For years, I have been struggling with procrastination that has hurt the people who are closest to me. I have admired people who were always at the top of their game and can still balance their priorities, while I have a lot of excuses to concoct. It took me 2 years of my life taking things slow because I used to believe that everything is yet to happen.
This pandemic, I have been taking charge of my life as I fight off my lackadaisical habits and I stopped making excuses.
It was the last day of May and the start of the week and I wanted something to do by gradually ticking off some of my to-do list. I started with the completion of my requirements on the onboarding site in my work.
It has been taking me so long to accomplish it, simply because I was just lazy and I did not feel like doing it and it dawned on me that I no longer want to be unemployed for an extended period and project my frustration in a lot of things.
I still wanted to learn something while I was completing my task, so I listened to an audio lecture on Persons and Family Relations. It was refreshing to study while doing some chores and I have to get used to this habit since I will be working and studying at the same time and it is all by God's grace.
I also reduced the clutter in my room by folding my clothes from the laundry as it was an eyesore and it distracts me from doing simple tasks. Being lazy is being stuck in a vortex. I was sucked in but the more I make excuses the more tasks are being piled up and as someone who has ambitions; it is an irony.
I came not from an affluent family to feel sorry for myself and not to do anything, I'm tired of making myself comfortable when I need to get out of this zone and learn more as I embark on a new journey. I know it will not be easy, but things will get better.
The Lord Jesus has told me, according to Acts 1:7 that it is not for us to know the times or dates the Father has set by His own authority, and it comforted me amid waiting when will I ever bloom and if so, why it has taken me such a long time but then, I just need to trust the Father for the plans He has for me as of now I am blessed to learn this even in the hard way for it has made me drawn closer to the Lord.
I know this is easier said than done, yet I still need to prepare for the best and worst thing to happen as I face the new reality in the coming months ahead and now, I just need to be the Lord's faithful steward.