#eddie's stuff

[deadpoetshouse]

macrodosing on killing myself by always being full of self hatred and isolating myself

[deadpoetshouse]

every single year i tell myself that i just gotta make it to spring. and then its spring and i made it and i wish i hadnt

[deadpoetshouse]

i hate being Avoidant because why am i avoiding stopping avoiding

[deadpoetshouse]

dreamt about my waist being held last night ????

[deadpoetshouse]

the voices that tell me that im only good for my body are back! <3 yay yippee ^_^ i Laurve my brain!

[deadpoetshouse]

i keep creating my own problems and then getting upset that i have to deal with them

[deadpoetshouse]

i miss everyone ive ever met & i miss my old friends who i haven't thought to text in a while & i miss anyone whos ever been nice to me & i miss everyone ever actually . i miss everyone whos ever been my home

[deadpoetshouse]

ough i hate instagram and social media and having to interact with people i barely know i just want to have like one to five close friends that i can just talk to all the time. yes this is my avoidance speaking but holy shit why are we expected to be available to all any time of day?? i hate the concept of online stalking, i hate the concept of having a semblance of me always available online, the whole thing of 'social media' is so incredibly exhausting. social media has ruined lives, it has ruined my mental health, and it may be what finally ruins me for real