#elise rants

[zzluvsronweasleyyy]

i love jonathan byers so much, nobody gets me anymore. i just want to wear his clothes and cuddle in his bed or like get high with him while cuddling and saying sweet things to each other

[moonartemisia]

I should get back and post more of Heijun here 💔 I actually have so many updates about my yumeship and Heidi! I made a wikia template about her so— it's been progressing a lot ;3

I wanna interact with some people here too. Being in X (aka twt) is stressful yet overwhelming. I just wanna post Heijun so much. Passionately, I do love Hajun cause he is my one... he really means to me lots! ^_^

[moroslavklose]

don't throw tuchel under the bus for this.

he was given an incredible amount of pressure, and i think he really could not have done more. individual mistakes cost him tonight.

the board gave him 3 of the most difficult games of our season to start with- a huge title race game, which we absolutely dominated in, a knockout game in the cup, where freiburg, who sat back ALL GAME, won via a screamer and an idiotic penalty, and a knockout game versus pep guardiola's manchester city- where our only no.9 was injured, rodri scored a wonder goal, and upamecano fell apart. till that point, tuchel's game plan was working well.

what more could tuchel do in these situations? it was not his fault. he's had like 2 weeks prep!

our board and our players are the main issue. our board for jumping the gun with nagelsmann and butchering the no.9 situation, and our players for being under par. im sorry but it's true. whether its through stupid mistakes or being the opposite of clinical... they've seriously dropped the ball in this half of the season.

[oh-my-chevalier-blog]

Am I the only one that sees it as a little messed up how women’s and men’s formal wear present the wearer differently? Like, menswear looks good, but it completely covers the man with a comparatively loose fit and doesn’t usually present his body as part of that good look. Whereas for a woman, part of looking good for a formal event is her body. Her outfit will show more skin and be more form-fitting than a man’s. She is almost presenting her body as a part of her formal look, which isn’t necessarily bad--it’s just something that’s absent in menswear. Men are allowed to present their clothes first, and their bodies second; women aren’t.

[raypakorns]

i have so many thoughts and feelings about tonight’s clip so here’s me trying to make sense of it all w a poorly written and waaaay too long list enjoy

the part w the boys before the party was v cute and i liked it a lot, it almost made me forget all the shit that was gonna happen

elia joking about luca eating all of marti’s food hurt me bc while it could just mean marti doesn’t eat a lot i read it as him hurting and not being able to eat bc if that

gio just looking at marti looking sad throughout the convo while eating.. my h e a r t

while i get that argentina is super pretty their fixation on her makes me uncomfortable, teenage boys being excited about the girl they’re attracted to being super wasted at a party doesn’t sit well w me

(of course this could be a way of showing the kind of behavior or standard or whatever marti is surrounded by and expected to live up to but if that’s the case they need to be called out asap. they’re generally kinda sexist (s1 i’m looking at u) and that’s not cool. boys will be boys my ass. boys will be held responsible for their actions please and thank u)

the part with them dressing up k i l l e d me it was so cute!!! ninja chops! air guitar! ties! the boys trying really hard to cheer up marti bc they love him and know something is wrong

the party scene fcusking killed me no overexaggeration whatsoever

the guards took no shit which was fun i like them

marti sees nico and all of a sudden it doesn’t matter that this is emma’s brothers birthday party doesn’t matter he needs to get in and talk to him

speaking of emma,,, yikes. she needs to have a talk w filo

og emma’s speech or whatever was bad and hurtful but i feel like this version hit a bit harder u know? maybe it’s in contrast to filo’s speech yesterday where he made it clear that just him leaving his house looking a certain way can get him killed and emma just goes ahead and says that no one cares if he’s gay or not,, that’s not how it fucking works and a punch in the gut for people who experience homophobia on a daily basis

it’s 2018 emma, don’t be fucking ignorant.

when marti saw nico w maddi my heart broke even though i knew it was gonna happen, and i want to clarify that a def don’t blame nico and i love him. maddi is safe and comfortable and knows about nico’s mental illness and won’t leave him or make him feel like a burden

i’ll say that i’m pissed about maddi telling emma tho (i was pissed about sonja telling too) bc even though emma def deserves to know she’s being lead on marti doesn’t deserve to be outed. maddi doesn’t know how emma’ll react and what she’ll do w the information (if they follow the og that would be outing isak/marti which is not great)

(and sidenote i really don’t think marti has been leading emma on as actively as isak did, it’s honestly been pretty onesided except for hi. kissing her at the party in ep3)

and finally, the reason my heart is in pieces and i stayed up until 4am last night: the fight

HOLY FUCK

just like everyone’s already said (and i will now repeat) marti lashes out on the boys using what had pained him that night, the girls they like making out with others, them embarrassing themselves etc,, it Hurts

elia dragging marti’s mom and dad into it? not cool. i think that the boys are more familiar w his situation here than in og so it hurts a lot, like while mahdi made a joke elia was deliberately hurting and trying to get some kind of reaction from marti, which i mean he did

marti punching gio,, i’ve never felt such pain in my life

and finally marti alone, screaming and cursing and kicking and punching and crying, all of which the boys probably heard, made me seriously cry

federico cesari is incredible and deserves a fucking award

aside from og hotel scene and o helga natt i think that this is the clip, out of every clip in every version, that has given me the biggest emotional reaction (it’s also tied w hotel scene as being the most difficult to watch)

in conclusion: fede is incredible, i am sad

[zzluvsronweasleyyy]

chip dove from jennifer's body is so jonathan byers coded

look at how cute these babes are

[zzluvsronweasleyyy]

chip dove from jennifer's body is so jonathan byers coded

look at how cute these babes are

[oh-my-chevalier-blog]

How go the searches for specific Christian Church to enter?

Ahaha good question! *finger guns*

Even though I’m still going to an Anglican church, I’ve kind of crossed them off my list because they seem like an easy way out of committing to an older Christian tradition. My parish is very Anglo-Catholic, but I realize that a lot of that is specific to our parish, and that beliefs and practices vary widely within Anglicanism. Basically, Anglicanism has a sort of lax view of most theology that I find dissatisfying. I’m sick of being told that I should decide every point of doctrine for myself; I want to submit my interpretation of Scripture to a higher authority. The question is, which authority?

I’m still discerning between Orthodoxy and Catholicism, and I have various issues with both that I’m trying to resolve. The history is very hard to get over; both sides have committed atrocities, and sometimes it’s hard to believe that either one is guided by the Holy Spirit.

I realize that I’m only 17, so I kind of doubt my own judgement, and wonder if my desire to join a different church tradition is just a way of teenage rebellion against my past. And then there’s external, social factors about my possible conversion. My dad, long story short, would try to explain away my conversion as something the Enlightened Youths™ are doing these days. And I’m between a rock and a hard place when it comes to churches in my town. My stepmom’s Orthodox church doesn’t have people my age, and going to the other Orthodox church would complicate things unnecessarily. The biggest Catholic church, the one my stepmom’s family goes to, has a pretty mean youth group and I don’t want to have to go there. The other one has a girl that used to be my friend, but was so clingy and socially inept that I’ve avoided her ever since; and there are other churches, but in any case I don’t know how I could become Catholic without running into them eventually.

On top of all that, my twin sister has made it clear that she’s not looking to convert to anything. That really hurts, because we’ve always done everything together. She said she’ll support me in anything I decide, but it’s just not the same.

Tl;dr: Still at an Anglican church, considering Catholicism and Orthodoxy, family unhelpful. 

If you pray for me, please pray that I have the courage and clarity of mind to become a member the truest Church.