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Fearing Love by Kay Lindy
Fearing Love by Kay Lindy
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Fearing
Love
by
Kay
Lindy
Sept
4th
Fearing
life is no way to live, but for Jessica Garrison, it’s the only thing she
knows. After she lost her mother to cancer, she couldn’t bring herself to live
with her father any longer. The lies and deceit she protected her mother from
during the last months of her life now felt like betraying the loving…
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Jamie Jones
Fearing love
I have the feeling lately, that I fear love.
I used to think that every time I got near a guy, I didn't get my hopes up because I've simply never had luck with guys. Never. I've always been pushed immediately into the "friend zone," or the "oh, she's smart, maybe she can help me in this class" zone.
I'm single, and I would consider myself happy, but there are moment where I crave the affection that can't be given by a family member or friend -not even my best friend. And I know it's not the end of the world to not have a boyfriend, I do, but knowing and accepting the fact that I don't have one just kinda strikes my ego hard.
That's what it's all about, right? Ego? At least in high school, it feels this way. Screw it, most of the time it's for ego and pride, high school or not, the way I see it. And I'm not saying there's not "true love" out there, and that you can't find it in high school.
However, I don't think I myself can find it. I always had it in my head that after I moved across the country that one day I was going to move back -hell, it's still in my head, and I plan on doing so -So I wondered if it was a defense mechanism, that wheneverIthough that things were looking atiny, tiny, tiny bit brighter, that I started picking out all the flaws. And maybe it is.
But now I don't know what to do, faced with a guy that I don't know if I can find the flaws in. I'm a little scared. There's a part of me that's so relieved, but the other part of me is anxious, and not in a good way. He scares me, in the sense that I'm no longer sure if I'm ready for a relationship (not that we're there quite yet, but it's looking a helluva lot better than any other "almost relationship" I've ever been in). He seems to see straight through my core, and while I'm not one to keep secrets, ask anyone, the thought scares me. Probably a little more than it should.
I don't want to be hurt. I've gotten to this point so many times before. I really don't want to be hurt.
And I'm usually more organized in my thought process, but when thinking of this situation, i don't know where to begin while explaining it. It's like there's a clot in my system where all the words are catching on the tear in my thought process. And it sucks.
Have you ever felt this way?
I'm Scared
That people would look at us and think "Why is he with her?"
Or another girl would be so nonthreatened by me that she would try to steal you from me.
That your parents would hate me and wonder what their son is thinking.
That our mutual friends would look at me and assume he's doing it out of pitty.
I'm scared that we'll take the next step and you'll change your mind.