I’ll probably say this to the end of time.
But isn’t it funny when you see people say “Gay Marroage is a sin” and all.
“First one all, it’s not. Second of all, even if it was, what does that really mean??”
It’s kinda depressing point of view I have, but it’s one truth I think someone young and hard for me to expect ..
That it doesn’t need to be a sacrement to already show, Just because one thing isn’t a sacrement, doesn’t mean if it’s alongside the other thing, threatens the established foundation. In fact, I think it puppets that a union between man and women, you know sex that lead to living beings is UTTERLY important? Yuh know? It doesn’t matter if Adoption or IVF with it involved (personally I prefer the adoption for anyone. Just like keeping it to yourself till you actually wanna seethed down no matter what true too. Two things can be true at once??)
Truth is, I probably never wanna get married. It’s like God has been speaking to me that I’ll probably never get married because I feel like I’ll be more sad than happy.
And when I say it to anyone. Mostly people say “But you’re young! “
“You don’t know that, there is someone it there for everyone”
But what if it’s someone of the same sex hm?? Which I hella doubt even more than even Me getting married to a man.
Or if I even have the greeted options in tenfold,
I can only hope to God that those are rightfully my options or men that would be good husbands.
“Hey, I don’t think I want this. I have nothing against it, I love it. But in reality, it make me more unhappy than happy, and I think I’m better off without it.”
And it’s not taken as legit or valid.
And it’s hard to explain.
And yeah, maybe that is partially cause of patriarchy, marriage industry, corruption and shit.
But other than that, I think I enter wanna date because I never wanna get married.
My personal opinion is NOT everyone feels a pull towards marriage.
And so the guilt of me being Catholic and supportive of Gay marriage or any marriage is so conflicting.
Because on one side it’s not my problem or my bussiness.
It feel so lonely. I can hope I’m not the only one. And I know I’m not, but I wish someone can actually connect with me and understand at least in some way.
I need to talk to it with loved ones and family some day, but it gets me mad the ire and more I feel like my experiences
Or what I feel deep down isn’t valid or that I’m lost,
Or that it’s not normal feeling.
It’s so unfair because what Id I want to be a non?
What if I just be a normal person, but still hold my values??
Ironic right!? You think any other and feeling would be good,
But apparently, it’s too sensitive to some people.
