Hello Everyone!
The last time you heard from me was...technically a few hours ago...but I said I was to take a small hiatus an it turned into something much longer then that. Well truth of the matter is, I didn’t realize how much I needed to get away from simblr until I actually went through with it. Many people have told me to go but I was so wrapped up always trying to impress people it was slowly make me go insane. My desperation to be noticed caused a few of my friendships to become damages with my vile, jealous words. And my thirst for BC wins he made me mentally snap on more then one occasion to the point that many people exclaimed that I needed help. I needed to escape from all of that. Because it wasn’t until after I left that I realized that Simblr was never supposed to make me get that stressed out in the first place. I was much happier then I’ve ever been and it felt like the world has been lifted of my shoulder. I felt free again. So what does that mean for me? I’ve thought about it and I’ve a few people this months ago, but I feel that it’s time that me time here has come to an end. Every simblr has that moment where they look at their blog and realize that his isn’t for them any more and the passion is just gone. This is my turn. Will I ever return? Who knows? There were a lot of personal irl issues that factored into my decision to leave as well. Also the whole thing with my computer is another thing that pretty much handicaps me with this blog. But the main reason I’m leaving is to try and better myself and learn to control my raging jealousy. Within the new fandom I’m apart of I’m slowly learning to do that and I’m growing as a person. I don’t want to go back to that person who threw a tantrum every time she lost a BC. God, I was such a loser... So I want to take this time to formal apologize to anyone I may have hurt during me time here or during my absences. I want to apologize for letting my insecurities or my imagination get the better of me and has said very vicious things that have hurt you. I want to apologize for blocking people just to protect my feelings and self-doubt. For all the dumb,childish, extreme intolerable behavior I presented during my years here. For losing long term friends due to my envy. I know I can’t take any of them back and that my apology may mean nothing to you, but please know that I’m trying to get better and that I’m truly truly sorry. I will be on my personal but it’ll be extremely rare, because I’m not just leaving simblr but Tumblr, the site as well. This site is just unhealthy for me and I feel like I need to escape it once and for all. Thank you for listening! And thank you for a unique experience I’ll never forget.