#csa victim

[covert-system]

just getting this out of my system

[angel-tearsx]

[lolthsword]

maybe flowers can still grow from me

[buck-forever]

[androgenough]

Pro tip: if you've always related to csa victims and kinda had this nagging feeling at the back of your mind that maybe you're not remembering something bad—there might be a reason for that! And boy, it can hit you like a truck at the least expected time

[proship-shuujuu]

anon was blocked for…. obvious reasons. but let me explain how severely fucked-up of an ask this is to those who might not fully get it.

i am a csa survivor. i was sexually abused by my father throughout my childhood. i still have mental trauma from that, and health problems that i suspect may stem from that trauma. i'm also still forced to see my father, despite legally being an adult, and i can't tell anyone what was done to me since i have no proof. additionally, the alter who formed from that trauma is a little/syskid who can't articulate themself well, and our mother (who is also our caretaker) has fakeclaimed us about our plurality.

i am completely alone in this. and anon has essentially just told me that abuse i went through as a child is equal to a fictional ship. just because they don't like that ship.

i am a real person. these characters are not.

"but what about rpf—" it is common etiquette to not show the subject of your fanworks what you've created, because, as i've stated, these are real people. yes, rpf is fictional, and we are pro-rpf because it is fictional — but if you intentionally shove your work in the face of the person you're writing about, knowing that it could make them uncomfortable, knowing that you could be breaking boundaries, you are undeniably a horrible person.

also, rpf is usually made with good intentions. someone coming into my inbox and saying that out of pathetic spite does not have good intentions. anon is intentionally trying to harm me, and that is the difference here.

this is so genuinely sickening to me, i don't even know what else i can say.

[transgyne]

i got a reply recently about age play

"it doesn't matter if it's an adult acting like a child..."

As a victim of CSA, I completely disagree. It absolutely DOES matter! The difference between an adult acting as a child and you raping a child is consent, & anyone who wants to downplay the importance of consent to make their puritain talking points is genuinely not somebody I feel safe around as a victim. They care more about things being icky than actually caring about the harm (or lackthereof) being done.

[azuremist]

People need to get normaler about CSA victims existing in fandom spaces, especially in situations where they’re projecting their CSA onto characters

Here are some sick tips

“Rapefic” and “a non-sexualized horror fic about CSA” or even “a non-explicit fic that just details how a character deals/copes with CSA” are not the same thing.

Yes, a character being coded as a (C)SA victim is a thing. This can either mean it’s written allegorically, or they have experiences very similar to victims. Hallmarks of this include themes of loss of autonomy, difficult relationships to touch/sex, losing a part of one’s body, not being able to remember one’s childhood, etc.

Not only is it okay to headcanon child characters as CSA victims, but you’re never gonna BELIEVE what the C in CSA stands for.

It’s also okay to headcanon characters from fiction mostly targeted at minors as CSA victims. “But what if a child sees it?” If it’s horror, or something else inappropriate for children, it should be filtered out with all other non-appropriate content. Otherwise, it’s fine. There is nothing inherent about themes of CSA that makes it automatically inappropriate. Again, you’re never gonna BELIEVE what the C in CSA stands for — why is representation for parental abuse victims understood as important for abused children, but not representation of child SA victims? Because our trauma is too gross? Very progressive of you.

If you’re about to say something about CSA portrayed in fandom spaces in the future, ask yourself, “If this was portraying psychological or physical abuse instead, would I have my panties in a twist right now?”

By making CSA victims out to be creeps for exploring or talking about our trauma (including through fandom), you are inherently contributing to the culture of shame and silence that silences SA victims.

Representation for CSA victims matters (including and especially those who are still children, because they are made to feel uniquely “ruined” — unlike their peers, who are still “innocent”)

All of this also applies to non-child SA victims and SA headcanons, too, by the way.

(This post is about how (C)SA victims have their real-life experiences treated like porn, and advocates for de-sexualizing the topic of (C)SA. This post is not about porn, erotica, or kink; please do not derail. Thank you.)