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[darmands]

heated rivalry and aftg being in the same universe and kevin “it’ll be easier if he remains heterosexual” day sees scott hunter kiss his boyfriend on national television please

[prettyboyneil]

Andrew songs that aren’t Taylor Swift

Black Flag - Nervous Breakdown

Anti-flag - Broken Bones

Teenage bottlerocket - I wanna Die

Pencey prep - 8th grade

Pennywise - Fuck Authority

My Chemical Romance- House of wolves

Black Flag - Black Coffee

Linkin park - Bleed it Out

The Lillingtons - Murder On My Mind

Simple Plan - I’m Just a Kid

Anti flag - If you wanna steal you better learn how to lie

Pencey prep- Trying to Escape the Inevitable

Bring me the Horizon- Drown

Bad religion- Infected

The Lillingtons- All I Hear is Static

Mindless Self Indulgence- It Gets Worse

My chemical romance- Surrender the Night

Drowning pool- Bodies

Anti flag - Liar

Rancid - Maxwell Murder

Linkin park - Numb

Falling In Reverse - Raised by Wolves

Get Scared - Sarcasm

Pill friends - Satan is Your Master Now

System of a Down - Violent Pornography

Falling in Reverse - Sink or Swim

[s-exy]

Still feel very strongly abt the au of Neil having a half little brother out there.

Someone points out that he looks like an exy player and he looks him up. Holy shit, he does look like him. After some research and talking to his mother he comes to the possibility of them being related and reaches out. Que Neil not wanting to deal with that and Aaron losing his shit because holy hell what a hypocrite.

[grooviestguru]

hc that one day the upperclassmen bring up neil/marissa Incident while andrew is in hearing distance. the whole story is retold, complete with reenactments and typical fox dramatics as they howl at neil’s reaction to this poor girl just trying to get his number. 

importantly, this is the first and only time the other foxes see two things from andrew: ONE (1). how close he is to laughing at the absurdity of the entire story, of marissa being so silly, of neil being obtuse as a goose (but that’s ANDREW’S obtuse goose, tyvm), and generally the concept of neil not comprehending someone’s advances and TWO (2). how close he is to expressing real regret... regret that he wasn’t there in person to witness this glorious moment, of seeing someone else suffer from neil’s utter lack of awareness that andrew thought only he had to endure, of not seeing neil’s face and hearing his voice as he told marissa ‘i wouldn’t call you’. the ONLY time the upperclassmen see andrew that close to these emotions he claims not to feel.

[nanatsuyu]

deadliest piece on the board...deadliest investment

tell me you understand where im coming from here

[gaypomegranate]

Quotes that remind me of Andreil: 

Neil: 

“Like any unloved thing, I don’t know if I’m real when I’m not being touched.” (Natalie Wee) 

Thinking in the context of Neil’s life living in Baltimore, going on the run, playing with the foxes, falling for Andrew, etc. While he may not like all touch, or is hesitant to it, he is grounded by the touch he experiences, both the good (His touches with Andrew, “Yes or no?”, the ruffling of his hair from Matt, the casual touches from the team he slowly grows more accustomed to) and the bad. (The abuse from his father, Lola’s knives, his mother’s tugging of his hair and hard hands, Riko’s violence) 

Andrew: 

“I wept and wept. I had come to believe that if I really wanted something badly enough, the very act of my wanting it was an assurance that I would not get it.” (Audre Lorde)

I associate this one with Andrew more so in his earlier years, in the years in which so much was taken from him he had to learn to give up his needs and wants for survival. His continued denial of his wants in reference to his growing relationship with Neil due to the fear he has of losing the little he does want, much like what had happened in the past. 

Neil:

“I was so alone that every day was like eating my own heart.” (Junot Diaz)

Makes sense throughout the majority of his life, but is specifically relating to the period he spent truly alone for the first time after losing his mom. His loneliness and bone crushing fatigue of trying to keep going, keep running, to stay lost, keep away from the very little he has. (Exy) Past tense because he has grown and found a home and people he cares about who care about him. Found a home in Andrew and given him his heart to hold. 

Andrew: 

“Where can my lovers touch me when all of me hurts? Certainly not my body. Certainly not my heart.” (Molly Burton)

Obviously connecting to Andrew’s trauma. I was thinking about this in terms of him and Neil, in his refusal to think of their relationship as anything more than “nothing” (at least at first), his need for control and fear of giving up what little he does have due to having it be taken from him so much. Obviously he outgrows this, at least to an extent, (I like to think his need for control always stays but overtime evolves and changes) but I think of this as a internal background thought in his mind, an insecurity he had to learn to overcome through his trust in Neil. 

[victor-v]

NFT video of kevin doing the six feet tall and super strong challenge for charity

[stick-ball]

Wesninski is actually a butchered version of the surname Wiśniewski and basically means The Cherry Man so...

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