#dezzys diary

[desperate2lose]

September 26th, 2023

8 AM: todays weigh in dayyyy! i hope i lost some weight 🙏🏻 plsplspls

10 AM: 248.2 🎉

i’m still disappointed because i lost my previous progress but this reassures me i can still lose!

OOP forgot to post this but i totally fucking bunged last night i went like 500 cals over screams

[desperate2lose]

240.4 -only lost 1 lb this week but better than nothing 🤷🏻‍♂️

[desperate2lose]

this week

[desperate2lose]

made these zigzag schedules and im rly excited 🥰

if u want more info on zigzag d1eting you can see this post

[desperate2lose]

246.6! thats 2.2 lbs lighter than on tues

[desperate2lose]

September 27th, 2023

11 AM: i basically eat oatmeal every morning now, it makes me so happy

7 PM: siiiigh my back is fucked up from 2 nights ago. i went to urgent care and they just gave me muscle relaxers :/ i was hoping there would be a quick solution

9 PM: i binged so fucking much today i feel sick. hopefully i throw up 😞

[desperate2lose]

September 24th, 2023

7 PM: i didnt weigh myself this morning which is good because i only want to count my weekly weigh ins.

for breakfast i had a huge chicken sandwich (650 cal) and for lunch nothing. i had a powerade zero and for dinner my partner is making ham & broccoli cheese pockets.

i could feel a binge coming on, so i got more powerade zero and a shit ton of sugar free candy and chocolate. that way if i binge the damage won’t be as bad.

8 PM: i’m sooooo full from dinner thank god!

also i got more vitamins! yay!

1 AM: i think i have food poisoning or something 😭 was in the middle of rly good freaky sex when all the sudden i had to RUN to the bathroom 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[desperate2lose]

September 23rd, 2023

10 AM: 248.8 🥳 (not official til tues tho)

12 AM: yeah so i basically was called fat today i cant wait to be out of this hell hole