Why do I have to explain myself?
My heart is so crushed right now. I used to be so sensitive about other people being mean to me. Nowadays, I always try to keep my cool and try to understand where everybody is coming from. But what happened today is just the worst. Someone just have to be so unreasonably mean to me, judging everything about me and my job. I just can’t. I always try to be positive, not to become the person (who thinks she’s the most useless) who I used to be. But then, here comes this guy who just had to be so cruel to say that I am worth nothing and that I am not worth of my position. It’s just so sad how he is not seeing everything in the picture. Okay lang kung those criticisms were privately messaged. But no. He just have to say it to my face in front of a huge crowd. I mean why huhuhuhu. Tapos wrong accusations pa. How could I not be disheartened about it? My friends have always told me not to become that girl whom others think of as vulnerable and easy to get bullied or smth. But idk. I have always tried my best to fight for myself. It’s just that there is that point wherein I just can’t help it but break down. In my head, the phrases, “Wow, you are really useless, aren’t you?” and “Try to keep your cool. Prove them they’re wrong.” have been battling which leads to loss for words and a total silence. Huhuhuhuhu I can’t explain myself anymore. Now, I just want to lie on my bed forever. I don’t want to face the world tomorrow. Why do people have to be so mean :(