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300 followers, health problems, and where the blog is going.

I don’t know how many of you actually read my personal post. Or how many of you have stuck around while I’ve been on and off hiatus for the last year because of college. But recently blog running has been very hard.

I still fully intent to write here but I write for fun, I write to make myself feel better and I don’t want to make it an obligation. I will fill out request when I feel good and will be posting personal fic writing from my free time.

I’ve been down with one chronic illness since 2015/2016 and have just been told I may have another long term health problem after struggling with symptoms for the last few months.

I hope those of you who enjoy my work continue to do so but I understand if casual fic isn’t what you came here to see.

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You’re so right bestie

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I don’t know how you guys feel about gency but because of the young agent headcanons I’m just really feeling the Genji and Mercy falling in love because of seeing each other dote over the same kid and act like parents.

I just have feelings about them and yearning for a family life they’d never imagined for themselves before.

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I have a concussion and I’m not supposed to be looking at screens too much but I can’t sleep and I’m super restless with thoughts that I’m having trouble being able to say out loud it’s very stressful.

I’m so dizzy and I feel like I’m going to pass out but when I try to just relax and let unconsciousness take me it says no. Everything is shit but I drew a little batman.

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I have a lot of feelings about valorant lore right now.

Especially Cypher cause we assume Nora was his wife but I think it would be even more of a gut punch if Nora was his daughter or Sister. Losing the only family he had left and refusing to form a bond with anyone because of it.

Because of Viper and Omens lines we assume Sage has some deep hidden sins but how do we know they aren’t projecting their own faults in the situation on her? Especially on Vipers part. We know Omen was the result of some kind of experiment and that Sage was involved but nothing has ever proven Sage was a scientist like Viper was. What could she have done to make it all her fault?

How does Killjoy deal with knowing what her machines have done, does she even know the extent of it? From her confusion about why Reyna seems to hate her so much it seems she doesn’t know how much her inventions have hurt people.

How evil is Kingdom? Are we talking Umbrella, LexCorp, type evil all the way through? Or were they just pushing for science with good intentions until it all fell apart and crossed ethical lines.

Are people being born with powers or are they gained through contact with radianite? Could it be both depending on their life.

Why is Sova just out here with a bunch of mercenaries and ex kingdom agents? He’s just some Russian chad with good fighting skills.

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I know genshin is full of hot characters to thirst for but instead I’m hoarding babs to hold gently. I want to teach qiqi what memes are.

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Would y’all be mad if I started posting like general fanfiction here? Like eventually I will open up my inbox for request again but like would you guys be okay with like non imagines?

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I graduated today