#here's some insight

[natashas-bucky]

17, 22, 32 :)

thank u rea ily!!

17 - any phobias or fears?i am so claustrophobic its not even funny 

22 - where would you like to travel/live?i reeeeally wanna go to spain and brazil, and i’d maybe wanna live in greece (@lydiastlies holla) but also i love lil ol’ melbourne

32 - favourite movie?SO HARD ummmm dreamgirls, she’s the man, and interstellar are top 3

send me a number?

[evelyncrussotvrp-blog]

Self Para || East Ending

Her hands feel stupidly useless as she attempts for the third time this meal to hold a fork and knife properly. It's not that she physically can't, it's more that her body can't recall even the simplest of functions without the kickstart of liquor. Her thumb catches on the heavy handle of the knife and it nearly sends peas rolling from her plate, "Sorry, sorry--" She stutters, reaching for her napkin, already preparing to sop up a mess she hasn't even made yet. She will though, she knows she will. Evelyn's been in the Shoreditch rehabilitation centre for eight days and she hasn't made it through a two hour period without an incident since she first stepped through the doors. "Evelyn?" And sure enough, at the sound of her own name, the frail girl jolts and dumps half a glass of apple juice so that it spills like a waterfall onto her own lap, "Sorry, sorry--" She stutters again, shaking her head as the napkin dissolves and sticks to her skin and clothing with the new introduction of excessive moisture, "Sorry--" "Evelyn," the nurse calls again and when Eve lifts her eyes, they've regained that "wild" quality it takes two sessions of therapy to remove, but the nurse stares back, unabashed, "Your turn with the phone, love," and almost instantly the flash of fear and anger and animalistic aggression that once pierced from Evelyn's gaze smooths over and she doesn't seem so out of control. Evelyn looks at the nurse, and she seems sadly unwilling to do much of anything but blink back and forth at the figure stood before her. The nurse nudges a step closer, "I've put the memo book of contacts by the phone-- When you're ready--" The woman offers and Evelyn's already out of her chair. Her weak knees have to work overtime to take her to the small bench beside the phone and it's a miracle she makes it there before she collapses, cradling the phone like it's a newborn child. She's out of breath-- Her lungs expanding and contracting rapidly out of excitement and anxiety and she's flipping through the memo pad, pushing the pad of her finger against her own smudged writing until her thumb falls flat on the small card she's taped to the end of the notebook. It has his name, his number, and the print of his finger in the smudged ink. And just as rushed as he'd been to give her the number, she was equally as hurried to dial it. She pounded in the numbers mercilessly before cupping her hands around the speaker, her own eager pants pushed back into her own face. She closed her eyes as the phone rang, "Pick up, Harry--"

[nexusadventures]

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I am so happy I finally got the balls to start speaking to you and RPing with you.

I found you/your character early on to me RPing in Wildstar; but I was pretty intimidated by both you and your OC! I was intrigued though, as you seemed like a really...what's the world...consistent and like honest RPer? IDK. But at the time I only had Meeri out, and your character I thought would be a little to harsh for her in the state she was in at the start of her character arc. I worried that if I did approach you for RP with Meeri, that your character's harshness and sarcasm might bruise my poor little bby's fragile personality. And I didn't want to have any more RP of someone making Meeri cry (which happens more than you'd think), so I just figured I wouldn't.

After some time of deciding not to approach you for RP, I started noticing your OOC posts and I REALLY liked and agreed with you on a lot of things and really enjoyed your commentary.

FINALLY, after I took a long break from RPing and almost quit recently due to a lot of things; I decided you were more or less the only person in this god-forsaken scene that hadn't pissed me off with something they said or how they handled any of the Dumblr drama. I became really disinterested in a lot of the people I was following and had a pretty poor opinion of basically everyone in the Wildstar RP Tumblr scene(sorry guys). SO I finally reached out with you to chat about a lot of different things, and OMG. It was so catharthic! Finally being honest and open with someone about my experiences these first few months of RPing, and my opinions about the community; without having to censor myself out of fear of being excluded or burning bridges. It felt really good! And then what you said back to me...it all helped me actually WANT to RP again and have hope for my involvement with the community.

I then started seeking out some new people to follow and interact with. After easing back into it with your help, I've reevaluated the people I wrote off and realized that everyone wasn't an asshole and a lot of my judgements on the people I were following were sort of projections based on the drama that just started circulating between everyone on Tumblr, and then my own insecurity and jealousy about RP. After I realized that, and with your support; I was able to feel confident and happy to interact with the RP community again.

Honestly, if I didn't reach out to you, and if you weren't so supportive and kind to me when I did; I don't think I would've gotten back into this RP scene. I probably would've let my Tumblr die out and just do some random RP here and there and just play the game.

So thank you SO MUCH, for listening to me, supporting me, and encouraging me to keep going. And for validating my feelings and experiences.

It's meant a lot, and I'm really happy that I stopped being intimidated by you and started talking to you

:) <3