"Underestimation"
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"Underestimation"
The Music Of Violence
Do not envy the dog
Their sense of sound so profound
As to hear the storm coming miles away,
Frightened is the whimper
And adrift is the tightened tale,
Do not envy the privilege of noise,
Do not strain to hear the sickening song…
The first time he hears the music of violence,
Like a sickening for mass movement of immorality
The families are rounded up one by one,
It is not the crying that bothers the inner ear
Not the crying for their fathers’ lives,
What frightens the boy staring at the television
Is the silence in his voice,
There are no words for when the gun shots go
Off and each body drops,
Families dead upon the doorstep
The song has already been written for him,
He has no words to give
There is no meaning for a child disposed upon
Violent enterprise,
He is broken and all the fires of death sound off
Within his ears,
This is just a movie,
This is just a scene
He is just to be a willing soldier of the song…
Nineteen is the age when the song
Reveals his phobic nature,
He can hear the walls screaming,
Malcontents breaking gravity to see
Their families float into the drywall,
Fire anticipates in his desperate eyes
Lifting his fist higher and the sledgehammer falls,
Like the metal going into the train track
A child’s right temple goes into the carpet,
For a minute the melody is silenced
And yet this boy can only hear violence
Stumbling through the air,
His breath is quietly bitter and yet he drinks all of it…
At thirty he listens closely to the song of the bruised maiden,
Her tears have mutated into all sense of tolerance
She is a broken kitten subjected to fealty,
His ears make out the sonorous cuts upon the shoulder
And anticipate twisted blood run over her mouth,
Her eyes sing a song of suicide
For with each breaking smack and sophomoric scream
Solidarity reveals a treasonous feeling within him,
An imitation of terror for his thoughts
And a smile of misfortune for at the end
The tragedy begins anew,
Sound of indignity ignited as the door opens
And the devil in the form of him struts through it,
Her fright is flaunted
Flaunted deep across the boundary of his sanctuary
With bells chiming gospels deep into his thoughts…
Gods. I am so dark and twisted that I scare myself sometimes........
In the shadows of my love, a haunting truth lingers – my boundless affection, a curse veiled in desire. I dread the certainty of my impending ruin upon you, yet, entangled in selfishness, I refuse to release the grip of this heart that claws at your soul. You, dear one, unwittingly embody my twisted salvation.
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Don’t waste ur time to kick against a wall in the hope to transform it to a door.
"There’s something dark in me that he cannot get rid of."
— Evan Morte
Both Sides of a Threshold
I am perceived as imperceptible
Directed to be indirectable
Formed to be formless
Harmed by the harmless
I am liminal
I am solace amidst silence
I am void amdist violence
The humors in humanity
Holding our heavy hearts
Empty spaces, empty cages
We are many, we are one
I am more, I am none
The fleeting whim of folly
Fortold our fate
Horror and hate
We are the inhuman
We are the unexplainable
I am miasma
Cautious creations
I found myself haunted
Haunted by my own elations
Emotions emptied
I am we
And we are alive
Tried by undeath
I am abandoned
I am alone
And only here
Do I find what purpose defines me
Rejecting my human side
Becoming the spaces between
I am liminal
I am maisma
I am the void
We are less than human
Becoming more than humanity
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