting her head on his should and just holding him. she was the first to break the silence after a few minutes. “when was the last time you had a nightmare?” city knew too well what that was like. how good violence could feel when you were numb to everything else. the more time she spent with him, the more she realized that her and zar had too much in common. “i dunno, kinda think it would be funny if you got a splinter in your ass or something,” she said, trying to lighten the mood again. “c’mon,” city mumbled, pulling the things out of her backpack and setting it up on the ground, as nicely as she could.

he hummed in acknowledgement, “you make a good point.” zar had to frown a bit, though, surprised how easily city could see through him. “well, i... i hope i have an elephant, too, someday,” he said, trying to make light, too. hoping that city would change the subject already. zar sighed through his nose, eyes still shut as he spoke. “maybe, but a new coat of paint doesn’t fix the cracked foundation, y’know?” still, it wasn’t a coat of paint he wanted, he wanted to somehow fix where he was broken. or else he’d eventually crumble. zars eyes fluttered open, staring down at the space between them. “last week,” zar murmured, “which... is better than in the past. it used to be i’d have to get blackout or literally work until i was exhausted so i wouldn’t have those dreams.” he snorted, giving her another quick kiss before they pulled apart. “city, i’m a gentleman; i’ll be doing all the work, so the splinter’ll be in your ass.” zar helped her set up, flattening out the blanket and pillow as best he could. “fuck, maybe you should be on top. this floor is still rough.” 

[zarfm]

nctalina‌

she tosses long dark tresses off her shoulder, head tilting, as if to analyze him. natalina couldn’t get a read on zar, which just made her all the more curious.  ❛  i wouldn’t lose sleep over it, ❜  she remarks, a hint of a smirk playing at her lips.  ❛  you are brutally honest to a fault, huh  ?  not even going to pretend for my sake  ?   ❜  nat laughs into her cup, quickly downing the rest of its contents. ❛  yeah. but i mean if you want to stay here and play on your phone all night …  i totally get it. not boring at all.  ❜  she shrugs, admiring her cuticles in mock nonchalance.   ❛   the fact that you couldn’t come up with anything else is shameful !  hm. are you scared of heights ?  there’s this cute little cliff overlooking the ocean. . ❜

zar shot nat a sardonic smirk, “only for you.” that was a bold-faced lie, though; zar was an asshole to nearly everyone. he glanced back down at his phone, but he got the message at this point. he slid it back into his pocket, and climbed off the stool. he had to raise his eyebrows at the suggestion, “no, i’m not scared of heights, but i’m severely allergic to bad ideas.” he picked up his drink, suggesting, “we could go to the fire pit. see if there’s someone playing wonderwall on a guitar.” he nudged her, “we could get drunk and bully him.” 

[zarfm]

ofjvliettes‌

The redhead was could feel her skin start to coat in a light layer of sweat from dancing her ass off. It was relaxing to dance for herself and not to someone else’s standards. She walked over to the bar and asked for water, wanting to stay hydrated. “That’s not creepy at all, a face time call wouldn’t hurt for reassurance.” Juliette offered. “I check in on the animals I pet sit once a week.” 

“yeah?” zar asked, glancing back down at his phone. “okay, um, i’ll ask the sitter, then.” he spent a little over a minute composing the message, trying to make it sound as good as possible without coming off as controlling or pitiful. “you pet sit?” he asked idly, only to be polite. “i would have offered you the job if i knew, but. you’re here, so.” 

[zarfm]

caseyellison‌ 

Casey rolled his eyes a little, laughing softly when Zar sassed him back. “Hey! My hair looks great, shush. It’s not my fault it’s windy out here!” He shook his head lightly, and wrinkled his nose when Zar said he was high already. “And you didn’t save any for me. Some friend you are,” he teased with a hint of sarcasm.  “Nothing to report yet. Everyone’s just kind of doing their thing, and I’m getting some good photos. How are you holding up without your babies?”

“you don’t know that,” zar insisted, pointing a finger to casey’s chest, before indicating himself, “because i never said it. for all you know i could have some strawberry cough in my bag, but i’m not going to share now that you questioned our friendship.” he cocked his head to the side, teasing, “good pictures of everyone, or just you?” at the mention of his babies, though, zars expression sagged a little bit, the smile a tad bit more forced when it came back. “uh, alright. trying not to worry about them too much. they seemed to be alright after yesterday, so... that was a relief.” 

[zarfm]

wtfcity‌

“you don’t have to beat down doors for me to think your cool. i already think you’re pretty fucking cool. and you should know i’m being honest because i’ve seen those polka dot boxers you wear to bed and i still think you’re cool,” she teased as he kissed her face. “aw, you were like little orphan annie when she found that dog and gave him a bath,” she smiled. “it’s really cool how you love something so much and you take care of them. you’re so– you’re like too good for anyone here, you know?” she said simply. “i bought a cactus once and it died because i didn’t water it enough. fucking ridiculous.” city smiled and closed her eyes as he pressed his forehead against hers. it was a strange feeling of contentment that she hadn’t felt in a very long time. “I brought a blanket and a pillow in my backpack,” she mumbled, “unless you wanna fuck on that nice broken door.

zar couldn’t stop the goofy smile that overtook his face, pulling back to argue, playfully, “hey, those were tasteful polka dot boxers.” he rolled his eyes at the comparison, even if there was something to it. he... he kind of was an orphan, if only psychologically. when neither parent wanted to take responsibility for you... what else could you call yourself? he furrowed his brow a little bit, nudging city’s nose with his own again. “i don’t think so,” he muttered, “i’m... i mean, you know well enough that i’m just as fucked-up as any of us.” he still felt like a violent person a lot of the time, he still had an awful fucking temper-, he had to chuckle, a little melancholy. “did you know that sometimes, usually like, late at night, when i have a nightmare or something, i’ll go out to my balcony and just. beat the shit out of the brick wall? until my knuckles are fucking bleeding.” he’d never told anyone that before, and he clenched on of his knuckles over city’s shoulder, as if remembering the pain. “and then i bandage them up and i tell some lie about not taping properly at my match last night.” he finally planted a sweet kiss to city’s lips, pulling back just enough to murmur, “i think a blanket and pillow would be much more comfortable.”