#ain't feeling it

[autumnsunshine10]

My skin breaks out and flares up, resentful of my poor bone structure, perhaps. My hair tries to fly away from my scalp, unruly and untamed. My body aches and creaks insolently. My hands gesticulate wildly, trying to fly from my wrists. My eyebrows raise frequently, wanting to distance themselves from my eyes, I suppose. Why is my physicality so rebellious, contrary carnality? It’s in protest of my insides, foolhardy heart and cutting mind.

I’m failing at feeling beautiful

[littlepoeticnegus]

Honestly.

I'm feeling some type of way tonight... Not really diggin it either. 😒

[eeeeeggs]

I went all the way to cerritos to get mochi cake from this Taiwanese bakery but they ran out T________T

[johnny-handout]

it needs to snow on the part of the internet i have school on

[ivyysaurrr]

Mehhh

It's been a reall crappy morningg :[ and I've been awake for like 2 hours....

It's probably the fact that I had a weird/freaky dream/nightmare [that I actually don't remember too much, but I just know it was bad and I didn't like it] and I'm on my period and for some reason it's a really bad one this time. My hips/ovaries hurttt, even when I walk/get up...or it could be leftover soreness from my workout Thursday....nahhh cuz it's a hella awk spot to be sore....

And my throat is itchyy and I woke up with one side of my nose clogged? So I may or may not be getting sick?? Blahhh

And of course I have to wake up to homework homework homework. LIke I have NO mandatory assigned homework, but I KNOW I have to do it and be on top of my materials and lectures if I want to you know do well...

Locking myself in the library right now and being fucking productive today/night while listening to my sad/empowering music playlist.