Ohhhh it’s Choices Fandom Shoutout Day thanks to @choicesfandomappreciation and I know I haven’t been on a lot lately but I feel like these people need some love because ...
1. For putting up with my ridiculousness and
2. Just talking to me in general when all of you are just such cool ass people
I’ve been part of the fandom for two years in September and it has changed a whole lot. I choose to focus on the important people that made me feel like I wasn’t a dumbass for wanting to write my stories and not the toxic people that unfortunately litter this place.
Thank you to the supportive, sweet, amazing people mentioned here that read everything I write (for some reason), check on me because they genuinely care and not have their own agenda, and love me despite my flaws, insecurities, and the stupid shit that comes out of my mouth.
@burnsoslow - oh my sweet nakie twin, soul sister, and football bestie. You were my first friend, my first reader, my first video call with anyone on tumblr. What would have happened if I was too nervous to message you about your rage panda reblogs?! WE WOULD HAVE NEVER BECAME SO CLOSE! *gasp* We shall never speak of such things! I can’t imagine my life without you in it. There are only a handful of people I will message while I’m at work and you’re one of them. Our conversations range from hilarious, to deep honesty, to vulnerability, to fucking crazy and I wouldn’t have it any other way. That’s what friendship is bitch and I love you so much!
@ao719 - dude, looking back on my newbie self when I would ghost read your masterlist over and over again (sorry about that lol I had no idea what I was doing), I still can’t get enough of your stories two years later! Now that I’ve gotten to know the person behind the stories, I’ve realized that you’re a writing genius (it’s a thing). Yes, yes, you’re a genius, you can’t deny it. You can come up with fucking amazing storylines that I could have never thought of myself and how do you do that?! Is it all the cheesy fiesta potatoes?! By the way, thanks for making me addicted to those. Thank you for making me laugh so hard I have to pee LOL sending tiktok videos back and forth is the best! Love you!
@cocomaxley - I feel like our personalities are so similar and that’s probably why I’m so comfortable talking to you hahaha although I’m pretty sure you are totally more ballsy than me! From fake rice, to cornbeef (and other Filipino foods), to Petty Mayonnaise, sugar cookies, and kitty teef ... You know I would put on some brass knuckles and grab the vaseline for you. I get Mean Girls vibes from us but we really aren’t mean! We just say shit that needs to be said. I love you a whole helluva lot and my day is always better when we talk!
@ofpixelsandscribbles - Lis! We are in totally different timezones and still find time to cowrite a series together! Thank you for letting me write a teeny bit with you, for being my prereader and brainstorming with me, I can’t imagine doing this with anyone else! You’ve always had my back and been my friend regardless of what goes on in our personal lives and I appreciate you so much! Also, getting kitty pictures brightens my day! I want to snuggle all the kittens so bad! I love you a whole lot babe!
@alyssalauren - I know I have been a terrible friend lately but I wanted to let you know that I love you a butt ton. Like ... a butt ton! Soooo much butt LOL Thank you for being my friend, loving New Girl with me, obsessing over our Liam together, and prereading when I harass send you my ridiculous stories. You have to know that I appreciate you and our friendship so much. (I also love accidental videos sent from your mini you LOL) Love you!!!!
@sfb123 - girl, our conversations ALWAYS end up going to food and what we’re cooking or where we’re going to eat lol. I meeeeean, we do talk about iced coffee in freezing weather ... “it’s hotter than a winter’s tit out here!” Okay in all honesty, thank you for always checking on me, even though my zombie ass is tired from work. One time, I was face down in my pillow (with some drool but we won’t talk about that) and I got a message from you about flip flops and iced coffee in freaking winter time and I swear I snorted so hard it included nose hairs LOL thank you so much for being an amazing friend when I needed it most. Love you!
I also wanted to send love to the following amazing people on tumblr, thank you so much for being pretty fucking awesome! I am so grateful for you.
The disgusting bug I had placed in the Bug Shadow Realm (solo cup prison) has just breached containment and is now plotting its revenge. I am in Danger.
Sympathizing and identifying with a character because they remind you of your own personal struggles, trauma, and regrets is not the same as excusing or denying their behavior.
Please believe me when I say that I can’t even excuse myself, let alone PD.
Every day I live with the things I have done that I can’t take back.
Please stop calling PD stans “abuse apologists”. While there are people out there who like to pretend that their favs are flawless babies that can do no wrong, I honestly see very little of that in this fandom. A lot of us are here because we know too well what it feels like to try so hard to be a better person and still fail half the time. It’s not the same thing.
