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[archivedbaphometslumberqueen]

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[animatedrapture]

𝐃𝐑𝐎𝐏𝐏𝐄𝐃 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐇𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐖𝐇𝐈𝐋𝐄 𝐃𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐈𝐍𝐆.

pairing: suna rintarou x reader.

summary: we're soulmates, he insists, like it's a substitute for i love you.

note: idk if wanna write the other one i planned for the but my feelings collab so here's a different one. i wrote this with the intention of adding the comfort to @tobiokuns soulmates gone wrong but... the hurt felt better—so there's like, some references/parallels to it.

tags: gn!reader. angst. soulmate!au. some description of pain because you're bound to suna by sharing each other's pain. hurt & absolutely no comfort. hints at neglect. break up and post break up. wc: 700.

suna supposes—no, he understands that he doesn't have anyone to blame but himself. if he continued to rummage through the memories of you, all he's left with is nothing but all the reasons why he doesn't know why there's pain cutting through the skin of his palm.

in a way, it's reminiscent. suna wonders if this is how you felt the whole time—to feel like you have half a heart and nothing more.

he can feel the cut, it slices across his palm—he thinks about who could be washing your wound clean without him around as he hisses in pain at the sting.

but you've grown, suna knows it best. you probably don't hate it as much when you have to clean up your wound, when the sting of it doubles over. otherwise, you probably wouldn't have left him.

probably.

because the echo of you leaving him never leaves. it bounces around his head in infinities.

you've given him so many chances—suna has no one to blame but himself. he's bitten his tongue in arguments and very rarely has he ever said anything out of line because, not for you. not with you. but in exchange, suna had offered you nothing but silence—no reassurance of a love that you had eventually thought didn't exist, no reassurance to hold on to him and stick around.

suna kept quiet until you did, too. you're soulmates and that's enough, that's what he always said.

he gets it now.

you're soulmates, he can tell because he knows, despite not knowing where you are right now—that you've gotten hurt and you're cleaning up the wound. you're soulmates, and he can tell because almost everyday, he feels the small nip of cooking oil on the skin of his hand, or when his tongue feels like it's been scalded when he's not even eating anything.

you're soulmates but that isn't enough—because everyday, suna comes home only to feel his heart getting chipped away all over again til he's hollow from inside out. it's only been three weeks and he's been leaving you alone in this apartment for over a year—so he wonders how you did it.

his heart aches, just like the way you told him it did. it's the perfect karma. to feel the same sort of loneliness he put you through.

"we're soulmates," he repeats like a broken record. with his eyes, he pleads.

"we're soulmates," he insists, like it's a substitute for i love you. but he's greeted by your silence. your eyes refusing to meet his, it stays grounded to the floor.

he calls out your name while you sink your teeth down your bottom lip because your eyes sting—suna can feel it too, the welling of tears in his eyes. even if your tears fall over first, he knows the sting in his eyes isn't all yours. for a moment, you look up, and your gaze meets his.

"i just-i can't do this anymore. i'm—i think i'm tired, rintarou."

your shoulders sag at your admission, like you're finally feeling the complete weight of it. then you look away with a sigh, "you don't need me around, rintarou—and i can't, i can't stay around you anymore."

his lips part, he wants to say he does. he needs you around, more than you know. but you shake your head like you know exactly what he'll say, "you're never around, you know. i get you're busy, i get you're tired but…" your sigh is tainted by a mirthless laugh. "i can't be with you anymore—not like this."

i can't be with you anymore. it's the words that echo in his head and follow him in his dreams. he feels every part of himself dying inside—it's hard for him to breathe; you have him in a chokehold. even in the very words that would become his nightmare, he thinks: but i love you.

suna watches you smile a little. it's a consolation prize before you're turning around and locking the door behind you.

"but we're soulmates," he mutters; and he wonders, if you could also feel the ache in his chest—or if he has to physically cut it in half for you to feel how he feels without you.

[daggersandsparks]

@inthisfire-ifindrain​​ : Fiona [from here]

“I don’t know it seems fairly simple to me..” Fiona said as she slid out from under Vulpes desk, bobby pin and screwdriver in hand, attempting to pick one of the compartments open, mumbling.. “He is making these damn locks harder and harder..”

Looking up at Mairwen .. “Regardless if you don’t understand they have their ways and reasonings for it, even if I don’t understand It’s just easier to pretend you do. Sometimes the end result makes everything make sense.”

Mairwen made a face at Fiona, watching her as she tried to undo the lock that was under Vulpes’ desk, her chin perched in one hand as she watched her dealing with it. Or failing to do so. That aspect of it made her smirk a little bit  She debated offering the other woman her lockpick set to try. But she wasn’t going to just yet.

❝ I don’t understand most of the Mojave’s logic in general. I would not mind going back East. ❞ She sighed, shaking her head slightly. 

[catandmousebullshit]

[ RESTRAIN ]:     sender pushes the receiver back against the wall to stop them from physically fighting the sender.

     Jake immediately shoved in return once his back hit the wall. No way was he getting stabbed in an alley. However, the other man’s strength overpowered his and he was pushed back against the brick hard. “No way to start a friendly conversation,” he snarled in the other man’s face as he struggled to free himself.

[hallucineugenics-a]

Donna Beneviento by Ana Godis [twitter] [instagram]

[rudestbuster]

[ hi! i’ve gained quite a few more followers since my original shipping call, so i'm going to do another one! if we’re mutuals, like this post if you want to try to work towards a ship with susie. it doesn't have to just be romantic either, we can do platonic and familial ships too. just let me know which!

also, if you’re a multimuse, specify the character (or characters, i don’t mind), you’re liking this for. ]

[icyquill]

        they  move  through sanctimonious  compound  of  eternity  in  unprecedented  fashion .  no,  surely this  hallowed  ground has  not  before seen  the  raucous audacity  as  encompasses their  stride  .  approach  is  heralded  with  fearful  shouts, lowly  guard  &. okuzumeshuu  alike,  &.  at  once  doors  of  the  tenshukaku are  pushed  open  for  azure  crane  to  walk  forward .  as  a  staunch  believer  before  god  would,  an  offering  is  presented  to  almighty  maiden  of  storms:   a  great  &.  monstrous  severed  head  that  might  still  bleed  crimson  were  it  not  layered  in  hoarfrost,  maw  agape  that  bares  wicked  &. beastly  tusks  &.  forehead  split  two  -  fold  with  what  few  inches of  demonic  horns  remain  unbroken .  ❝     ―  behold  :     ❞  they  speak  at  once  &.  with  a  tone  that  commands  the  attention  of  all  in  attendance,  unwavering even  in  the  face  of  eternity--  yet  daring  to  stare  they  in  the  eyes  as  they  throw  it  to  the  base  of  the  throne’s  stairway .  ❝     the  devil  of  konda  is  slain  .  in  due  time,  the  peoples’  minds  will  recover  and  return  as  once  they  were  .     ❞

@raiomei​​     ―     ► starter call . ◄

[deriision-archived]

Lil PSA!

Hey guys, I’ve been more inactive recently but I will be back soon!

I’m working on projects for the last few weeks of my semester and it requires a lot of my attention. So from 4/16 to sometime in early May I’ll be silent on tumblr. I will be on Discord, and I’ll be willing to share it to anyone who wants to chat!