#4amode

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If I focus hard enough, I can disappear into the thick fog and leave all my stress and problems far, far away from me, just like I’ve been doing mentally.

[4amode]

Do you see the doe-eyed, sweet, soft, neutral colors, aesthetically pleasing academic working diligently at the well-lit table in your local independent coffee shop? Great. Now, if you look behind them, in the darkest corner, you'll spot the chaotic, just-woke-up, 1800s-tormented-poet aesthetic one slumped over the table on their fifth double macchiato, brooding over ink-splotched papers and three different worn-out leather journals. That's me right there, hi.

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08.05

Really late update. After a morning lecture I studied with a friend at a cafe, and then at the library, it was a productive day.

My presentation is tomorrow, but I'm not too nervous about it, for some strange reason. I also managed to do some other stuff in preparation for the exams I have later in June and the paper on Henry James I have due on the 27th.

The overcast weather was ideal for studying, less ideal for walking home.

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13.05 ///

Heading back to my parents' place to rest for a few days before the exam session. Travelling by train feels so relaxing and peaceful, I always enjoy it. Obviously I had to pick the right reading to go with it.

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10.05 //

Since yesterday's presentation went well, today I treated myself with books and bubble tea (because self-care is important).

A light drizzle was coming down, so I went to this cute secondhand bookshop and snooped around for a bit, the owner was super nice too. After that I went to get a boba.

I didn't do much today, but a day of rest helps productiveness too. I did manage to revise an assignment I have to hand in, so there's that.

🎧: A Reluctant Hero by Bernard Herrmann ft. James P. Nichols

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23.05

To celebrate my birthday I went to the Paolo Orsi Archaeological Museum in Syracuse. It was brilliant. I got myself a copy of the Iliad as a souvenir.

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16.05 ///

Although I'm supposed to be taking a break from uni, I brought the magazine I usually read for German practice (fluter.) with me and read some.

There was an article about risk taking and risk awareness, it was really interesting and I learnt several new words and sentence structures that I'll use in my writing.

📚: Barbaric Growth by Sheng Keyi

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[4amode]

I know for a fact that there will never be anything more certain, stable, and immutable in my life than my fat gay crush on Lee Joo-Young.