❝ sometimes i wish you would just LEAVE ! ❞ he does not mean to be angry ; especially not at the sibling who never strays too far from his side ( not to the only one who has been with him, regardless if it has been out of need. ) he’s scrambling over the floor, knees painfully pressing into the neatly polished wood as fingers with short bitten nails DIG into grooves he is sure did not exist beforehand. he’d dropped his pill, and now the demons are once again banging onto the doorstep of his poorly defended brain.
❝ I DON’T NEED YOU, BEN ! ❞ he knows why he’s saying this / knows why the anger drips from his tongue like venom, but that does not mean that he’s able to stop the bitterness from slipping out. he’s gone too long without a hit, without a way to shut out the world inside his mind which once again is starting to feel too real for his liking. ❝ so why don’t you just do me a favour and leave me alone. ❞
@duresce ( for ben, maybe ? ) // ♡ this random starter call









