#destiel meta

[blueeyesblueties]

Apparently this was cut from Swan Song...

"You haven't spoken for hours."

HOURS

Cas just... followed Dean around for hours after Sam died. Silently. Just stayed with him.

Let that sink in...

Hours.

[sofiiiarts02]

happy destiel yaoi is real

[watching-spn]

dean in 13x05: life has no meaning and i am going to kill myself

dean in 13x06: life is AWESOME and i am having the Best Day Ever. cas, we're gonna wear cowboy hats and also i am the happiest man alive

[reallyunluckyrunaway]

[echocas]

I've been seeing this anew lately and I'm ........? The way Cas is laughing, genuinely laughing in a way we rarely see. And you can tell by their body language that they talk like this all the time (I would like to see it)

But what really kills me is Dean's face. He's so happy to be making Cas laugh like this, he looks so PROUD. You can see the anticipation in his expression as the joke's about to land, his body turned, watching Cas' reaction. Ugh they're so in love

(I know this is born of cockles but my point stands 😌)

[lichanicksstuff]

The funniest thing about destiel is that they give each other silent treatment every time they fight. They pass each other in the kitchen not saying a word, actively ignoring the other one. And when one of them does say something, the other is rolling his eyes to the sky and mumbling a bitchy response. They bicker like an old married couple to the point everybody else (mainly Sam) is telling them to cut it out and fix whatever is going on between them. And then they do, with longing gazes and soft apologies. And the funniest part is that it's canon. We saw that happen. Twice.

[drulalovescas]

when you realize cas never got a chance to see dean mourn him. to see what his death did to dean. how it broke him completely. SHATTERED. he never saw dean's utter despair. anger. complete hopelessness. he only ever saw dean's joy when he came back. and so cas figured that his death simply didn't affect dean all that much. that dean could be happy with Cas gone. that Dean could go on. Move on. cas never understood that this joy, this hope, this smile on dean's face after he came back was ONLY BECAUSE HE CAME BACK. CAME BACK TO DEAN.

Cas was the REASON.

[valdelion]

I don't think we pause often enough on the tragedy of Dean's desire. He yearns for an angel, but he's a performative womanizer who's spent his life having crude one night stands, for the most part.

Sex is a pathetic act of need, a primal necessity of survival, its pleasure built into it to make it inescapable on an animal level. It must be excruciating for Dean to want Cas like that, like an animal, when he knows him to be a transcendental being that is different, and better, than him in every way. Dean must think his desire to be humiliating and pathetic — and it keeps being proven by Cas' apparent disinterest in sex and anything relating to his vessel. Cas only has sex once when he's human, and with a woman, then never again. That is sad proof to Dean that Cas doesn't interest himself with the biological needs of humans like that. But that's the tragedy. Dean considers his desire trivial and unworthy: he needs him, he wants him, and in the shame he feels for having desires, he cannot get rid of them, however hard he tries to ignore them.

Cas, on the other hand, sees all of Dean as worthy of respect and love, but he doesn't understand Dean's yearning. At his inception, he's not wired to link sex to his own self, no close connection to his identity: angels don't need it for survival, they're not used to a form on Earth, and he's far too preoccupied with Dean's essence and safety to really take a look at his own budding desires. But he does have them, especially after becoming human and then reacquiring his body that becomes more and more his own instead of just a vessel.

So when Dean finally hears "the one thing I want, I know I can't have", that's their point of contact, of understanding