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fic: Follow You Down, The Musketeers, Anne/Aramis

Follow You Down by dirty diana The Musketeers Anne/Aramis rated explicit 5200 words beta by skripka also tagged: post-canon, a/b/o, male alpha/female omega, in heat while ruling France together like a true power couple" * A day in the life of the Queen and First Minister. Also, Anne is in heat.

Anne realised then that he would stay with her if she asked it, throwing away the responsibilities of the crown to serve her needs, and only hers. Anne only had to say the words. It was a pleasant dream, one that she rarely indulged in. Anne shook her head. "You must go, of course. I will wait."

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As a commemoration of my first time being high, at the ripe-old-age of 20 I might add, I wrote a poem. Here it is:

A Riddle by:me

Pound, Pound, Pound! Goes the front of my head.

Standing airy in the earth like a flower. Foggy minded like a haunted ocean.

What am I?

High

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The New Legends of Monkey

This post is mostly going to consist of my ramblings about why I think Monkey is the beautiful submissive I’m not even sure I’m worthy of having on my screen.

There’ll be some other random observations or TripKey squealing scattered throughout. (Preface almost everything I write here with “I think.” I’m sure there are lots of other wonderful interpretations of the characterization and there’s totally space for all of us! 😄 AKA, I realize this is all a little far-fetched, but it just makes me so happy I’m okay with my headcanon being different from the average.)

I... cannot believe how long this got.

I think Monkey resists learning the gods language because he thinks he'll fail at it and disappoint his Master. He wants to prove himself with his physical skill, which is what he DOES feel confident in. (If he can be strong enough, fast enough, skilled enough --> then his Master will be pleased with him). He thinks of himself as a warrior and doesn't seem to believe he can be more than that, not really.

Monkey shows off the Master's form when fighting the demon in front of everyone, thinking he’ll impress his Master and the audience. The "I think we can all agree it was perfect" is arrogance, but also him WAITING to receive some kind of approval, because he can't understand why they're not happy with him. (He's such a good student who learned the technique perfectly even though he wasn't included in the lesson! Isn't that a good thing? Also he really felt kind of left out that he didn't get to be a part of the lesson but whatever, he's not pouting YOU'RE POUTING)

Davari is the one who gets in his head and convinces him that he's supposed to be a master. (I thought this was interesting, because at first it seems like a very arrogant move to ask if he's supposed to be a Master, but in reality he didn't arrive at that conclusion on his own.) And even when he's asking the Master if that's the plan, he starts to doubt and feel unsure of himself: "*Isn't* it?" Uuugh, the expression on his face when he says that!! The tiny cracks of vulnerability in his face just kill me, because it’s like his mask is so close to cracking in that moment.

Monkey decides that he doesn't belong because he's failed. ("Why did you bring me here to join the gods? You knew I would fail.") This feels like an important character point for him: he's not okay with failing. Somewhere along the way he developed the idea that he's not allowed to.

Davari convinces him to steal the crown, that he should be a king. Monkey trusts Davari, the only person who around here appreciates Monkey for what he is, so why wouldn't he take Davari's ideas to heart?

Yet as soon as his Master is hurt, he wants to stay and make things how they were (to do what he thinks his Master wants).

I think his Master had a point, that he wasn't able to give Monkey the guidance he needed. Monkey clearly WANTS to have a purpose, he wants to be good and have approval, but he struggles. He struggles with:

his own defensiveness (when Pigsy tries to tell him it wasn't a good idea to invite the tree pirates along)

his embarassment (when Tripitaka says she can read the language and he gets snippy, when he's finally forced to reveal he can't)

his NEED to impress others/gain their approval.

It makes him resistant to trying things he's not good at, it makes him lie or omit the truth to protect himself and his image (his attempt to try to keep affection, not be rejected).

His Master tells him to scatter the scrolls, and he does that rather than stay and defend himself (fulfilling the Master's wishes).

He resists joining Tripitaka at first, but can't help himself -- he comes to "save" her from Sandy. His mission/purpose is determined by someone other than himself.

I think that moment when they discuss how she controls the crown is really interesting, because there's never a second where it seems like she will FORCE him to go along, yet that's the first place HIS mind goes (and maybe there's a little part of him longs to be controlled????).

ALSO, how she uses the Sutra to connect with him when he's too deep in his mind, so the Sutra isn't just something to cause him awful pain. It's a link with his mind. (I am 1,000% fervently imagining ways in which this could feature in their sex life omgggggggggg what if the crown is like their version of a collar in this universe I CANNOT EVEN)

He loves his "tribe" because they make him feel wanted, and he's excited to make them happy, to bring them along and give them what they want - the chance to fight with him. So when Tripitaka confronts him, he's frustrated that she can't understand why he needs this, why she's treating him as if he's done something awful when his tribespeople are so happy with him. He WANTS to make everyone happy, but he can't.

I also think it's pertinent that he verbally attacks/questions the Scholar, which in a way could be him struggling with his grief over his Master. In both cases, it's men who've been killed who determine his path: the Master tasked him with hiding the scrolls, and now the Scholar has tasked him with reclaiming them. In some ways he wants to live up to their expectations, but he's also angry at them: partly that they can't be HERE with him, helping him and giving him the guidance he needs, and also for expecting more of him than he thinks he's capable of. I really feel like Monkey's outer shell is a veneer of confidence that's covering some deep-rooted insecurities. He's still very emotionally immature, and doesn't completely understand how to manage himself. He's terrified of failure, but because of that he's stagnant in some ways, resistant to pushing himself in new directions or taking emotional risks.

"Master. Forgive me." 1x06

"He used me." / "I was betrayed. The demon made a fool... OF ME!" You can see how hurt Monkey is, finding out he was used by someone he thought was his friend. I wonder if there are situations when he wants to be USEFUL rather than used -- to make people he loves and trusts proud of him, to stand by people who he knows will do the RIGHT THING with his strength. (Like his comment when Tripitaka doesn't bathe with them, "it's about doing the right thing," the way he points at her like he's acknowledging her moral fortitude - I love that!)

"Monkey, please, trust me. We have to go. Monkey! Leave it, Monkey, fight him another day." And it takes him a minute, for Tripitaka's voice to penetrate, but Monkey goes.

Sooooo the narrative wants us to lay the responsibility for the world being plunged into darkness on Monkey's shoulders, and I'm just... not seeing it. I mean, yes, he tried to steal the crown, but what does that have to do with Davari killing the Master? Just because Monkey happened to be distracting the Master when Davari decided to attack?

I think one way or another Davari was going to kill the Master, and one way or another he was going to get Monkey out of the picture. I mean... I don't know, yes, Monkey's behavior was impulsive, but stealing a crown IS NOT an automatic prelude to plunging the world into darkness. It's not as if he were warned "TOUCH THE CROWN AND CAUSE 500 YEARS OF MISERY." He had no idea what would result from his actions and had no way of knowing what was coming. It wasn't as if he was intentionally ignoring dire warnings.

It seems like when someone is in a solid leadership position that Monkey doesn't have a problem falling into line. Like when Gwen is leading them out of the kin forest, you don't see him vying to try and compete with her for the leadership position, he follows her because the rest of them have decided to trust her, and since he trusts his team, he goes along.

Or, when Tripitaka leaves them, and he tries to get Sandy and Pigsy to go along with his angry-reactionary-not-well-thought-out-plan, and starts getting angry with Pigsy. BUT as soon as Sandy comes up with a completely logical alternative, Monkey has no issue going along with it. Later on, he more than happy to go along with Pigsy's "tethered goat" idea.

"When I first came out of the rock, I didn't know what to expect. I thought, perhaps, a little more fanfare. But there was nothing. No gods, no welcoming ceremony... nothing. Just you. An insiginificant human. No, that... [sighs]. That's not what I mean, okay? This isn't coming out right. When my Master died, I thought I would never again have the chance to be a part of something that mattered. Until I met you." [he reaches out to touch her tentatively] "Don't die." [pats her awkwardly]

PLEASE EXCUSE ME WHILE I HAPPYSIGH FOREVER

When Tripitaka realizes that Gwen died for her she goes to reach for her necklace. It's like her safety talisman, when she feels insecure she reaches for it.

"Forget about Tripitaka. Forget about the scrolls." So when he feels abandoned (Tripitaka secrety leaving them in the night), he shuts down and doesn't want to show even an ounce of how he's being affected by that feeling of abandonment/betrayal.

I also think it's cute how quickly he picks up the spitting gesture from the family. I think Monkey is much more absorbent/open to influence than he initially seems.

Two gods have died for Tripitaka: Gwen, who took on her poison, and the god they sacrificed to the abyss to try and motivate her to translate.

When Monkey asks Pigsy about whether he still trusts Tripitaka -- here we are again, Monkey, struggling with trust, and seeking out someone else's opinion to help guide him, since he's confused about his own feelings/what to believe. (Also, even when he's not sure if he trusts Tripitaka, he's STILL very concerned that the plan doesn't have a specific step dedicated to rescuing her because it’s IMPORTANT for REASONS which MONKEY CANNOT REALLY EXPLAIN WHAT THEY ARE OKAY BUT THERE ARE REASONS.)

In the last episode, we see signs of Monkey's affection for everyone in their group -- he's worried about rescuing Tripitaka when they infiltrate the banquet; he adjusts Pigsy's scarf right before he goes on stage; he says "good of you to make an appearance" when he and Sandy are fighting side by side, although when she says, "you missed me, didn't you?" he deflects by saying "I'm not so sure about that." Monkey, my beautiful baby, just beginning to feel safe enough to show tiny slivers of the massive amounts of love you have stored up inside of you, just waiting for the right people to come along!

Pigsy has to physically restrain Monkey from becoming physically violent more than once (when Raxion talks about executing him, when Davari is activating the immortality spell). When if Monkey needs that? Some kind of physical touch to ground him, bring him back from the edge? It also seems like Tripitaka's voice has this effect.

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