[ ache ] for jon, from avery? i almost jumped the gun and sent one from ed but i behaved...
@forebodes / kissing meme / always accepting
"You're doing very well, Avery."
He means it. Jonathan hasn't ever crossed a patient with such an interesting fear response. It seems the Murkoff trials have done something incredibly unique to McGinnis, though Jonathan isn't sure he ever should have supplied them with any of his fear toxin in the first place. Whatever happened to Avery to cultivate this response must have been... Invasive. Even by Jonathan's standards.
When he was watching Avery before all of this, he saw those black-outs. He saw what Avery has done to people.
Maybe what happens next is Jonathan's fault. He's grown fond of Avery. After all, that feeling has been there, hasn't it? It's why he took Avery in the first place. He couldn't just watch him anymore; he had to have him.
The restraints come off, and Jonathan cups Avery's face with one hand. Gently grazes his thumb along Avery's cheekbone. He's awfully touchy, awfully close. It's admittedly skirting on inappropriate, but Avery... He responds well to it. And it's important to Jonathan that he comfort a patient after each session.
Jonathan also isn't very good at denying himself what he wants.
His other hand finds Avery's shoulder. And he's about to speak again, but his words catch in his throat when he takes in Avery's gaze. Half-lidded, dreamy. For a moment, all he can do is look into them, wondering what Avery is thinking of. And maybe he would have asked, but the answer is discovered quickly - Avery's freed hands grab at Jonathan's lab coat and reel him in. For a kiss.
Don't. Don't. Don't.
He shouldn't kiss a man. He shouldn't kiss a patient. He shouldn't kiss someone after a session, of all things.
He shouldn't. He does.
It's fiery, passionate. More like they both want to consume each other than simply kiss. And it's not just a kiss - Jonathan can't help himself. No, this is the release of tension he's been holding in and doing his best to ignore. His hands are shaking. He climbs up onto the chair, putting himself over Avery. Grabs hold of Avery's face with both hands, kissing him deeply.
No, he's not very good at denying himself what he wants.
