i feel lonely even if im with people. i feel sad if i don't see you and when i do i feel hurt inside. you hurt me even when you think you're doing nothing. your laugh brings ache to my heart. and thinking of you holding another woman's hand brings beyond unexplainable feeling of hurt, sadness and loneliness inside me even more than that.
i am letting you go now. i am not mad at you. i am mad at myself for loving you so much that i couldn't bring myself together when you're there. i will not say i'll forget you because that is impossible for me to do. but i shall not think of you any longer. i shall not cling unto you like i did before. i will not think of you as a bad guy because if i do, it would be very awkward when we bump into each other. i most probably think i'd curse you in my head but that won't happen. i find peace and solitude in letting you go even though it still hurts when i think of you being with someone. its okay even if it hurts. i'll get over this somehow. i know this is only hard at first, like all the other guys that i've been with its not like i haven't felt this pain before.
i love you. i love you. i love you.