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Good night.
It was an ok day. Today is my first day with the journal. This was originally an advise from an asshole. But the thoughts I have is unbearable at this point and I need to let them out. Also therapists are retarded and I don't have a community to talk to so it's the best solution I could find. An online journal in Tumblr. It's here because I also need a little bit of attention. But will be anonim for sure.
I decided to help myself mentally today. I made an old notebook into agenda and planned my days and weeks. It helped me. I will not force myself to conquer the world in 1 day anymore as I now understand it takes way longer and nothing is more important then my piece and mental health.
I always believed that to let go is for weak. and I never knew how to let go, I can't let go. I'm not weak. I hold. I keep. I'm like this. I hate people who let go. Why