Let Me Do Better (Edward Cullen x Reader)
this was requested by @actyourownfandom-23 I had to switch it up a bit since i really could not figure out for the life of me how to write something like that but I hope you enjoy.
(y/n) was devastated, how could he? after all those promises, all that time they spent together, everything they went through he just decided to leave her after a little bump on the road, they had been through much worse than the party incident.
(Y/n) felt empty,broken, confused as someone would say, the worst one was the betrayal she felt. As the months past her pain turned to anger, she felt like he had no right to leave like that, she felt like he did it out of a selfish act, it was never about her he just wanted to leave and just found an excuse to do it.
She felt the need to change, do something to switch up her life, shake things up a bit, shed the old (y/n) and go through new experiences and who knows maybe even forget him, for now however she just needed a distraction from all the things that happened.
She started with her hair, people always complimented her facial bone structure so when she walked in the school with a nice long bob students could not help but stare at her, then a few new clothes, put some more color in her closet. She got tired of the little earth and dark tones
The final part, her body. She needed to do something to improve herself as a whole but also let loose and put all her feelings to it, what better way to do it than punch the hell out of someone. Kick boxing classes were starting at the only gym Forks had and she was one of the first to sign up.
“I’m not going to lie when I saw you I thought you would give up on the first week”
“When did you change your mind?”
“When you broke your nose and kept going with the match”
Her instructor was a man in his mid 30s, he was a kick boxing pro but after a serious injury he couldn’t train like he used to, so he came back to his hometown to teach classes.
“A high school break up can do wonders”
“Is that what pushed you?”
“Yeap, left with his whole family a day after my birthday”
“Ouch, that must have hurt”
“Anyway, let’s go do this shit”
(y/n) had just started competing against others in official matches and people had to admit she was actually good. Nobody expected this type of 360 turn to her entire lifestyle when Edward left, Edward didn’t even expect it and when Alice told him that she saw her getting punched and kicked and had a bloody nose he got sick to his stomach, all kinds of scenarios coming through his head.
So he came back to see how is she, checked in to the hospital but was surprised when he was told that there was no one with serious injuries with her name. He stayed a few days to gather some information and you can guess how shocked he was when he saw her enter a gym with her boxing gloves tied on her big back and her now much shorter hair up in a ponytail.
He was sitting in the back of the room, watching her so intensely that if looks could kill (y/n) would have been already dead. He didn’t know what to make of this, should he be happy about her moving on with her life as he told her to? Or sad (y/n) became violent and found interest in hurting people?
He watched as she kicked and punched and threw around her opponent, as well as getting kicked and punched herself, her nose was bleeding and she was sweating profusely, but she still kept going until she came out a winner. Yet again he didn’t know how to feel about her win. He approached the lockers he was told she was in and was met with what he assumed to be her trainer waiting outside.
“Sorry man you can’t go in”
“Of course you are, but since she won I will play along. Tell me your name and i’ll tell her you are here”
As the trainer knocked and walked in Edward was for once happy he had the powers he had, including supernatural hearing and reading thoughts.
“Hey there is this dude outside asking for you. His name is Edward”
That’s when he wished he couldn’t hear her thoughts, he was met with anger, curse words, panic and everything in between those feelings.
As he entered the room and was left with her he was stunned. She had changed so much, her body was now much more athletic, her muscles defined and she looked strong and capable to conquer everyone and everything, her hair short and a different color, something she had never mentioned she wanted to do. What hurt him the most was her facial expression, harsh, cold and unfriendly. She had her guard up
“I know I shouldn’t be here”
Ouch, that was like a straight stab in the heart for him. He should have known the damage he had caused, still he expected to just be welcomed in with open arms? how foolish and selfish of him to think it would be that easy
“Alice saw a vision of you getting punched-”
“Yeah it’s something that happens in boxing”
She cut him off with a sarcastic reply. She turned her back to him and let her hair loose from the ponytail she had them in, she felt her hands shaking as well as her knees. She never thought in a million years that she would see him again, especially now that she was finally doing well with her life.
“(Y/n) I know I hurt you”
“No you don’t Edward, well maybe you did but you didn’t care to think about it, so what do you want from me now?”
“I came here to talk to you”
“About what? About how you left us? how you put yourself first?”
“I wanted to keep you safe”
“Safe? I almost died in the first few months we dated, you put your family first and that’s fine, totally fine just don’t lie to me about how my safety was first”
He saw the pain, the tears building up in her eyes threatening to spill and it was eating him alive. He didn’t know how to act, what could possibly make it better. He took one step towards her, opened his arms to go and hug her
she screamed, stopping him as fast as she could. Then, she just collapsed, flopped in her chair in front of her face and started to cry, her whole body shaking. Edward took the chance to approach her, kneeling in front of her and placing his hand on her knee.
“I’m sorry, that’s all I can say now. Please (y/n) I never wanted to harm you”
“It doesn’t matter what you wanted, it’s what you did”
“I can do better, I beg of you (y/n) let me do better”
