zari 1.0 joins the team partly because amaya is there and she wants to connect with her. she falls in love with this quiet and reserved warrior who teaches her how to connect with people after a life on the run. amaya leaves, and zari kinda js has to cope until charlie gets there who is amaya but not bc she’s spunkier and louder and more abrasive and zari doesn’t quite know how to deal. this isn’t her amaya and even though she’s reminded of her everytime she looks at her, amaya is then wiped away when charlie smirks in her punk rock style. but in spite of that, zari falls in love AGAIN but it’s different, more visceral, more likely to actually be reciprocated but then zaris gone and charlie doesn’t even know what she’s missing except a vague emptiness in her chest that she tries to fill by sleeping with behrad but it doesn’t help and now things are weird but he brought his sister aboard and she is gorgeous and rude and weirdly familiar in a way charlie can’t place. still, charlie gets to know her and kind of finds her general off putting behaviour charming in a way and knows that behind it, zari is real and genuine and unfortunately straight, but there’s a moment where charlie thinks, maybe just maybe. but she doesn’t have time to dwell because a clone of behrads sister is here and claiming she’s known charlie before and yh she’s hot but she doesn’t actually think that- her memories are back and there’s two kinds of love there, one raw and visceral and punk, and one flirty, quick and pink? both fiery, both all of her, both impossible. so she leaves. she tries to make it quick, not to drag it out. so zari’s’s are alone again. both of them. one tries to fill that void with john and his issues which ends with more grief and the other just tries to get by. unable to fully assume the life she once lived but plagued by the memories of it and the brother who will never truly know her.
sorry that’s all i wanted to say
