#crows'fools

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"it's rotten work." "not to me, not if its you." muttered really quietly and longingly to lohen while bandaging up his injuries after a battle in a position where the situation feels too intimate but neither of you or looking at each other bc that would mean acknowledging it.

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the way i used to lock the FUCK in when I made rp forms months ago. i dont know what i was on but i need it again for writing

↑ also for anyone wondering why her design wears a mask it was because of this

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"I needed something

To help me get through

I wanted something

And the doctor said to

Take this pill, you'll feel much better

When you wake up numb and your brain's been severed

And your heartbeat won't be based on the weather

When you sell yourself to me

Took your peace, your pain, your pleasure

And I left you with one face forever

You won't hurt anymore, be careful what you wish for.”

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thinking about lohen showing up to the sexenzirkel meeting with the jester outfit on.

perewyn finally being forced to bring her lohen to the sexenzirkel meetup after weeks of putting it off. she knows lohen has something up his ass planned, but she's met with that stupid smile and an "i have no idea what you're talking about" or a "dont you trust me birdie?" every time she tries to confront him about it. its a few hours before the meetup and perry tells him she's going to head there early to help prepare, and to show up on time or she'll strangle him(not that its a really good punishment.)

then the party's finally started. perry's lohen hasn't shown up. someone asks her where her lohen is and she just tries to brush it off like "oh, he'll be here soon. he's probably getting ready." getting increasingly nervous if the way her finger was tapping meant anything.

and then lohen finally shows up. she's briefly relieved before choking on her tea as it is immediately overshadowed by embarrassment when he walks in wearing the fucking outfit that she was pretty sure she locked away in the back of her closet forever.

she plays it cool the entire time. ignoring the fact that their outfits are matching. trying not to glance at his thighs under the table while he sits next to her. pretending the way lohen slips a gloved thumb underneath the hem of the thigh high and snapping it back against his skin just out of sight does not make her want to do unspeakable things. she's not even the one wearing the outfit and she's the one red in the face.

"hm, something wrong, birdie? you look distracted."

"fuck yo- I mean-! ah, nothing's wrong. nothing. nothing's wrong. i just... burned my tongue a bit on this tea is all."

to anyone else, it would seem like it. at least, if they don't notice the way her response are just a beat slower and stammering, or how she seems more distracted than anything else. or how her smile seems a little more strained. she even forgot to poison the food the whole party. she just ends up looking like this the entire time.

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do you guys wanna know about the scar on her face yet or should i hold it off longer.

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perewyn's hair probably makes it soooo easy for lohen to play with. since its super long and actually quite strong and durable in bunches.

he joked about the idea of her hair being a weapon and then she spun around and slapped him with it.

he'd probably have fun pulling it around, even if its just to get her attention or if her doesn't want her walking away. it works as a great leash in a way. oh yeah, and in bed too, yes. pulling on her hair while he's thrusting into her from behind or something.

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honestly have been thinking pretty incessantly about one of our first oc mentions where u said perry would react very poorly to hearing about mallory's childhood crush on lyney & lynette because i'm SO curious LMFAO

in a universe where perewyn was in love with Lyney, that kind of information would keep her up at night.

perewyn has always been good at masking her expressions. smiling has always been the best way for her to get through every situation, even if it does more harm than good. but if mal ever told her she had a crush on lyney as a child? perewyn would smile while mentally strangling you in her mind.

because really, you're not the only one!! she loved him too!! still loves him, in fact. she isn't sure whether to feel relief or betrayal at the fact you used to have a crush on him. because on one hand, that just leaves one less person to deal with, but in the other hand, its a bit of a shame you'd lose sight so easy of someone as wonderful and lovely as her beloved!

but that's fine! because you dont deserve him, not you, not even me, and especially not perewyn! god knows she doesn't deserve someone as wonderful as him!

the way he smiles at her... it makes something dark and sickening in her chest shudder. oh how she would want to keep that smile on his face forever and ever... her hands twitch at the urge to pry his ribs open, bare it vulnerable before her and cradle it gently... carve her bones with his name over and over again until its etched so deeply...

but lyney doesn't deserve such ugly thoughts to taint him! which is why perewyn's all the more content to simply watch from afar! observing his happiness is far more privelage than someone as disgusting and unworthy as perewyn could ever deserve in her lifetime!

still, that isn't the kind of happiness she wants in his life. not with someone else. not like that.

and she knows its wrong to dictate someone else's happiness. but maybe, she could just make sure it doesn't become someone's happiness in the first place^^?

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   She is dead now; buried under the same place I lived, and she rots in my chest like maggots in a festering wound.

   Do not mourn her. A nameless, empty grave has no need for grief.

   I am the inheritor of her memory, the encompassment of her regret – and her foolish, selfish dream.