“Little bit closer please.” The director commanded through the speaker. Dean moved his body closer to you then both of you smiled to camera.
“Good! Lets take a break.“ The director gave compliment and followed by claps from the staffs sign that both of you did a great job. You were filming CF together, with the talented producer, rising RnB star, Korean news wave; Dean.
You’ve known each other for pretty long time since you did an interview with him in MBC station and now you met again after a year at the shoes commercial. Dean walked slowly to his couch to get some rest, the first scene is already done. Then nine scenes left waiting of him. The shoot went fun because mostly of the director and the staff were already work with him before in another project, so it’s easy for him to get along beside the fact you were also someone whom he knew before.
You decided to approach him first, to greet him after long time not seeing each other, “Oppa, have you eat something?” You asked, you brought a red big bag with many lunch box inside of it which was enough for Dean and his staff.
Dean looked up to you and smiled when he noticed the bag on your hand, “No, I haven’t. Why? What is that?” He curiously eyeing your bag.
“Lucky you, I brought this for you and your staff. Enjoy the meal!" You grinned then handed the bag to him, he received it then peeked inside the bag.
"Woahh, there’s a lot of food. Thankyou.” Dean smiled brightly, the food looks delicious and he couldn’t wait to eat.
“Have a great lunch, I’m gonna take a break too. See you in an hour!" You bid him goodbye then left.
Little that you knew when you out of his sight, Dean chuckled as he opened his lunch box, mumbling the words; "Y/n is cute.”
After one hour break, they started to shoot again. The staffs prepared property for next scene while you and Dean waited for them, both of you were in make up room to re-read the scenario.
"I’m curious.“ You said, starting a conversation.
“About what?” Dean replied while he busy rolled his shirt over his elbow.
“Its just a shoes commercial, then why there’s a lot of hug and lovey-dovey scenes?” You read the scenario back and forth, not fully understand why.
“Look at this, then this, this, this, oh this too.” you added while pointed the written scene in the scenario.
Dean joined you and checked them for you, “is that your way to say that you don’t like to do it with me?” He pretended to sulk, you knew Dean was kind of joker and sometimes his antics was too much for you to handle.
“Aishhh, it’s such a waste time to ask something to you. Oppa always tease." You playfully hit his arm with rolled scenarios paper in your hand and both of you giggled. Shooting preparation seemed take a long time and for killing the time you went online with your phone.
“Do you have instagram?” Dean asked out of the blue.
“Yes, I do.” You grinned then showed him your new instagram account, you decided to have one to share your daily with your fans.
He looked at your phone and said, “we should follow each other.” then he took your phone, typing his own instagram username and clicked the follow button the he gave your phone back to you.
“Wait a minute, I’ll follow you back.” He fished out his phone from his jeans pocket and seconds later you saw a notification on your instagram account that he followed you.
"We should meet often, I miss you and you’ve been very busy lately.“ He said and you found your heart beat faster hearing his words, "are you free after filming?"
You stared at him for a moment, did he just asking you out after filming? For real? But before you could reply, a call from the staff interrupted.
“Y/n-ssi, it’s your turn to take a shoot.” Dean gestured you to go and gave you his boyish smile, "I’ll wait for you!”
Total days for shooting were 5 days, because there were several series of shoes so they had to shoot one scene for each shoes. The more you spent time with Dean, the more you realized that Dean is fun and heart warming person, he had been so friendly and talk to you a lot after the sushi date few days ago. He called and sent you message only for asking what you though he already met you at the filming set.
And today day was last day of commercial shoot.
"You have to come, I will give you a nice place in front row and access to the backstage.“ Dean gave you VVIP ticket for his upcoming concert next week. Both of you were in the middle of lunch break, sharing each other snacks. So sweet, right?
"Really? Club Eskimo will be there too? Can I have Millic’s sign?” You asked, half surprised and half excited. You were fan of Millic’s work, you even followed his soundcloud and played his songs whenever you’re working out. His music was unique and you like it.
"Hey, how can you ask for Millic’s signature while I’m the one who invite you to come?“ Dean pouted, he felt little bit annoyed. You weren’t sensitive enough and you couldn’t read the sign that Dean has interest to you.
You noticed his sour expression and couldn’t help grinning, "I’m just joking, please don’t be mad.. I promise I will come, thank you for the ticket, oppa!” you squealed, waving the ticket in the air. Dean has been promoting his new album lately and decided to do the concert started from Korea and then Europe.
“You have to come, keep your promise.” He warned.
It’s the day. Dean’s opening concert was held at Seoul and would be started in few minutes. The scream from fan girls went crazier when Dean’s appeared in the middle of dark stage. Chanting his name along with girly squealed, calling him oppa and told him how gorgeous he was.
“Kyaaaaaa! Oppa!” You won’t lose against the girls, you kept shouting even though you knew Dean couldn’t hear you. You wanted to enjoy his concert by your own, so you decided to not bring your manager, staff, stylist or assistant.
You saw how Dean’s teasing his fans with his smooth body roll on the stage, causing the girls squealed in delight. His voice was so beautiful and it would make anyone feel like he was putting his spell on them instead of singing. It made you forgot that you actually there for your adoration to Millic. You chuckled on yourself, now you acted like star struck.
am I a fangirl of Dean oppa now? am I one of the rebels?
After concert ended, just like what he promised you. You given an access to go to back stage and chose to use this gold chance, you went to the back stage with the escorted by the bodyguards as they led you to Dean’s waiting room. Dean’s staff welcomed you and opened the door for you only for finding Dean sat on the couch playing with his cellphone while next to him was Millic who busy took a selca.
When he heard his staff announcing your arrival, Dean looked up at you and smiled, "you’re here." He was literally grinning, obviously couldn’t hide his excitement then stood and walked closer to you.
“Oppa, congratulations.” you handed beautiful flowers bouquet to him, appreciating how he worked hard to entertain the audience.
Dean looked little bit shy when he received the bouquet, "Thank you for coming, hope you enjoyed the concert."
"I did! You’re really cool!” You gave him two thumbs up. “Oppa really did great!” You grinned and little you knew that Dean’s heart melt when heard your compliment.
It’s been two weeks after the concert and Dean asked you on date again which gladly you agreed to. There you are, sitting in the restaurant, facing each other. He disguised himself as he wore dark blue beanie to cover his hair and also his big green parka with white shirt inside it, paired with black jeans and his favorite white old skool vans.
Both of you sat on the corner which Dean sat facing the main door of the restaurant while you sat back facing the main door. In the middle of the conversation, Dean’s face turned serious and you felt his body tensed as he told you to look down.
“Look down, look down." He said, almost whispered.
You were confused but followed his instruction anyway, you kept your head down and asked, “What’s going on, oppa?”
"There’s someone took our picture, he sat behind you." Without hesitation he took off his big parka and gave to you, letting you to wear it. "Wear it, and cover yourself with it. It will be difficult for them to take your picture, they can’t see your face." His voice could tell how worried he was, but he managed his facial expression so well.
R&B SINGER, DEAN SPOTTED ON DATE!
That was media said in the headline of any magazine in this morning and there was Dean’s picture with you walked behind him. Fortunately, his parka was perfectly help to cover you. Just when you thought they’ll never found out about the mysterious girl who went date with Dean, there’s another picture of you when you went to watch his concert, you looked in awe watching Dean’s performance.
You saw another jaw dropping title along with your picture holding flower bouquet and escorted by the bodyguards, walking to the back stage at Dean’s concert. Not only that, there was another picture of Dean holding the same flower bouquet as yours when he spotted come out from the venue after his concert.
"Dean and Y/n seems developing feeling for each other after filming CF together, they look so close and in love, supporting each other career.”
“Can we not to talk about it? It’s not the right time.” you were arguing with Dean. For the last two weeks both of you often had a fight and today was the third times you had fight in this week. Your jaw hardened, holding back your anger. He was always like that, whenever you confront him, he always tried to run away. Instead of reassuring you like other boyfriend out there would do, he just walked passing you and busy tying his bow tie while checking the mirror.
“No, I won’t let you just walk away from this problem! We need to talk, you always run away! Stop being coward and act like an adult!” you grabbed his arm, forcing him to stop whatever he did.
You looked at his eyes, trying to get the answer but there’s nothing you could find. He was no longer your warm and understanding boyfriend like he used to be, he was standing in front of you but you felt you both were falling apart.
Actually, debating and arguing wasn’t your style, yelling at each other wasn’t the way you solve your problem. You always decided to take the time, calming down yourself then talk later. But Dean’s insensitive and inconsiderate behavior was pushing you on the edge, it made you had no choice, confront him was only you could pull on act.
“Y/n, stop. Calm yourself.” he sighed then reached your shoulder to calm you down but you swat his hand right away.
“You want me to calm? Then you must stop act like a child!” you yelled. It’s frustrating and you finally lose it. Usually it went the other way, Dean was a short temper, he easily gets mad over every little thing. But now it’s you who acted like that.
“We’ll talk about it later, I really need to go..” he leaned in to kiss your cheek but you turned your head.
“Forget it, there’s nothing to talk anyway.” you turned on your heel then rushing into main door and slam it carelessly as if you wanted Dean to notice how angry you were.
Weeks passed after your last counter with Dean, he was still act like nothing happened and the more days passed the more you felt he became so distant and changed towards you. And became so fed up with his behavior, you chose to confront him for the last time. You wanted to fight for your relationship before it ended. Anything could happen but you wouldn’t give in so easily, at least you would fight first.
You arrived at Dean’s apartment in the morning, when sun already shine. You noticed he was at home, judging from his missing slippers from shoe racks. When you walked further, you spotted he was sleeping soundly on the couch, laying on his back with his mouth slightly opened, his living room was a mess, dozens of used beers cans, an ashtray which almost full with used cigarettes. Obviously he drank all of them and smoke the cigarettes the night before, but why did he?
Deciding to not go easy on him, you walked towards the glass window and shoved the curtain harshly so the sun would hit him directly. And as you expected, you heard him grunts as he tossed himself around, avoiding the sun ray.
“Shit, I’m going to be blind.” He groaned in annoyance.
“I thought you already blind since you can’t see what’s happening with us.” You snapped.
He squinted, adjusting his sight before he sobered up and realized that you were there.
“Y/n?” He said, wasn’t sure it was a question or statement.
“Good thing you wake up, let’s talk and fix this.” Your respond was so straight forward.
“About what?” He started to get up, struggling to stay clear since the hangover hit him pretty bad.
“Us.” You emphasized the word us in bitter tone, deep down in your heart you didn’t even sure there was still us between you and Dean.
"I thought we’re okay?“ He looked so lost, or he might just act dumb.
"No we’re not, it’s because you are so selfish and I’m sick with your insensitive behavior."
"I’m dizzy, y/n please don’t rise your temper. We can talk, but first let me drink some water.” He stood, about to walk to the kitchen but stopped right away when you said.
"I want to break up, now.“ You said, very confident from your usual self, covering the bitterness on you heart. You had it enough and he needed to stop being an ass.
"Why?”
“Because it’s the best for us, I was waiting for you this past weeks. I thought we would talk, fix things together, make up and grow stronger. But instead of doing that, you spent your time to jump from one party to another. It’s useless, now I know you’re not taking this relationship seriously.”
“But-“
"No, please don’t say anything. Just hear me out because I won’t say it twice.” You said, taking a deep breath before continued, “What I feel for you clearly and obviously is love, but love is making someone feel they worth in your life, love is something you would fighting for. Do you think love is only let other happy while you struggle on yourself? I’ve been fighting for us, I tried to fix things. But I can’t, we need to work together. We could meet at the half way, but you’re not even trying.“ You swallowed the bitterness then added, "I thought we’re in the same page.."
He took a step closer to where you stand but you gestured him to stop, “Y/n.. I-”
"How many times more I have to be patience and understand you? Was this past years never enough? How long you’ll keep me in the dark?” Your voice became hoarse, holding your disappointment.
There was no longer tears coming from your eyes, your heart was damned and broken even tears couldn’t help you to channel your emotion. You were too tired and broken while Dean only standing there, thinking what kind of excuse he could spill this time. But for you, everything is over.
"I can’t.“ You said then you heard he groaned through the phone call. Your boyfriend, Korean RnB singer, Dean was calling you, asking you to have date since both of you were busy with work. It had been three weeks you and him couldn’t see each other.
"Why? You don’t miss me?” He sighed, feeling hurt by your rejection.
"Oppa, you know why-“ you tried to argue and make him understand the situation.
“You know I don’t care.” He pointed out, cutting off your words without hesitation, he sounded cold.
“But I do.” You replied, “think about your career..” you pleaded, it wasn’t your own will. You loved him and you wanted the best for him as well.
“Fuck them, fuck what they say!” He raised his voice, sounds angry. You knew he wasn’t angry to you, it’s no one fault. It’s just because you and he came out as public figure and the media happened to love to know whatever happens to you, so yeah..
"It’s better to not meet each other for awhile.“
"And slowly killing me inside?” He scoffed.
Recently there was rumor about Dean and you, they released the picture of you and Dean when both of you came out from one of store in Milan. It was captured almost six months ago when you had secret date with him, both of your agencies already denied and said the two of you were only acquaintance, hiding the truth that you have been dating him for almost three years.
After the photo released his fans went crazy, your fans were also doing the same. They literally went uncontrollable, flooding your instagram account with hating comments, called you names about how could you so careless about your reputation as innocent idol and so on.
The denying wasn’t completely an idea from you, your agency were cool about the dating news because you already passed your dating prohibition.They gave you choice to admit it or not but the other hand, Dean’s agency was completely taking this news seriously. The rumors of his dating will affect on his career and he didn’t have a chance to admit it since his agency made him not to even though he really wanted the whole Korea know that you’re his.
"It’s hard for me too.“ You sighed, slowly feeling frustrated by situation. This was your consequence for dating, your fame and his fame have two kind of effect, either it’s good or bad.
"Then let’s meet, shall we go abroad? It’s more safe there.” He suggested, you knew how stubborn your boyfriend is.
"They followed us to Milan last time, your fans wouldn’t like to read another rumors.“ You reminded him, slightly annoyed, not because Dean. But remembering how far dispatch interfered your private life really bothering you, they took it too far.
"But I really don’t care, if they love me then they’ll let me to have my private life, they’ll respect my decision. True fans wouldn’t act like that, they’ll understand.” He argued, Dean could be stubborn like a bull if he had to. There’s nothing going to stop him if he wants it.
"Apparently your fans aren’t like that, well mostly.. They just need time to understand that their oppa has a girlfriend. They don’t want to share you yet.“ You said, pressing your annoyance on the side. Being idol and working already gave you stress, the news wasn’t helping either but you tried to understand him. He must be tired as well as you and bickering wasn’t going to fix anything.
"And you want to share me with them?” He retorted, he has so many talents, beside singing and producing music, Dean knows how to press your button and rubs you in the wrong way. He just know and he could be pain in the ass sometimes.
“That’s not what I implied!” you hissed, of course you wanted him for yourself but the situation wasn’t helping. You missed him and if you hooked by his emotion then you knew how it would be ended, a big fight which both of you would regret it later.
“I’m tired playing hide seek with the camera.” He confessed, his voice sounded hoarse and desperate.
“So am I.” You shut your eyes, you didn’t want to cry because crying wouldn’t change anything. You needed to be stronger.
“I miss you..” he said slowly, making you more missing him and wondering all the possibility if he was with you right now. You missed the feeling when you cuddle him and share the days.
“I miss you more, you know that.” You whined, feeling so frustrated.
“Then meet me tonight."
And you knew, Dean was unstoppable.
"I can’t believe I’m agree with this.” You pretended to be annoyed that at the end you did agree to meet him at one of his favorite sushi bar.
You missed him and live had been like hell without his presence. The place was nice and private so you didn’t have to worry about getting caught again. Or even if Dispatch found you, Dean wouldn’t care at all. It’s enough for him to hide your relationship for the past three years.
He grinned cheekily before sending you his sexy wink, “It’s because I’m too hot to rejected."
How you really wanted to smack his gorgeous face with your lips, "you’re too cocky, mister.” You bit your lip, trying to deny the magnet on his lips that made you kept staring on it.
"Then stop staring my lips, you know you can kiss me whenever you want.“ He said in seductive voice while licking his lips, so cheeky and hot! Not forget to mention that he’s your boyfriend and you felt so lucky for that.
"Stop fondling me, you cheeky bastard.” You pinched his not so innocent hand which happily dancing on your thigh, rubbing it up and down sensually.
He flinched a little but back to roaming your thigh more further, it’s the first day he met you after three weeks and he couldn’t control his hands on you. Well, he never did and never will.
"It’s the purpose to wear this dress, right?“ He slipped his hand between your inner thigh making you closed your thigh together so his hand was trapped and it couldn’t go further.
"Oppa, not here!” You hissed and smacked his hand, making him back off for a moment, pulling his hand out but his cocky grin never disappear from his face.
"Your place or my place?“ His eyebrow wiggled sexily.
And your jaw almost fell on the ground hearing that.
"Honestly I prefer on mine but wherever you want, it’ll be my command. Though, a very hot quickly session in the car will be nice, you know we always can have the dessert first before the main course~” he grinned innocently then stole a light kiss on the corner of your lips, making you shivered.
"Come on, I miss you and this dress isn’t helping at all. Let’s get out of here and we’ll help each other to do something fun.“ He offered his hand and you’re too in love with him to say no.
After he paid the bill, he intertwined his fingers with yours as both of you walking out from the restaurant. When you reached the lobby to wait his car from the valet, suddenly millions flashlight were bombarding you and Dean. The sound of snapping pictures, people talking, calling you and Dean.
The press were there and it’s completely chaos.
You shut your eyes immediately after numerous camera blitz hitting your eyes, saving your eyes from the pain of numerous camera flashlight, you could be blind!
You felt Dean’s hand gripping you strongly, sending you the signal that everything will be alright. You just need to stick on his side no matter what.
"Dean, who’s she?"
"Isn’t that y/n?"
"Y/n, are you dating Dean?"
"Did you just went a date?” They kept asking both of you questions, the security helped you to escape from the crazy press but they weren’t enough to make a clear way for both of you to reach the car.
"You’re dating her?“
"So the rumors is true?”
"It’s true that both of you are thing?“
"Since when both of you dating?"
You hid your face on Dean’s hard chest and he immediately pulled you closer with him, securing you from the crazy crowd. The wild blitz could make your eyes blind, do they realize that? You felt so upset, you wanted to scream and telling them to back off.
Dean’s body felt so tense, you knew he was battling in his mind, since you could read his body language easily. He was so angry and he could explode in no time, but he masked his off for the sake everything.
“For how long you’ve been dating?”
"Miss y/n, please say something.“
"Then why did you two deny the rumors?”
"Please tell us.“
He kept silent, not bothering to answer the questions. He made himself your human shield, keeping you safe with him. They literally mobbed you and Dean, who knew that the hunger of meddling in someone else’s life could make people rude and impolite. They would do anything to hunt you down.
Both of you almost reached the car but the crowd went wild because they didn’t get what they wanted, they started to push each other, wanting to get more of close up pictures of you and Dean. You started to trembling and Dean felt your fear, he pulled you even closer so your face was completely meeting his chest. You knew he was trying his best to hold his anger at bay though you knew how responsive was Dean when it comes to anything, especially the bad thing. He won’t hold it any longer.
"Dean, say something."
"Y/n? What are you thinking about your boyfriend denying the truth that he actually in relationship?”
"Don’t you want explain to your fans as well?“
"They deserve an explanation."
And we deserved a privacy, you retorted inwardly.
How could they be so selfish? Accusing you and Dean for being cocky and arrogant while you were also human, you deserved the same thing, the right to keep whatever you wanted to keep.
Dean’s jaw clenched, what they did to you and him was too far and unpleasant, "Please move!” He oredered to the crowd, but they ignored him.
You felt how Dean literally shoving them with his body, passing the crowd while trying his best to keep you save. They budged a little then you felt they come back against you and Dean, just then someone’s camera hit your head pretty hard, unintentionally, making you flinched in pain and Dean finally lost his temper. He was raging and ready to kill anyone.
“I said move!” You heard him yelling and a voice of camera fell off harshly on the ground followed right after.
The crowd became more uncontrollable, both of you knew that tomorrow will be more tiring and frustrating to fix what happened this night, but you didn’t care anymore as long as Dean with you.
