❝I keep thinking I see him but then I remember he’s/she’s gone and it hurts all over again.❞ (an au where james died but lily got out? cause who needs feelings) - lovelylilyevcns
REMUS GAVE A LOW SIGH , before then scratching his inner ear && looking over his friend with a sad , mournful expression . his heart beat a little heavier , in the knowledge that james was never coming back . that james was dead && buried && his friend will never get the opportunity to dance again . to sing . to brush his hair . or eat a chocolate frog or play with harry or just be able to listen to the rain . james was gone , && it didn’t make sense . one minute he was laughing && within the world && the next he was just a body , lying DEAD with no soul within his chest . no heartbeat . nothing . && remus felt the loss of james . oh , perhaps he was not as close as sirius was ----- or perhaps even a very good friend to james . at times he was certain he was just a drain on his friends life . but merlin’s beard did remus MISS him . down to the core , felt it disrupt his very being . right down to his core .
so merlin only knew what lily was going through .
as he sat on the sofa , watching her , remus lifted his brow && settled down , before then reaching over && taking her hand in his . saying nothing , head dipped down . i know . i know . i know .
|| @lovelylilyevcns













