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partyfoul dunny tends to stand out from what’s considered trending these days. He is USA based rap/hip hop/trap Artist.His latest track, For Me is definitely a track everyone can feel and relate to. partyfoul dunny mixes his sharp sensible lyrics alongside the melodies to create the perfect track to vibe. The rhythm and the beats […]

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For me - Artizt line

For me Undeniably this is a masterpiece of first-rate music.Partyfoul Dunny is USA based rap/hiphop Artist.His performance is unbelievably matchless and the listeners will find the gravity of his talents when listening to this song. He had said “I grew up with nothing and nobody I made something out of it.” Straight outta Austin TX […]

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[iditolkovpered-blog]

«Прошлое забывается, помни об этом, мой добрый друг.

Вся боль, которую ты чувствовал тогда, будет лишь тенью в будущем.

Новые имена, места смогут затмить то, что раньше было для тебя любимым.

И прости уже наконец себя. Перестань грызть, отпусти. Осколки вытащи, сшей части и прекрати плакать, когда впивается кусок.

Всё будет потом лучше, чем есть сейчас.

Может быть потом ты будешь улыбаться, смеяться даже над этим..

Но сейчас можно сесть, включить текучее прошлое в наушниках и умереть.»

- погранец и ранец

[guerreramarquez]

finished class of muay thai!!with Ernesto Vergara Ballesteros.thanks for everything ... #Ernesto_Vergara #amecamecadejuárez #ameca #muaythai #goodmorning #nice #cute #for #for_me #exercise #rayito #always #i-am-muay-thai #i_have #i-am #for_you❤ #fortnite #free #more #for_we (en Amecameca De Juárez, Mexico, Mexico)

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Motivation

As I have been making the changes and tweaks to my life this summer, a few people have started asking me how I have found motivation. This is mostly with the workout stuff that I have done. They’re not really asking how I am motivated, I think they’re asking if I can give them tips to be motivated. I’ve done my best to help, but ultimately motivation must be intrinsic for it to really work. You have to find what it is you want to be and what you want to accomplish for motivation to work and be sustainable. That’s not to say that extrinsic motivators can’t also play a role. So here are my current motivations

1. Be A Better Me

I believe in self improvement, I just haven’t done anything about it in a meaningful way for a long time. You’ll have noticed that I have been trying to write about self-care more and that I am taking that seriously. This is my primary motivation. I would like to have professional success that I had started to believe was lost to me. I would like to have interpersonal success as well. I want my life to be a fulfilling one under the assumption that this is the life I get and just this one. I’m going to make mistakes, but I want to make those mistakes because I’m trying to achieve something in my life, not because I’m trying to avoid something. Working on me has been satisfying and it has helped me a great deal

2. For Nanners

This is an extrinsic motivation, I know. But yes, I have been working on me in the hope that perhaps my recent ex, Nanners, might see who I have wanted to be and who I am working on being and be able to turn on her feelings toward me again. It’s a long shot, but I really believe in that relationship as being a meaningful and powerful relationship. I believe in love as a dynamic experience, but an experience that is sustainable and not fleeting and whimsical. I would fight for love. By making the changes that I have been, I’m fighting for her even if it ends up being a long defeat. I love her a great deal and think very highly of her as a person. I want to take risks for her. I want to climb tall things for her. I want to be attractive to her. I want her to know me. It’s been a long time since I’ve felt this way. And honestly, this is the first time I have made changes to me as a way to fight. That means something to me. No, I am not trying to be a person that she would want me to be. I want to be who I am, I just want to be a better version of the person I am. If she loves that person, I would be delighted. If she wants to be with that person, live with that person, and share a life with that person, I would be ecstatic. I know it is a long shot and that it is likely that she does not want any of that with me. I’ll be ok if that’s the case, but yes, she is a motivation for me.

3. The Future

I am also motivated for the future. There are things I want to accomplish that I have to work on now to put myself in a position to have a future I want. I want to live a long life if I can. I want to be able to share years of experiences with people in my life. If it’s in the cards, I would like to be around to be a father to a child or children. I would like to retire. And if Nanners does not want the person I am becoming, I am trying to make adjustments so that a person in the future might want to be. That’s a motivation to. I think I have a lot to offer in my life, and I want to be able to offer that. Yes, I want to offer that to Nanners right now. Yes, I know I could offer it to her for the rest of my life. But in the event that she does not share that belief and desire, then I have a lot to offer someone else who thinks I am worth a risk and that I could be enough for them too. I’m not there yet, but I’m not closed off to the possibility. 

So those are my motivations right now. They’ll change throughout my life, but #1 needs to stay #1. What goes into that category will change, but I need to make sure I am always taking care of myself so that I am in a position to care for, love, help, etc. other people in my life. So here’s to being motivated.

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Comb Ownership

I bought a comb. An actual comb. For hair. And not for charity, but for myself. 

This seems like a relatively banal thing to post about. But if you know me well, you know this is a big deal. This is an extension of this whole betterment project I’m on. At some point in high school I made a choice that I shouldn’t have nice things. Part of this was guilt because of the privilege that I know I have. Part of it was an aesthetic of not being wasteful. And it was probably a sign that I was kinda done caring about myself, or at least a first step in that direction.

Through my racing career, graduate school, and being underpaid as a adjunct instructor, I made good use of this austerity mindset. I don’t really buy much new unless I’m urged to and badgered a bit. My clothes don’t fit perfectly well, but they are good enough. I let my hair go wild and think nothing of it. I wear my shoes until water leaks into the soles. I look like a person who almost has their act together, but not quite. I look like someone who doesn’t deserve much because look at how they present themselves to the world.

This might have worked in high school. It’s a somewhat punk aesthetic. It might have worked in college. But it doesn’t really work for life. There is certainly a fashion of used. I like that aesthetic, but not entirely. But because of my unwillingness to care about myself, I am entirely in that aesthetic. 

I’m working on not being because I know that it gets in my way. As a grad student, I had one suit. It’s what I could afford, but I need a few probably. Part of my identity is to be a professional, and so a wrinkled, poor fitting suite doesn’t really back that up.

I know this has also impacted romantic relationships. I actually really like dressing up and going out with partners. But I don’t have much worth wearing for such occasions. By looking like I don’t care about myself in what I wear, I’m sure they felt like I didn’t care about them either. That they weren’t worth the effort for me to look decent. It’s not what I intended, but I can easily see how that could be what I conveyed. 

Now, in saying this, I’m not suggesting that I’m advocating or actively trying to be some vain person. My looks do matter some to how I convey my identity and what is valuable to me. But looks aren’t everything. I wouldn’t judge a person solely on looks and I wouldn’t want to be judged solely on looks either. 

What I am saying is that it is worth it to me to put in a little more effort. Buying clothes that look good, match, and are not falling off my body is not some negative thing that says I do not care about the poverty and need in the world. I once thought it did. 

I want fashion advice. I want to work on this. I want to develop a sense myself. And I wouldn’t fight when people want to help or get me things like I did in the past. I secretly liked it. That shouldn’t be a secret. Why did I hide that something others did for me was pleasant? That’s so ridiculous I can’t even make sense of the mindset I had developed that put me there. 

Combing my hair isn’t some act of vanity. It keeps my hair looking good and untangled. It means I care enough about the world to put in some time.

I would even let you comb it. 

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lyrics VERSE 1 For a good man someone might die But for an enemy Lord why When I loved only self and sin You gave Your life to call me friend CHORUS Every lash of the whip Every stroke of the hammer upon Every nail Every insult You bore Every minute You hung Between heaven and hell Every thorn in Your crown Every tear on Your back Every drop of Your blood Was for me Oh it was all for me For me Oh it was all for me VERSE 2 It was for me oh Lord Such grace unknown I pour out my love to You And praise Your holy name For all the things You’ve done Credits: Words and music by Mark Altrogge © 1999 Sovereign Grace Praise (BMI)