Dear ex best friend? Dear crush?
i’m upset that you found it okay to call me your long-lost sister, to confide in me what you’ve never told anyone, and then turn around and ignore me when i needed you. i’m upset you’re back in my life but as a constant for my actual best friend. i’m upset you chose to talk to me everyday and disregard what you did to me. i can only be so upset, but i’m glad we had good memories. i’m glad you have new friends and i’m glad you seem happier. i’m glad that you allowed yourself to get rid of the toxic in your life, even if it was me. i understand what i was to you, and i’m sorry i couldn’t offer more.
i’ve liked you for too long and it feels like whiplash. i have had so many emotions when it comes to you, sometimes i can’t look away from you because you’re beautiful, but sometimes i want to punch you for how ugly you act. we’re friends, we say hi, talk about trivial things, sometimes about life things, but sometimes we completely ignore each other. those days you talk to me, i feel elated and i shouldn’t. i shouldn’t care and pine after you. especially when i can’t tell if you’re doing it on purpose. i’m hopeless and you might as well be clueless.
send me someone to write a letter to!