Apr 11
Jabber and Zanka having trauma of being "too much" thoughts
Jabber who was silenced for years and had his needs and voice kept from him until finding his voice and choosing to be loud but still unable to handle touch or normal teenage emotional expressions so he displays it through childish violence trying to replace affection and pleasure with pain
Zanka being seen as too needy causing him to withdrawal from affection and not voice his needs placing others before himself and only being able to express himself through anger and violence still unable to handle people giving away affection freely
hmmmmm
#sorry just read a really good fanfic#saucyboys rants#janka rambles#janka#janka gachiakuta#zanka x jabber#jabber x zanka#cried today#so much chest pain#eldest daughter core#eldest daughter trauma?#hmmm#not canon just my own thoughts and headcanons added onto my interpretations of these two#Jabber poisons zanka once again but Zanka hallucinates being abandoned and keeps talking about#“Ill be better” and “Ill be quiet”#and jabbers like: damn we both unwanted and hated for being awesome sauce#then they kiss
